- How much longer are you going to stay watching that - says a carefree Mogi Shinobu, who was approaching the still captain of team 4 Murayama Yuiri who was leaning against a wall in the rehearsal room of the famous group AKB48.

"I don't know what you're talking about" Yuiri responds in an annoyed way as she puts down her cell phone to now concentrate all her attention on the newcomer and one of her best friends by her side.

- I mean that photo of Mion and Naachan that you've been looking at for almost 15 minutes - she says it like who says the weather while pointing to the back of Yuiri where there is a window of the building which served as a mirror and if we look at it carefully you can see someone's screen using a cell phone. At what Yuiri said, she only looked up and went from being a bewildered face to one of uncertainty as if looking for something to say, at the same time Mogi also decided to sit quietly on the floor next to her. She could hear a long sigh from her friend but still she didn't dare to say anything.

 

After this she could feel a weight on her left shoulder, before that she turned her face to see Yuiri's and could verify that she had her eyes closed.

-Don't say anything, let me pretend that I'm asleep on your shoulder so they don't ask me anything, I don't want to talk- she hears her say very softly but due to her proximity she could hear her clearly. Given this, Mogi just looked straight ahead, she can see that there is all the senbatsu of the new single called "Moto kare desu", for those who wonder, what does she do in rehearsal if she is not part of the senbatsu?. They asked her to come after practice so they could record a new episode for Yuunaamogion Channel, to which she agreed. In the end she vacated earlier than had planned so instead of wandering around and finally decided better to go to practice, see the rehearsal and who knows maybe in the future they can upload a video of Yuunaamogion dancing to the new single as happened with the Nemo Hamo Rumor single.

 

Mogi knew that right now was not the time to try to talk to her friend but something in her told her that she had to say something before they went back to practice since they were on a break.

- Yuiri, I know you're listening to me. I just want you to know that you can count on me for anything and if you want to talk about something that is worrying you, I am here for you. I promise not to give an opinion and only listen if it is what you really need. You know you don't have to carry everything alone, right? -Mogi told her very softly to prevent the other members from hearing them, although she knew it was almost impossible they were all rehearsing on their own or making a racket. At what was said Yuiri only nodded her head but refused to open her eyes.

 

So some more time passed until the choreographer in charge told them that in 2 minutes they would return to rehearsal, after what was said Yuiri finally raised her head and turned to see Mogi with gratitude, she decided not to say anything because she knew it was not the time.

- Yuuchan, are you alright? - Okada Nana's worried voice was heard, who despite practicing was very attentive to Yuiri since according to what she had told her that she was only going to check her cell phone but she did not come back and some time later she saw her lying on Mogi's shoulder, for a microsecond it made her jealous but she decided to push those thoughts away. She had already passed that possessive stage and she was not going to return to that, Mogi was friends with both of them if there was something between them, Nana would definitely be one of the first to know and even if it hurt her, she would be happy that Yuiri finds someone who makes her happy.

- Yes, I'm OK. I just got a little sleepy, you know this about being part of the senbatsu and having the extra practices sometimes gets tiring - Yuiri says trying to sound convincing, Nana stared at her trying to find a lie in her words but before she could give a verdict, they were sent for training. They were all settled in their position when the choreographer, after thinking about it for a bit, said the following:
 

- Well girls, in this case now I want to review possible formations for when you have to present "Motokare" in the theater, so please line up according to your new teams, in this case I ask the members of team 8 to put on together with the teams with which they do double position - Immediately after what the choreographer said, they divided into the 4 teams.

 

These were divided as follows.

Team A: Okada Nana, Chiba Erii, Fukuoka Seina, Mukaichi Mion, Honda Hitomi, Okabe Rin

Team K: Taguchi Manaka, Muto Tomu, Yamauchi Mizuki, Oda Erina, Onishi Momoka

Team B: Asai Nanami, Omori Maho, Kashiwagi Yuki, Oguri Yui, Sakaguchi Nagisa

Team 4: Taniguchi Megu, Murayama Yuiri, Kuranoo Narumi, ao Miu

 

Given what was said Nana separated from Yuiri and instead of going directly to where the team A were meeting, it was towards Mion that she was talking a little with Mogi taking advantage of the fact that Yuiri was no longer with her and for that reason she had not gone since she did not want to bother the still captain of team 4. When Nana arrived with her (Mion) she knelt with only one leg while stretching her hand out in a very gallant manner while lowering his head.

"My dear captain, would you please join us?" Naachan said in a very gentlemanly way as she lifted her face and gave her a mischievous smile, which made Mion blush a little and Mogi laughed. While all the others couldn't help but 'KYAA' in unison since they hadn't lost sight of Okada, well almost all of them, there was a certain captain who didn't know how to react.

-Naachan, stop playing games- says Mion while she is still nervous since her friend hasn't moved from her place.

- I'm sorry my captain if I have bothered you with my actions but could you give me your hand to accompany you - she tells her while trying to keep a serious look but in reality wants to laugh a lot, especially because she is seeing that Mogi is making fun of her. Giving up to this, Mion gives in and shakes Naachan's hand, who gently takes it, causing everyone to release another "KYAA" that was surely heard in the continuous rehearsal rooms. And so Nana escorted Mion to where all of Team A were waiting for them, who wasted no time to start joking with Mion about how she now has her private knight in shining armor.

 

The rehearsal passed quickly without any setbacks except for the behavior of a certain member of team 4.

-Yuiri san, YUIRI SAN- says Kuranoo Narumi, the new captain of team 4 with some force since she has been trying to capture the attention of the aforementioned for more than 3 minutes without any success.

- Huh?! Were you talking to me Narumi san? - says a distracted Yuiri.

- Since a while ago, are you okay Yuiri? - Taniguchi Megu now tells her - Do you want to take a break? -

- No, excuse me. Everything is fine. What were we on? -she answered, trying not to worry her companions.

-We were seeing if we could change the formation to try a new combination for when we rehearse- says ao Miu, who is also somewhat worried about Yuiri since since she arrived that day she has been behaving very strangely, somewhat distracted and distant. Especially now that she's in her element. Dancing. They are all surprised that Yuiri misses the times of the steps, when she is the one who always directs them so that everything goes well, in addition to making observations so that everything is perfect.

- Oh yeah! Sounds good to me- says Yuiri trying to concentrate, she knew that this day was going to be long.

 

AKB48's rehearsal had been finished for a while, and now the Yuunaamogion team was ready to record some videos for their channel; these, contrary to the rehearsal, had gone well, quickly and almost without errors. So in less than two hours they had already recorded what they had planned and everyone was already preparing to leave.

 

- Ready to go? -says Naachan pulling Yuiri out of her thoughts.

- Huh? -she answers him trying to spin her thoughts. Until now she remembered that she had told Nana that she was going to stay at her house, since tomorrow had rehearsal and going to Kanagawa it would be very tedious to go home and then come back but now was having the idea of ​​better going to Kanagawa no longer seemed so complicated.

- Or are you going home? - Naachan comments, Yuiri has been very strange these last few days but today has been the extreme, they have hardly spoken more than what is necessary, she behaves strangely kind and that only means that she has something but it does not wants to invade her privacy, if she doesn't want to talk to her, Nana won't force her - If so, just remember that you left your things at my house, maybe you should go pick it up because it's what you need for tomorrow, right? - Given what Yuiri said, she puts on a thoughtful face, Nana could see how her brain is thinking about what to do, seeing her dilemma so she decided to add - Or if you want I can send your things by package tomorrow directly to the theater, so you don't have to go to my home -

She said the latter in a low voice and with a little sadness, knowing that her friend did not want to go to her house made her sad. For Nana, her house was for Yuiri too since she decided to move to that new apartment but if she did not feel comfortable, Nana was not going to be the one to force her to stay with her.

At what Yuiri said felt a little bad, Naachan realized that she was undecided about going to her house even though she doesn't know why, she is giving her a thousand reasons to escape if she wants to. She couldn't help but look into her eyes and see her sincerity and concern in her eyes which made her make a resolution. She knew that if she ran away now things were probably going to get worse, she had to fix this but didn't know how.

-Let’s go - she heard her say to Mogi while she was finishing collecting her things with Mion.

- Yes, let me finish gathering my things - Yuiri says addressing Mogi almost exclusively - Excuse me Naachan but I arranged to go to dinner with Mogi, just the two of us -

Mogi can't help but put on a surprised face, but then she remembers their talk a while ago and senses that Yuiri wants to talk about what's tormenting her - But don't worry, as I told you, I'll go to your house later like a promised -

 

Given what was said Mogi and Mion turn to see each other but neither says anything, they already know that what is happening is better to talk about later and in private. That's where they were when...

- Mukaichi san can you stay for a moment, I need to talk to you - says someone from the staff, to which Mion responds.

- Sure, if you want to go ahead girls. See you later - having said this, she stayed with the staff, while Naachan just stayed there, in the same place that Yuiri left her. She was trying to process what had happened, but there was something wrong.

 

At the same time, while Mion was chatting with the staff, her cell phone received an important message.

 

“I'm sorry Mion, Yuiri wants to talk to me about some things. I promise you that for the next one I will invite you to the movies and dinner. Take care of yourself"

 

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It was already 10 o'clock at night when the 13th generation member Murayama Yuiri was walking through the corridors of a certain apartment building, on her way to Okada Nana's house as she had promised. The talk she had with her friend Mogi helped her a lot to clear her mind and accommodate ideas, maybe she didn't find a solution but letting off steam helped her a lot, especially because this time Mogi just listened most of the time. She didn't know what she would do if she didn't have someone to share her problems with, of course she had Ayana but she didn't want to bother her at this time of night.

 

She reaches the door with the sign that says Okada, as she takes out her copies of the keys that Naachan gave her from day one. Claiming that she could use her apartment as her own and that she could stay whenever she wanted. She was just about to shout "Tadaima", but her words stayed in when she noticed that apart from Nana's shoes there were also others that were very familiar to her, so she entered very discreetly. . As she approached the room she could notice a very lively conversation and even heard laughter.

 

-And then I tell Hiichan, aren't you supposed to...-Naachan said but she stopped when she realized the new presence- Ah! Okaeri Yuuchan-

She says it with a smile, while Yuiri only raises an eyebrow since she didn't expect Nana to have company with her.

- Tadaima - Yuiri answered as a silent environment was created - Didn't I know that Mion was going to come? -

-Well, it was a last minute invitation, Naachan didn't want to have dinner alone so we ordered something through Uber eats- Mion said a little uncomfortable since something was happening but she didn't know what.

- I understand... well, I'll leave you, need to sleep early - Yuiri said this, walking directly to the guest room, which alerted Nana since that room was hardly used.

- Uh... I thought it's better that I go, but I need to say it again that you have to talk to her - Mion said to Nana since she had expressed her concern about Yuiri's behavior lately, especially that day - Whatever, we talk later -

 

Saying this, Nana accompanied Mion to the door and waved her goodbye. Then she stared thoughtfully at the door since she doesn't know what to do, if the right thing to do would be to go to Yuiri's room to talk, or better to do it at another time. She decided it was best to figure it out right now, she wouldn't be able to sleep if she didn't fix whatever was going on. So, with a determined step, she went to the guest room but to her surprise, when she got to it, the handle moved and the door opened, now she is facing Yuiri.

- Huh!? Naachan... - Yuiri says curiously.

-Er .. I ..-in that moment Naachan realizes that Yuiri had her things to go to bathe so she just stands next to her giving way-I wanted to talk to you but if you want better after you bathe-

 

Yuiri didn't say anything, she just continued in a straight line to the bathroom, she entered it and leaned against the door, honestly her courage had gone and had the resolution to ignore Naachan until tomorrow but now she realizes that it’s impossible to happen.

 

Meanwhile Nana was sitting in the living room nervous because didn't know what she was going to say to Yuiri, she didn't even know what was going on. How to start a conversation when she doesn't have the slightest idea about what's going on, she looks at the clock on her cell phone again and realizes that time has already passed... Maybe Yuiri decided to take a bath instead of a regular one. Or is she avoiding her? She shook her head hard; Yuiri wouldn't be able to keep her waiting with the intention of avoiding this talk, would she?.

 

The sound of the door brought her out of her reverie, after that she heard the sound of the dryer so she was only attentive to see what was going to happen, it didn't take long and now Yuiri was walking in her direction and sitting next to her but in a safe distance.

- Well, what do you want to talk about, is everything okay? - Yuiri asks, showing curiosity. At this Naachan is speechless since she really didn't know how to start, damn she didn't even know what she wanted to know.

-Although I...-when Nana was about to speak her cell phone rings, so Naachan decides to take the call when she sees the sender- Onchan?, aha, yes...hahaha let me see...-

 

Naachan gets up and looks under the chair, and finds some keys.

- Yes, here they are, of course my beautiful captain, I can bring it to our rehearsal tomorrow - said this  and took the keys in the pocket of her sweater that she still had on, at the end of the call she could see how Yuiri had an eyebrow raised with curiosity - It was Onchan, She wonder if she had forgotten some keys here haha its so cute because she's a little clumsy sometimes -

Yuiri didn't know how to process everything, she had decided that it was best to let it go, that it was silly but now she couldn't, she had to tell him otherwise she felt like she was going to explode.

"The good thing is that Onchan has her knight in shining armor to rescue her and tell her nice things" Yuiri says with more venom than intended.

-Well... if I can help her, of course I will- says Naachan surprised, she had never heard this tone in Yuiri- after all now we are in the same team-

- Look how convenient, you must be very happy with your new team - Yuiri continues with the same tone - it shows that you already had a good times together -

- Well... we're trying to do our best - Naachan says now with caution - Is something wrong Yuiri? -

- Something happen to me, that could happen to me - says Yuiri now standing up and facing Naachan who was also standing - Let's see... will it be that in a few days 4 years of hard work will be destroyed out of nowhere, or will it be that already I will stop being an important part in akb by taking away my captaincy... or better yet, it seems that there are people who seem to be having a great time with this change in the teams and are eager to start in their new groups. Do you think this is happening to me? -

- But what... -

- I'm talking about the fact that apparently you already passed the page like that, while I'm sad because I don't have anyone of my generation with me. While you... I mean you are with people with whom you do get along... I only hear their laughter and they even seem to want the day of dissolution of the teams to come as soon as possible - Yuiri says with a resentful voice.

-Yuiri is not what…- Naachan says as she tries to take Yuiri by the hand.

- No, leave me... because you better not go with your captain Onchan, apparently you're already anxious to be with her - Yuiri says with bitterness - I'm sure she'll be better than me -

- But what are you talking about, you know that's not true - says Nana as she finally manages to take Yuiri's hand - of course it hurts that we're not going to be together anymore but you know there's nothing we can do, yes I'm not going to deny you, being with Mion gave me a lot of pleasure but that doesn't mean I'm not sad because I won't be with you anymore -

- Well, your words and your actions tell a different story - Yuiri tells her with a strong voice.

- What do you want me to do? Go to the staff crying and begging that they don't change us? You know that would be unprofessional, it would also be disrespectful to everyone because remember that ALL of us were affected by the changes, not just you - Naachan reproaches her vigorously. Given what was said, Yuiri bites her lower lip because she knows that Nana is partly right, it would be unfair if they agreed not to change her, it would be a clear act of favoritism, but she cannot deal with that emptiness that is getting bigger and bigger, because she is already feeling the distance from Nana a little more and more due to the activities that are approaching - They are all making an effort to be able to adapt to these changes, especially those who are their first shuffle, it is our duty as their senpais to give them everything the support that is in our hands so that this change is not as traumatic as our seniors did with us at the time, so excuse me if I'm not crying and throwing myself on the floor for this -

 

Saying that Nacchan lets go of her hand and turns around, she didn't like talking to Yuiri like this but she just can't stand the idea that Yuiri thinks she's having a great time with the idea of ​​having to separate, if only she knew that just thinking about it makes her want to cry and her stomach feels empty at the same time, but since she has already expressed it, it is something that they cannot and should not change and it is best to see it from the most positive side.

-I'm sorry - Yuiri says as she hugs Nana from behind - Forgive me Naachan, it's just that... I see you so happy when you're with them, that I'm afraid you'll forget me very quickly -

- For God's sake Yuiri, forget about you, that's impossible, you're one of the most important people in my life. I would have to lose my memory not to think about you, besides we both know that this is a preamble to what will happen in the future, we won't always be able to be together, at some point we will have to graduate - Naachan said taking a long breath while Yuiri squeezes the hug, before this Naachan could feel how her sweater was getting soaked with Yuiri's tears - There our lives can take other directions but rest assured you will never be able to get rid of me -

Naachan then turns to face each other, with her right hand she grabs Yuiri's chin so that she looks into her eyes.

- What we have lived together, what I feel for you is not something that will disappear overnight, I would even dare to say that in the rest of my life I could forget about you - Nana tells her with the sweetest look that has - My heart cries little by little because of this separation but we both know that we are more than co-workers so although we will not see each other in the team rehearsals, we still have the senbatsu rehearsals, the single promotions and of course our outings personal, please do not doubt us, that would be like confirming that we are only fanservice -

 

Then Nana proceeds to hug her so that her words resonate with her actions, so they stay in each other's arms for a long time. It was simply something they needed, when they parted Yuiri couldn't help but see Naachan's lips. A little voice in her head was telling her to do it, that dark longing she always has when she's alone with Naachan but then there's the promise they made together, she couldn't break it. Nana could see the look of longing and suppressed desire in Yuiri, she knew that they couldn't give in to it, one of them had to be strong but what had just happened had made them lower those walls.

 

And you will wonder what that promise is about? For those who know the relationship publicly, they are just two best friends who are in an idol group trying to bring happiness to people, but for their personal world they are actually two people that are dedicated to each other. Unfortunately they know that a romantic relationship between them at this time would be impossible since they are idols and above all an example of the generations to come, so they decided to make a promise that they would leave their feelings for each other aside until they graduate and if in the future these continued, perhaps they could act accordingly.

 

-Nana...-Yuiri said this as she took Nana's face with both hands and looked at her lovingly, while Naachan tries to create a space between them, she knows that if this continues she won't be able to stop - Please -

Hearing this last thing and having her so close to her, Naachan simply couldn't resist anymore, she was very sensitive about this whole shuffle thing and just didn't want to think anymore.

-Only today- says Nana as she grabs her waist to bring her closer. It would be very hypocritical to say that it was the first time they did it, but they were very few occasions and never with an audience, only when they knew that no one could see them. It was like those fine print clauses in contracts that they sometimes took advantage of.

 

The moment their lips made contact was magical, they were transported to a place where only they existed, they had a feeling of freedom, understanding and rapport. What Nana thought would only be a superficial kiss intensified since Yuiri wanted it that way, she wasn't going to miss out on the opportunity, if they had broken the promise she had to take advantage of it a lot.

There were two souls meeting again but now on a physical plane, without ties, without those who will say and without having to behave as society dictates. As time passed their bodies merged into one without reaching a very intimate level, by the time Nana became a little conscious, she was sitting on the couch with Yuiri straddling her and kissing her as if there were no tomorrow. . This surprised her a bit since she was almost always the one who "acted" the most by telling it in a decent way when these rare encounters happened.

 

Just Yuiri was ing Nana’s blouse, since her sweater had been forgotten for minutes, when suddenly a sound well known by both of them, they tried to ignore it but it did not stop ringing.

- I... I'm sorry Yuuchan I have to answer - Naachan says with a broken and quite heated voice, earning a look of suspicion from Yuiri - It may be important, I thought it's Onchan -

 

Saying this Yuiri flaunted her reflexes and without leaving her position she managed to take Okada's cell phone. As soon as she could see that the screen said “Onchan” in bright letters, she took a breath and decided to answer the flame.

-Hello? -says Yuiri as she can and tries to normalize her breathing.

- Yuiri? -says Mion, surprised, not hearing the voice she expected.

- Yes, it's me. Something happens? -

- Emh... Naachan isn't around, I need to tell her something important - Mion says surprised on the other end of the phone.

-I'm sorry Mion, Nana is taking a bath right now so she can't attend to you- Yuiri says with a malicious voice as she covers Naachan's mouth who was going to say something and gives her a warning look - Do you want me to pass on your message? -

- Hmm, maybe I dialed her later - Mion replies reluctantly.

-Her cell phone battery is almost 0%, I thought it would be better if you give me the message- Yuiri says trying to sound innocent.

- I just wanted to let her know that tomorrow's practice has been canceled so I wanted to ask her if she could send me the keys with you and leave them in my locker at the theater - Onchan said already resigned that she wasn't going to be able to speak with her, she also wanted to know how it had gone with Yuiri but that would be better to ask her in person - Could you send her the message?, please -

- Yes, of course, I'll tell her and don't worry about the keys, I'll leave them in the locker for you - Yuiri says more relaxed and with a mischievous smile she turns her gaze towards Nana - And I informed her that tomorrow the training was canceled, so she will have the whole morning free - That last said Naachan can feel a knot forming in her stomach that means they both have the whole morning free.

- By the way Yuiri, sorry for meddling but is everything alright between you? -Mion says cautiously when changing her mind, the best thing would be to ask her after all, she is also her friend.

- Ah... that's... everything is fine, we're already solving it -indicates Yuiri while with her free hand she continues ing Nana's shirt-Thanks for asking-

-That's good, Nana looked very down these last few days, It’s glad to hear that everything has been solved-

- Don't worry, I'll take care of cheering her up - Yuiri says with a voice with a mischievous touch, to which Mion only reacts by frowning on the other side of the phone and prefers not to say anything.

- So, see you later, take care of yourselves - Mion says goodbye.

-Likewise, and sorry for the inconvenience caused as well as ruining your date with Mogi- Yuiri finally says.

- Don't worry, you got me an appointment with all expenses paid, see you bye - Mion said that, hung up the phone.

- Well, well it seems Mion was also worried about us - Yuiri says with a genuine smile, she was a fool to doubt her friend for a second. If she is one of the people who has supported her relationship with Nana the most, although she does not know how far they have come, in reality they all sense it but nobody knows for sure - She is a good friend, but well let's go back to what we were before she interrupted us -

- Huh? I thought that... - says Nana a little scared but excited at the same time.

- Don't you want to? -says Yuiri while she stops her progress and raises an eyebrow, she wasn't going to force Nana to do anything but according to her the mood was still there-Do you want us to leave it here? -

Naachan looked at Yuiri's eyes looking for any doubt but she only saw determination, so everything was in her hands if they continued or stopped, she knew that Yuiri would respect her decision. She took a deep breath and looked up and saw her again, her gaze apart from her determination could see the love, affection, so many feelings for her that it took her a while to identify them. Not receiving an answer, Yuiri proceeded to retreat on top of Nana, breathing heavily to control that desire; she had had to respect her wishes.

 

Just as she felt Yuiri's weight leave her legs, Nana reacted and grabbed the still Team 4 captain by her waist preventing her from getting up from her.

- Wait! - Naachan says scared - Don't go -

-So...  You want to stay here like frozen- Yuiri tells her playfully, she took all her courage to get there, now it's Naachan's turn to start this.

-Yes, I mean no... I...-says Nana now blushing because she didn't know how to continue.

-Just for today, let me guide you- Yuiri tells her as she takes Naachan's face with both hands and approaches her to start kissing her.

 

And so with the darkness of the night as a witness, two people show their love in the most conventional but profound way. They know that tomorrow will come with new challenges but as long as they have each other, there will be no challenge they cannot overcome.

 

End