Winter's POV

It's been almost a year na rin simula ng magstart ako ng college. Marami nang nagbago sa buhay ko. Busy na palagi dahil maraming kailangan asikasuhun sa school. Bihira na lang rin kami magkita nung bestfriend kong si Katarina Yu. Karina ang tawag ko sakanya bilang mag bestfriend nga kami.

Si Karina. Bata pa lang kami nyan magkakilala na kami. I remember when we were little...

"Winter, laro tayo."

"O sige, anong gusto mo laruin?"

"Bahay bahayan."

"Okay. Ako ang Daddy, ikaw ang Mommy and yang doll mo ang baby natin."

"Huh?" Umiling sya. "You can't be the Dad, you're a girl Winter. And also, no. Iniwan kasi ng Daddy ko and Mommy ko eh."

"Eh ano naman kung babae ako? And don't worry, palagi akong nandito sa tabi mo, hinding-hindi kita iiwan."

"Really? Sabi mo yan ha? Thank you WInter! This is why I love you!" She proceeded to hug me.

"Mahal mo ko?"

"Of course! You're my best friend, duh?"

"Right, bestfriend." I smiled.

Bestfriend. Yun kami sa isa't isa. Growing up, sobrang close kami. Package deal. Yung tipong hindi makakagalaw yung isa pag wala yung isa. Normal na rin sa amin yung sleep overs even when nag come out ako ng closet nung elementary. Hindi na bother si Karina whatsoever. Ganun kami ka-comfortable with each other.

It was in highschool nung magstart madevelop ang feelings ko. Syempre pareho kami nagdadalaga. Bata pa lang kami matagal ko nang pansin na maganda si Karina. Pero ngayon, mas lalo syang gumanda. Ang dami ngang nagkakagusto at nanliligaw sa kanya, both boys and girls pero yung iba alangan dahil sa sobrang closeness namin and how we act towards each other, akala nila ako ang girlfriend ni Karina. Tinatawanan na lang namin yun pero deep inside, gusto ko magkatotoo. Hindi ko sinabi sa kanya yung feelings ko kasi naisip ko nun baka naguguluhan lang ako at ayaw ko na masira ang friendship namin. Nung Junior Prom namin ko balak sabihin kay Karina ung feelings ko. I was going to ask her to be my prom date.

"Uy Karina, malapit na Prom natin."

"I know, I'm so excited!"

"So, uhm, will you be my Prom date?"

She raised her eyebrow and laughed. "Why? Ni-reject ka ba nung niyaya mo?"

"Hindi 'no. Ikaw ang una kong in-ask kasi diba, alam mo na..."

"Awww, Win, you're so sweet talaga." She grabbed my face and pulled me close to her. "Of course I'll be your date."

"Talaga? I mean, okay, great!"

Nagulat ako sa sagot nya pero syempre aarte pa ba ako?

Sobrang saya ko nung pumayag sya. Kaya lang, kinabukasan nagkita kami then she told me the bad news.

"Winter..." She hugged me from behind.

"Hmmm, why?"

"Wiiinnn...."

"Alam ko yang tono ng boses mo na yan. What is it?"

She turned me around para iharap sakanya. "About dun sa Prom..."

"Oh, what about it?"

"Kasi, uhm, you know Jeno?"

"Jeno? Yung Captain ng Dance Team/Crush ng bayan Jeno?"

"Yeah, that Jeno. He asked me to be his Prom date kasi."

"HA??? Anong sinabi mo?"

"I told him I'll think about it."

"So sya na Prom date mo, hindi na ako?"

"No, it's not like that. Kaya nga sinasabi ko sayo ngayon eh."

"It's not my decision, it's yours."

Napansin yata ni Karina yung matamlay kong sagot.

"O, bakit sad ka? Don't worry, I'll tell him na ikaw na ang date ko."

"Kung gusto mong maging date sya, it's okay with me."

"Unfair yun, I already said yes to you."

Eh di sinabi mo na agad sana sa kanya un nung tinanong ka nya. Yun ung gusto ko talaga sabihin but chose not to.

"I know naman na nag yes ka lang sakin kasi bestfriend mo ko. Okay lang, alam ko namang crush mo si Jeno, kaya go ahead, pumayag ka na."

"Are you sure? I mean, I won't do it."

"It's okay, may next year pa naman."

"Eh who's going to be your Prom date na?"

"I don't know, I'll find one. Don't worry about it."

She hugged me tightly and kissed me on the cheek. "Yey! You're the bestfriend ever!"

Yup, best friend.

Sign na siguro yun na wag ko na ipursue yung fellings ko at itago na lang. And that's what I did. Pinili kong itago ang feelings ko especially when Karina and Jeno started dating. Of course nasaktan ako. Sobra. Pero I had to be happy for her. I thought about dating other girls too pero hindi ko kayang