Nung lumipat ako dito sa Seoul di ko naisip na magkalove life talaga like as in zero and at first i was happy but ngayon? nagreregret ba ako or hindi?

Katarina is her name, the girl the loved the most and also the first girl who hurts me so bad. I thought she cared about me pero puro lang pala akala. 

Nung una ko siyang nakilala alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko siya gusto bukod sa lagi niyang inaagaw si Giselle saakin... bigla nalang siya nag decision na she's part of our "friendship" ang kapal ng mukha niya noh?

Ayun na nga ayaw na niyang umalis sa tabi ni Giselle so, ayun i tried to be friends with her and I found out na madami pala kaming in common na gusto. 

"Hey uhh nanunuod ka ba ng 13 reasons why?" tanong ni katarina saakin. 

"Yep why?" i asked her and i saw her eyes na biglang kuminang. 

"I also like that series tho!" excited na sabi niya saakin. 

"I love that series too pinapanuod namin yan ng ate ko dati" sabi ko naman sa kanya at nakita ko naman sa mukha niya na nagiging interested siya sa topic namin.

"Ang ganda ng soundtrack nila diba? Lalo na yung the night we met" sabi niya saakin. 

"Yeah favorite ko yan pero mas favorite ko yung song ni Selena Gomez na Only You, alam mo yun?" sabi ko sa kanya and i can see na she's thinking if na dinig na niya yung song. So... i showed her the song at ayun she remembered it. 

Nung araw na yan nagsimula na maging close kami we keep on gushing about movies that we watched and the movies are Edward Scissorhands and Lolita.

After that we end up watching those movies while we were at school after that we started chatting on facebook and eventually got super close. 

Ayun na nga bigla nalang siya naging clingy saakin to the point na parang gusto nalang niya dumikit saakin palagi. 

At first I thought na wala lang kasi she told me na may boyfriend siya so I shrugged it off not until nung i came out to Giselle and her. 

They we're like shocked and kinda awkward pero tinanggap naman nila ako and ang saya ko kasi i feel accepted. 

After that mas naging clingy siya saakin tas bumabanat siya ng mga pick up lines minsan sinasabihan niya ko na i should date her daw and that got me weirded out. 

Kasi hello? May boyfriend si ateng and she's flirting with me and that got me confused as hell. 

By the end of the month I confronted her about that and she confessed na she likes me at mas lalo akong nalito like di ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko since it's my first time na may nagconfess saakin. 

She told me and i try daw namin na magdate and that time meron akong crush from the other section at pinagisipan ko ng mabuti and I chose to date her. 

The question is naging masaya ba ako? Di ko alam? Maybe? Maybe not? Alam mo di ko alam kung paano i explain yung relationship namin. 

Parang naging under ako kay Katarina she's like leading the relationship to the point na magalit lang siya or matampo natatakot agad ako. 

At first the relationship is kinda overwhelming kasi parang natatakot kasi ako na masaya kasi we're "lowkey" na muna daw sa school. 

Di ko alam if nagugustuhan ko yung feeling na we're together kasi palagi akong takot na baka ano sabihin ng kaklase namin. 1 week naging ganun. 

After 1 week we broke up and that's it ganun lang she broke it off kasi di daw kasi ako yung taong inaakala niya na ako. 

I'm different daw sa inexpect niya and that hurt me so much like I'm having this mixed emotions while she told me those words. 

I thought we're okay? But I guess we're not... 

Katarina Yu is different she likes indie music and she likes retro movies just like me. Medyo maarte siya tas sobrang girly ganun and to me ang ganda ganda niya and perfect niya but turns out she's a red flag. 

After we broke up she started flexing this guy named Sam. She keeps telling me and Giselle how much she's in love with him na willing siya na lumipat ng ibang