My town was a wasteland

Full of cages, full of fences

Pageant queens and big pretenders

But for some, it was paradise

Hyukjae was a rising solo artist, it was so hard to make a name in Korea, there were so many soloist, so many boy bands, it took such a toll on Hyukjae’s pride, even if his producers and managers reassured him, he would still have his insecurities. But one of the things he was so sure of was his long time partner, Lee Donghae.

Oh, Lee Donghae.

His perfect college instructor partner, they had been together for almost 15 years, half of his life spent with Lee Donghae. He couldn’t ask for more. The older one was caring, loving, the most beautiful person he has ever met. Hyukjae loved coming home to Donghae. He was the most comfortable lifeline he had.

He wanted a bride

I was making my own name

That was until a question;

“Would you marry me, Hyukjae?” Donghae asked with the most beautiful smile, his eyes glittered with a loving excitement for another chapter of their life together.

But, Hyukjae was not.

He couldn’t.

Not yet.

“I’m sorry, Hae. I-I can’t yet.”

Donghae’s smile faltered, his eyes teary; “Oh, I know, I’m sorry for rushing you.”

Chasing that fame

He stayed the same

All of me changed like midnight

Another year passed, Hyukjae knew something changed that night, after his viral single “BE”, everything went like a rollercoaster that only went up, but his relationship with Donghae had pummeled down.

The dinners were gone.

The brunches were gone.

The late night drives, gone.

He was losing the only thing that gave him rest.

I broke his heart 'cause he was nice