Every day, I asked myself what have I done wrong, but realize I did many wrongs, I started blaming myself, thinking I'm not good enough for someone.

Now, I just want to heal., and I know I'm doing my best to be okay.

Today is one of my "lonely" days,  I become emotional without any reason, I feel lonely, I feel like crying, and everything triggers me. I hate this feeling but like it at the same time., hate it because I don't want to feel the pain, but like it because it ease all the hidden feelings i didn't know is hidden in me.