Jeon Hyosung
Touch Me not .....
I finished packing my things and got up to meet ajhussi downstairs.
When i got in the van, sunhwa was already there ... snoozing. i think she just finished her schedule for a musical i think? or a show. whatever.
as i got in the van, ajhussi turned the radio up as he normally does. what i like about ajhussi is that he's got ear for good music. and now i'm just wondering why he ended up being our driver?
OH WELL ... that's life.
~the lonliness of nights so long ... ~
this song .....
~the search for strength to carry on ... ~
hearing it makes me want to cry.
the song that played after he kissed me.
after i got dumped 2 years ago.
~My every hope had seemed to die ... ~
~My eyes had no more tears to cry ... ~
I can still remember it clearly.
i can still remember his warm and cozy hug.
i can still remember how he would touch my face softly to stop the tears.
~Then like the sun shined from up above
~You surrounded me with your endless love
~And all the things I couldn't see
~Are now so clear to me ...
With those memories ... my tears fell ...
~You are my everything...
*flashback*
"Hyosung ah~ i don't think this will work out ... its not you ... its me" he said as if he rehearsed it a thousand times ... which i think he did.
~Nothing your love wont bring ... ~
i was fighting the tears no to fall ... so far so good ...
"Hyosung ah~ please say something ..." he spoke again as he slowly came near me in an attempt to touch my shoulders ... i think.
i stepped away from him. i don't want him touching me ... AGAIN ...
~Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do ... ~
"Hyosung ah~ this is killing me ... please say something"
BULL. And you think its not killing me either ?! shut the crap okay?! i'm tired. i'm so tired of picking up your slack. i'm so tired of going out of my way just for you. i'm so tired of never getting anything in return because your love was always enough. i guess mine wasn't ...
"hyo-"
"THAT'S ENOUGH!" i almost screamed.
it hurts hearing him say my name.
it hurts to know that he's not mine anymore
rather ... i'm not his ...
~Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything ...~
the tears fell continuously. he stepped closer to wipe my tears but i didn't let him. if he's gonna leave me i can't let him wipe my tears. i'm not letting him touch my precious tears.
"Sungie-" he started.
I'M NOT GONNA HEAR IT
"Stop it! just stop it! if you're gonna leave me then just do it! don't even think for a second that i didn't know what you were doing behind my back! i mean c'mon! lip-locking behind the lockers?! and with my sister too! if you're gonna cheat on me i hoped you hid it well!"
"how did you-"
"COZ I'M NOT STUPID!" with that, i broke down ...
it hurts.
it hurts so much.
i loved him like i've never loved anyone before.
i told him my deepest and darkest secrets because he assured me that he was the one.
I didn't mind him cheating ... because i loved him so much ... not until i knew that he was doing it
.
.
.
with my sister.
I'm not putting up with this anymore. i left him there. i ran and ran and ran. i went inside a dull looking cafe.
that'll do.
"Annyeong haseyo welcome to brue's brews" said a rather cheerful guy. lucky him. sigh
i nodded then he gestured for me to follow him. he took me to an empty booth in the far end. i guess he sensed my mood.
"So i'm guessing you'll have the strongest coffee?" he said still with a smile. WOW this dude is quite impressive.
i just nodded without looking. suddenly, he touched my chin and tilted it up so that i'd be looking directly at his eyes.
"you know? you're really very pretty. a girl like you should be smiling." he said again with that smile. he looked at his watch and then a t the wall clock.
"my shift's gonna end in 10 want to go somewhere?" i was about to refuse the offer but then anywhere's better than here.
"yea" i said emotionless.
"GREAT! be back in 10 ... oof! i mean 9 ... 8!"
gosh, what a dork. now that i think of it ... his eyes were wonderful.
after what seemed like a minute; he was back. holding 2 coffees
"I'm Lee gikwang by the way" then he took out his hand for me to shake.
i ignored it "Hyosung ... Jeon hyosung"
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