"No!" he shouted.

Heavy breathing. Cold sweats. In a dark alley of a cold night. Kyu's tears fell. He did it again. He looked to the side. A one
sided grin. Half of his face is splattered with blood, he cannot do anything.

"You shouldn't have loved him, Kyu. You know it." he said to himself, sounding no regrets about what happened.

Kyu looked back once again. Ryeowook, his lover; eyes opened, blood gushing, lying on the cold floor breathing his last breath.
Finally. Dead. Kyu looked at his hands covered with his lover's blood. He did it again. He killed the person he loved yet again.
It happened before and it happened again tonight...when is he going to stop?

He took off his clothes when he reached his house, placed his blood-soaked clothes in a rusty garbage bin and burn it. The
orange red fire sent him to slight tears. He likes the fire, the heat that almost burns his face and the feeling of the rush of
blood in his veins. He doesn't like fire; but he wish he could burn himself right now. He doesn't know what exactly he wants.
The strong scent of smoke makes his nose curled. A tear fell again... and yet

A one sided grin.

"Stop mourning there, Kyu... you know it's going to happen." he told himself. He closed his eyes and another tear fall.

"Until when are you going to stop?" he asked himself back. "Stop killing people, Hyun. Stop killing the people I love." he
said calmly but his voice shows loneliness and firmness. A chuckle he freed.

"Tsch. I'd stop killing when you go to hell and let me live alone in this body." he replied to himself with his eyes glaring as
if he could see his other self like a reflection of a mirror.

The fire became smaller and smaller until it has fade away. Cho Kyuhyun went back inside his house.

Cho Kyuhyun. He started having a split personality when his parents died. He cannot cope with the thought that his parents
killed each other in front of him. He cannot even remember the reason why it started he cannot remember anything about it except
they stabbed each other in front of him.

2005, he first dated a tall guy named Choi Siwon, he loved him with everything he is, and suddenly he woke up in his bedside
with the same man. Only, Siwon is soaked with his own blood, a knife stabbed in between his chest. There's no breathing anymore.
He wondered what happened. He looked at the mirror and saw someone came out with a one sided grin. He saw himself.

"You..." he said in front of the mirror. Horror in his face cannot be denied. And yet his other self showed joy and angst at the
same time.

"Yes. I did." his eyes sparkled yet with darkness. It made him shiver and scared but the other one liked the feeling. "Who are
you?"

"I am you. Cho Kyuhyun."
Kyuhyun already knows Kyu. He is gentle, caring and smart. He likes taking care of people, he helps Kyuhyun cope with all his
problem and he is Kyuhyun's only friend. He didn't know there is another person inside him. Kyu's other half, Hyun.

Hyun became a demon inside Kyuhyun. A silent demon whom he doesn't know when to come out.

He tried to forget about everything that happened to him and Siwon. Hyun doesn't exist anymore or so he thought.

2007. He met Donghae and fell in love with him. He was a person who relied on Kyuhyun. He likes dancing and taught Kyuhyun how
to dance better.

"Let's always be like this, yes?" Donghae said as they walked together, hands interlaced as they look forward to a future
together. That night, while Kyuhyun was at home, he smiled a one-sided smile. Kyuhyun was so happy about him and his lover that
he didn't even notice himself doing it.

"You shouldn't love him, Kyu. He might die like that of the last time." he said in the mirror, reminding his other self about
what happened to his lover before.

"I won't let you." Kyu said.

Kyuhyun and Donghae planned to meet each other in a small coffee shop nearby. On the way there, Donghae spotted a tall, thin
guy in the dark alley. He shivered shortly but smiled.

"Kyuhyun ah!" he said with a smile, he knows he saw his lover, probably waiting for him there. But Kyuhyun didn't answer
anything so he walked closer towards him. Kyuhyun doesn't let other people know about his disorder but he likes the fact that
Kyu loves his lovers the way he does to them, maybe even more.

"Kyu?" Donghae called. A gasp of breath made Donghae realised that a cold metal was stuck in his chest. His eyes widened. Blood
gush out of his mouth as he started coughing. His visions became blurry and his brain started expanding.

"Sorry, wrong name!" Kyuhyun said as he smile one-sidedly. Donghae couldn't understand what happened because after the cold
laugh his lover freed, Kyuhyun became shocked and a tear fell on his eyes, shaking his head as if regretting what he did just
a while ago.

"No..." he whispered. "Donghae ah..." he knelt down and touched his lover's face now losing his breath. Donghae looked at him
still wondering what has happened. He has no idea what has happened to Kyuhyun at all. He cannot think anymore as well, his body
and brain are not functioning anymore.

"I'm sorry..." he told Donghae before the latter closed his eyes for the rest of his life.

Kyu swallowed. "You bastard." he whispered to himself as he bitterly look at the side.

"That's a sweet compliment. Thank you." Hyun said as he freed his signature smile despite the tears coming out of his eyes.

Those memories in the past. Kyuhyun cannot escape. Kyu wanted to leave Kyuhyun's body for his friend's sake but the latter
doesn't want him to leave. He knows what will happen if Hyun takes over his body.

In the midst of the day, Kyuhyun was walking lifelessly in the streets, still mourning on the death of his recent lover and
Hyun's victim, Ryeowook when he bumped into a short guy in white. Kyuhyun fell down.

"Are you ok?" the short guy ask. As if he didn't hear anything, Kyuhyun remained sitting down on the warm cement of the road.
The short guy puffed some air and took a hold of Kyuhyun's arm.

Kyuhyun was shocked when he realised he was being pulled up by the short man. He stared at the short man's face. "Yah... I'm
not going to take responsibility if some car just crash you here in the streets" the man told Kyuhyun. The latter watched the
man as he lead him to walk to the side.

Snap! He startled when he heard the short guy snapped his fingers in front of him. "Are you on drugs?" he asked Kyuhyun looking
at him, eyes rounded and mouth pouted slightly like a child checking out on a new toy.

"No I'm not!" he said defensively making the short guy step back. The short guy looked at him shortly in the eyes. His mouth
pouted even more. Why does this walking dead man scolded him? He sighed.

"Stress, depression, anger management issues and some sort of craziness. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk." he whispered as he shook his head.

"What? What does that mean?!" Kyuhyun asked irritably. The short man chuckled shortly and shook his head.

"Go see a doctor." he said and left Kyuhyun without a word.

Kyuhyun annoyingly followed the short man with his sight. On second thought, maybe he is right. He should see a doctor. After
an hour of considering which hospital to take, he's decided to walk inside the nearest to where he was standing at. 2 blocks
away from where he met the annoying short man. He talked to the nurse and gave him her contact and information. It wasn't a
short while before he was called. It took him almost an hour waiting.

"You?"

Kyuhyun asked when he saw the same annoying short guy a while ago sitting at the doctor's chair, wearing a white gown and pair
of eyeglasses.

"Dr. Lee Sungmin at your service." he said with a smile as if he doesn't know who that guy is in front of him.

Kyuhyun sat down and get ready to be checked up. Sungmin checked on his eyes with a small flash light. He asked Kyuhyun to open
his mouth and check the inside. He used the stethoscope to check on Kyuhyun's back and chest. 

He, then,  cleared his throat. "Well, you seemed fine for me."

"I thought you ask me to see a doctor. Now, you're telling me that I'm fine?" Kyuhyun said calmly and sarcatiscally.

Sungmin smiled sheepishly. "I just thought it would be nice if I could see you again. I didn't know you'd listen to my advice."

Kyuhun rolled his eyes and started standing up. "Hold on right there, Mr. Cho." he said without looking at the tall man. Kyuhyun
turned to face the doctor just in time when Sungmin throw him a ziplock bag with medicines inside. He caught it with 2 hands.

"Those are some vitamins B and C. Vit B may cause drowsiness so don't overdose yourself. It can help you sleep better at night.
It seemed to me like you're stressed over something and I'm not going to give you any stress tablets. But those can help you
to relax a bit. If you think its not helping you please drop by my clinic again." he suddenly smiled showing his bunny teeth.
"Aside from the fact that I can see you again when you drop by, I can recommend a psychologist for you."

"I don't need a psychologist." Kyuhyun said defensively ignoring the lame joke Sungmin said.

"Well it's not that bad to seek some help especially when you have some sort of depression. It can kill, you know?" Sungmin
said. Kyuhyun was about to say something more but the doctor pressed the bell to call for the next patient.

He doesn't know what he is doing. He looked at the bag of medicine that he has and took one. Not sooner than later, his eyes
felt heavy and he indeed fell asleep.

It was the longest sleep he had for this month and it did felt great. Kyuhyun sat up his bed with a smile. "What do you think,
Kyu?" he asked.

"I think it will be fine. Let's go back tomorrow and see him again." Kyu replied.

The next afternoon...

"I didn't expect to see you here again, Mr. Cho. Well, I wanted to see you but I didn't expect you to be here a day after yesterday.
What can I do for you this time? Is the medicine not working for you? You wouldn't really notcie if its working or not...
it only one day and-"

"I think I need your help." Kyuhyun cut in.

They found themselves sitting inside the clinic with Kyuhyun looking at Sungmin but with his warm gentle eyes.

"I suffered from a bad break up recently and I really don't know if I can still cope with it..." he started. He was about to
confess to the doctor about his trouble and other personalities but...

"Alright... that's not really that bad. Everybody suffer from heart breaks and that is beside the point, Mr. Cho."

"I'd be more comfortable if you call me with my name."

Sungmin nodded shortly. "Well, Kyuhyun sshi, the point is that, as much as I want to help you cope with your recent break up,
I am not a psychologist so this is my friend's card. You can contact him whenever you want, I'm quite sure he can help you."
he said placing the card in front of Kyuhyun. Sungmin watched him as he took the card and read it. He cannot read what Kyuhyun
is thinking about but he feels like he is really in need of psychological help. And he doesn't know why but he would really like
to see him again and again.

Kyuhyun met his eyes and looked at him gently. He sighed. Guess Doctor Lee won't really be of help. He stood up and continuously
read the name card in his hands. While Sungmin watches him. The doctor cleared his throat.

"Sorry, Mr. Cho..." Kyuhyun looked back at him as he saw the doctor slightly hesitant about something. Sungmin bit his lips shortly
and tapped his fingers on the table before he meet Kyuhyun's eyes again.

"I know I shouldn't do this but... will you join me for lunch today?"

Kyuhyun checked his watch. 4.30pm. "I haven't really eaten anything yet and I'm starving." Sungmin said touching his grumbling
tummy in a cute way hoping it will be an effective way to get this patient to agree.
Kyuhyun nodded and the doctor freed a wide smile.

He's just like Ryeong, he also have those sunbeam in his lips. He thought.

Soon after that lunch, Kyuhyun and Sungmin started going out regularly. Kyuhyun thought Sungmin just used the psychologist's
name to get him hanging around so he didn't bother calling him anymore. Besides, he felt better with this doctor around.

"Kyuhyun ah..." Sungmin said one time while they were out. "Do you think I have a split personality?" he asked making the young
man felt nervous, why of all disorder would he think he has a split personality?

"What? Why did you think of that?" Kyuhyun asked.

"Nothing... you see, I already had this habit of being too manly in front of guys and being too cute with girls around. I mean
it really changes rapidly, you know. Just like now, I am talking to you like this but with girls around I cannot stop myself
from becoming too gentle. And I will only realise I'm too gentle with them when I am done talking to them. What do
you think?"

"You don't have a split personality...you're simply bipolar." Kyuhyun said instantly receiving a light hit from the doctor.

That night they've decided to play some hide and seek and if the other one fails to find the other person in 5mins it means the
other person wins.

Kyuhyun became the 'it' and Sungmin started running away. After 100 counts, Kyuhyun started the clock and ran around to every
possible corner of the place. He thought it would be easy but it has passed 15mins and he still couldn't find Sungmin.

"Sungmin ah... I already lose, come out and start the game again!" he shouted, hoping Sungmin comes out instantly. "Sungmin ah!"
he said still running around hoping to see the doctor. And trying to find a difficult spot when it's already his turn to hide.

He started getting worried when he still cannot find Sungmin after another 15 minutes. He started panicking. What if something
bad happen? What if he was caught by some random bastard and just kill him? What if-

"Kyuhyun ah..." Sungmin called. "I was waiting for you to find me in that side. I didn't know I fell asleep. Sorry." he said.

Kyuhyun looked at him angrily. He walked towards Sungmin and looked at him with the same fierce reaction. "Kyuhyun ah...please
don't get mad-" Does Sungmin realised that he's been caring for him too much? Does Sungmin realised that he's been alot happy
now that he's around? Does Sungmin realised that he...

Sungmin's eyes opened widely when Kyuhyun grabbed his waist and tilted his head and owned his lips. It was like the time has
stopped ticking and nothing exists around them. What has happened to Kyuhyun? He didn't mean to fall asleep while hiding. What has
happened in between those minutes he was searching for Sungmin that made him own the doctor's lips like this? Sungmin tried to
find his reasons but instead of finding them, he saw himself enjoying at the sweet punishment he is receiving.

Kyuhyun looked at him right after that. His eyes turned gentle but only for a short while. He looked at Sungmin with a bit of
firmness, showing that he is worried to the point of getting upset.

"Don't ever get lost again." Kyuhyun said. Sungmin looked him as Kyuhyun slowly smiled. Sungmin has loved this man from
the time he pulled him up from the streets. He wrapped his arms around Kyuhyun and listened to his heartbeat. He has heard a lot of
heartbeats from his stethoscope, but Kyuhyun's heartbeat sounded like a song in his ear. A song he would want to loop to listen
over and over again.

This is it. Kyuhyun, he's in love again. He tried denying it though. He thought Sungmin is just another man who will just walk
pass his life but no. This guy is marking his place in Kyuhyun's heart and he didn't realise that the space he is taking in his
heart is already big until tonight.

He looked forward to days and months and hopefully years with Sungmin by his side. He felt happy. It was the first time he felt
great after Ryeowook's death. But it was different as compared to Siwon and Donghae. It is as if his heart is alive again.
He was very happy, he'd like Sungmin to stick around him at all times and he wouldn't to lose him to anyone. He'd treasure this
man close to his heart and would like to take care of him.

One night, while Kyuhyun was sleeping. He suddenly opened his eyes and a one-sided smile planted his lips. He stood up and took
his knife and kept it closer to him.

"Sungmin ah... let's meet at the rooftop of my apartment." Kyuhyun said. He wanted to give a necklace to his lover. His first
gift to him.

A one-sided smile was shown yet again. He saw Sungmin running towards him. They shared a short hug and kiss on the lips that
tasted so sweet Kyuhyun almost forgot about his gift. He was still in their deep kiss when he took out the necklace from his
pocket and raised his hand with it.

Sungmin saw it and let go of Kyuhyun's lips shortly after that. He smiled widely. "Wow! It's beautiful!" he exclaimed. Kyuhyun
watched him as he took the necklace from his hand.

Suddenly, Kyuhyun's warm smile disappear and turned into a one-sided smile. The warmth of his eyes changed into a cold glare
and his other hand reached out for the knife Hyun has been using to kill all Kyu's lover.

Sungmin was about to take the necklace when one of Kyuhyun's hand pushed him away, making him sat on the floor. Sungmin was
shocked when he landed on the floor making him unable to move. He looked at Kyuhyun. Why is his eyes like that? Like he's going
to kill someone? He thought.

"K-Kyuhyun ah..."

It was the first time he saw Kyuhyun doing that one-sided smile, and those pair of eyes being so cold and frightening. Sungmin's
eyes went downwards and saw Kyuhyun holding a knife.

"K-Kyuhyun ah..." he said again, this time a bit shiver in his voice. He's scared. He knows he dated Kyuhyun for only a while and
he doesn't know everything about him yet. He believed Kyuhyun will not hurt him even the slightest but what is this?

"He won't come out, he's always asleep when it's my time, Sungmin ah..." Hyun said making Sungmin even more frightened. Hyun's
eyes became sharper and glared at him as if he already sees Sungmin soaking in blood and is breathing the last of his breath.

"Any last message to Kyu, Lee Sungmin?"

He raised his hand, the one that is holding his knife aiming at the helpless Sungmin. He likes the fright in the short man's
face, the doe eyes that is closed to shedding tears and the sweet lips that is breathing heavily. He slightly admire Kyu and half
of himself for always falling for beautiful people. From Siwon who was so handsome to Donghae who has those lake-like transparent
eyes to Ryeowook who has a sunbeam for a smile and now Lee Sungmin who seemed to be a combination of all, they were all beautiful
and they will all end up in their pool of blood.

"Kyu is going to miss you." Hyun said slightly shaking his head with a trying hard to be gentle yet creepy smile.

It was then that Sungmin realised about what Kyuhyun is talking about. He was scared. He didn't know it really exist in people
especially in people these days and in modern years.

"Kyuhyun ah..." he called again. Hyun shook his head.

"You're calling the wrong name." he whispered. "No one is going to help you."

He raised his hand, the one holding the knife. "Bye. Sungmin ah." He his knife down and the cold metal sunk inside
making a swift sound of skin being ripped.

"No!"

Sungmin gasped his breath, eyes wide and a tear fell. He swallowed. "K-kyuhyun ah..." he whispered.

Hyun could have enjoyed the horror in Sungmin's face, the wide eyes and the slightly parted lips as if he is breathing his last
breath through his mouth, but he couldn't. Hyun felt pain instead.

"You-" Hyun said having a hard time breathing. He saw the holder of the knife hanging on his own body, on his upper abdomen with
blood gushing down from it. The pain was unbearable as if he was betrayed by his own self. He looked at Sungmin sharply as he
slowly fall on his knees.

"K-Kyuhyun ah..." Sungmin called as he watches Kyuhyun fall, his eyes are still in horror and he doesn't know what to do. Why did
Hyun stab himself instead?

Hyun's eyes blinked for a couple of times and looked up to Sungmin with tears in his eyes. "Forgive me... Sungmin ah... I
loved you... too much." he said, he could barely speak as the pain of the cold blade seemed to take all the oxygen away.
He coughed hardly and his eyes glared widely not believing what is happening. Hyun and Kyu are both awake inside one body.

Kyuhyun's tears fell as he hold on to his wound, he felt is warm blood getting cold on his own hands. The blood continuously
gush down as he tried to speak again. "I can't let you kill him, Hyun. I really can't."

Sungmin remained stone as he witness Kyuhyun talking to himself. Split personality. He didn't expect Kyuhyun to have a lot of
people living inside him. Which person did he exactly love? He hopes it is Kyuhyun himself.

Kyuhyun smiled at him sweetly. "Sorry, Sungmin. It's the only way I could think of." blood came out from his mouth slowly as he
the cold blade get warmed inside his body.

So he did love the real Kyuhyun. Sungmin thought. Kyuhyun stabbed himself to stop the other person inside him to kill Sungmin.

Kyuhyun slowly closed his eyes and stopped breathing. That was the time Sungmin ran towards him.

"Kyuhyun ah..." he called calmly, "Don't give up on me." opening Kyuhyun's shirt to apply first aid. He ripped Kyuhyun's
clothes and pressed it hard to prevent the deep wound fom bleeding even more. He pump the unconscious man's chest and applied
CPR. He wouldn't call himself a doctor for nothing. He called the ambulance and was able to arrived soon right after he revived
Kyuhyun's breathing.

After a week of being unconconscious, Kyuhyun opened his eyes. The wound that he made to himself stings but not as when it was
still with the blade in it. He saw Sungmin close to his face. The beautiful face that is closed to perfection. His eyes that are
so mystical and those lips that can replace any kind of alcohol.

"Kyuhyun ah..."

That sweet voice that made him smile. He must have been dreaming for so long that he thought some kind of people resided inside
him. He was free. Finally. He looked up and felt a warm palm on his face.

"You're safe now." Sungmin told him. Kyuhyun reached for his hand and carressed it. Sungmin smiled at him. "Rest first, I'll be
back to check on you later."

He nodded shortly as the short man left. He followed Sungmin with a sight. The door closes gently and then...

A one-sided smile.