Chanyeol was excited to finally go home. He knew he’d been neglecting you a little and he was excited to finally have a decent amount of time off now that they had finished their promotions. He had dropped by the convenience store to pick up your favourite snacks, drinks and even some ice cream. He was ready for a night in, just cuddling and watching Disney movies. He expected to come home to you, chilling in the lounge or snuggled up in bed binging your favourite tv show. He could imagine you looking extra cosy and comfortable, hair up in a messy bun, fresh faced and usually dressed in his hoodie because you said it saved you from having to wear pants. He laughed at the thought as he was pulling into the parking lot.

He opened the door to your shared apartment and found…darkness? He stopped for a second, a little confused because you didn’t mention having plans to be out tonight. Glancing over at the shoe rack, he could see that all your shoes were there and your slippers weren’t so you had to be home. Maybe you had gone to bed? He closes the door and unlocks his phone to check the time. No, you wouldn’t be asleep yet. You were too much of a night owl to fall asleep at this hour. He makes his way into the kitchen to put the bags of food down and switches on the light which casts its glow into the living room and that’s when he noticed you were sitting there on the couch.

“Oh my god, you scared me.” he jumped and rubbed his chest to calm down his racing heart. But you didn’t answer. “Baby?” he calls out. You didn’t answer so he tries again.

“Y/n, can you hear me?” he asks worriedly as he starts walking over to where you were seated.

When he rounds the sofa, that’s when he sees the blank stare in your eyes but the streaming tears down your face. The way you had wrapped your arms around your knees which were curled up to your chest.

“Hey, what’s wrong? What happened? Are you okay?” he shoots out as he pulls you into his lap, tucking your head under his jaw and your back attempting to soothe you.

You still hadn’t answered him but began breaking into small sobs. He hushed you and hugged you tighter as you cried.

“Shh, it’s okay. I’m here now. I’m here. I’m with you.”

Soon he could hear your sobs start to die down, your body relaxing a little and your breathing slowed too. You even hugged him back now.

“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked in a calm voice. A voice that you could tell was trying to hide how worried he was so you wouldn’t feel bad about making him worry.

“No…not really. It’s nothing.” you replied in a small whisper.

“It’s not nothing if it made you cry like that Y/n. I haven’t seen you like that in a long time.” he says as he tilts your chin up to inspect your eyes.

You can see the worry swimming in his irises and you look away, not being able to hold the intensity of his gaze.

“It’s silly. It’s just me over-thinking everything. Again. Don’t worry, I’ll get over it.”

“How about you talk to me about it and I’ll tell you if it’s silly or not?”

“But I know it’s silly. It’s embarrassing.”

“Just talk to me, baby. I’m here for you to unload on. No matter how big or small the problem is. I promise you’ll feel better after you do.”

“I just-..” you say as you try to gather your thoughts. “I just don’t know what I’m doing anymore? I feel like I’m always so busy and doing so much but at the same time I’m doing nothing.”

You look at him to gauge his reaction towards the nonsense you just spurted out but he says nothing, just lovingly looks back at you and nods, telling you to continue.

You sigh. “I just don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I feel like..I’m going nowhere. I just feel like I’m a useless existence. I don’t even know why you love me sometimes.”

“Hey, look at me.” He cups your face, turning you to look at him and he kisses you. “I love you always, everything about you. I love how you love me and how you love everyone around you. You’re so caring and you always know just what to say or do to make us feel better. I love how you always support all my dreams and my ridiculous ideas. I love how you’re so understanding about me working all the time, even when it makes you cry because you miss me. I know because I can see the little patch of wetness your tears leave on your pillow and you’re holding my pillow. But even when you’re lonely, you never complain because you don’t want me to feel bad.”

You hug him a little tighter and nuzzle your face into his neck. He chuckles and kisses the top of your head.

“I like the silly little things you don’t even know that you do too. Like the little wiggly dance you do when you eat something good. The way you jump in your sleep from a bad dream and your hands fly out searching for me. And then you let out a happy little sigh and smile. I like-”

“Stop. You’re embarrassing me.”

He laughs at you. “Do you feel better now?”

“Embarrassed. But yeah, a little better. Thank you.”

“I’m glad. But don’t worry, okay? You’re doing great. You’re just stressed because you’re not looking at the big picture. All the efforts you’re making now will get you where you want to go. It’ll be worth it. I’m always so proud of you, my little one.”

“Everyone’s little to you when you’re a giant.” you mutter. “Thank you, Yeol. I love you.”

“You’re definitely feeling better if you can manage some sass.” he laughs, “I love you too, please don’t ever forget that, okay?”

You nod and smile at him.

“Okay, how about some Disney? I’ll let you pick. I even got all your favorite snacks.”

“It’s already kinda late though, don’t you have more schedules tomorrow? You should get some rest or you’ll give the makeup artists a hard time covering up your panda eyes.”

“Nope. We’re done with promotions! Today was officially our last one so you have me to yourself for a while. I made sure no one would bother me unless it was urgent.” he beams at you. “Now, let me go get changed and I’ll bring the snacks. Pick something for us to watch.” He kisses you and slides you off his lap to get up.

You giggle when you see him trip over his own feet and he turns around to glare at you but smiles right after. You watch him walk down the hallway and turn back to think to yourself how lucky you are to have him. Little did you know, he was unable to wipe the smile off his face while thinking about how he was the lucky one to have you.