Jimin POV

“Jimin, its time to go home” Aeri said peeking inside the practice room

I hummed and took my things and exited walked out of the practice room that I have been stuck since morning. We walked in silence as we walked towards the parking lot

As soon as I sat in the passenger seat, I opened my phone.

I sighed as there was still no message coming from her.

“Still no updates with her?” Aeri asked as she drove out of the parking lot

“None and for heaven’s sake, its been 2 weeks Aeri-aah. I miss her so damn much” I mumbled as I closed my eyes hoping that would stop me from crying…again

“Please don’t cry, I have enough of seeing you bawl your eyes out” she joked

I chuckled as I do my breathing exercise hoping to calm my nerves down and after a few minutes, I could feel myself taking control of my feelings again.

Silence engulf us again as I messaged her hoping that she would reply or even just read my messages.

“You know its your fault right?” I groaned at what she said because I don’t need another lecture, another sermon coming from her and for the record my older sister’s sermon was already enough like God! You would think that Minjeong was her sister and not me

“I know that and that is why I am trying to make-up with her but she wouldn’t even spare me any attention” I grumbled as I stare at my wallpaper which consist of her backhugging me with a little pout on her face

“Jimin, I’m going to say this again because first, because of you Ningie isn’t even talking to me! We practically fought when I tried to defend you! And second is that, what you did was seriously an thing to do like it was your anniversary your freaking fourth anniversary! and you couldn’t even spare some time with her! And when you did you practically brushed her off saying you were tired! I could have talked with the management if you just told me so!” She said and I could feel her frustration over her voice

“I know that! Its just really slipped out of my mind! I was tired from rehearsing for my upcoming concert! It has been my dream to per-

“Oh my god Jimin! Are you even hearing yourself!? You just ing justified yourself when you are on the wrong! Minjeong has never been anything but to be supportive to you! She doesn’t demand things, she always understands you but all she wants was just one day with you even if you weren’t with her the whole day but just an hour with her would make her happy..I- you know what I hope when you realize things, Minjeong is still there” she said

Another silence again but this time it was different, I could feel the tension in the air and as much as I want to retort and defend myself, I’m too tired. I’m so drained from practice, from Minjeong and to everyone. Like God, give me a break.

As soon as we arrived at the entrance of my apartment, I immediately opened the passenger seat and left. I didn’t even spare a glance to Aeri. All I want is to rest and effing sleep.

“Jimin can we talk?” I turned to my right and there I saw Minjeong sitting in the lobby area

“Minjeong? What are you doing here? You know you can wait inside my apartment” I walked towards her and every step that I take I don’t know why but its making me nervous

As soon as I stand face to face with her, I look at her face that I haven’t seen for the past 2 weeks and I could see that she had lost weight. Her eyes were a bit puffy and the nervous feeling immediately went away because I know that I wasn’t the only one crying every night.

“Lets go ups-

“No, I wont take long” she said removing my hand on her wrist

We were just both looking at each other, her eyes shows how sad and tired she was.

I am also so tired of us not talking and to be honest I feel really great that she came here, we could now fix everything and everything will turn back to normal. Aeri and I would stop having this onset tension and I would be with her again.

“I’m so glad you are here Minjeong, we can talk and get this thing over with. I’m really sorry that I forgot our anniversary, I was just so tired because of rehearsal for my concert and you know how much I dream o-

“I know, this is your dream isn’t it” she cutted me off but there was something in her tone, she sound so drained

“It is, I know you could understand me. You understand me more than anyone else” I huffed smiling at her but she was still blankly looking at me

“Jimin, I’m tired” she softly uttured as she look down

“Same, I’ve been stuck in that practice room since morning! Maybe you should sleep he-

“I’m so tired”

“I heard you the first time Min, c’mon lets go upstairs” I said holding her wrist and attempted to pull her towards my unit

I tried pulling her but she wasn’t budging, I turned back around and saw her now looking at me with tears pooling on her eyes.

“W-why are you crying?” I said and my hands automatically cradled her face and wiped the tears that had managed to escape from her eyes

“J-jimin, I’m so t-tired” she cried as she crashed her body on mine she locked her hands around my waist as she cried on my shoulder

I was stunned, I didn’t now what to do.

Minjeong never cried this hard infront of me, she was always the strong one while I was the crybaby that could cry at the smallest things. I held her tight and I don’t know what to say to bring comfort to her so I just hug her tighter while caressing her back.

We were in that position for a whole 10 minutes and I wasn’t afraid that there would be picture of us since this apartment complex has one of the tightest security. But us being photograph is less on my concern now, Minjeong…Minjeong is what I care as of this moment.

I tried getting her out of my embrace to look at her but she just held on tighter.

“L-lets just stay l-like this whi-le I talk” She whisphered and I felt a little movement on her hands before she hold on the hem of my shirt like her life depended on it

“Here? We could talk inside M-

“This wont take long”

Silence again, I don’t even know how many times I have experienced this silence today.

“Jimin ah, you know how much I am so proud of you of reaching your dreams right” she finally started talking but why do I feel uncomfortable

“Of course, you always says that to me and you are always the first one to congratulate me whenever I break my past records” I answered

I feel her breath deeply and how tense her whole body was. I patted her lower back, she would always calm down whenever I do this.

“Are you happy?” I scrunched my eyebrows and held her shoulder trying to put some space between us so that I could look at her face

“Don’t, just answer please” she said tightening her hold on me

“Of course, I’m reaching my dreams one by one. I’m finally having my concert tomorrow! Its exhausting but I’m happy” I replied and thinking of singing out to thousand of people tomorrow who loves me and my music is bringing excitement to my heart

“How about me?” my smile immediately vanished  and confusion overtook my whole being

I looked at her but all I could see was her black hair. I’m getting nervous. This nervousness wasn’t a good nervous but a nervous that makes me think I’m losing her…

“What are you asking me about Minjeong? What do you mean with that?” I asked

“Am I…Am I still included in your dream?”

That was it, what she said made me hug her even tighter. I could feel my heart crawling into my throat. I could feel my intestine churn due to nervousness.

“Wh-what? Of course you are! W-why are you ev-en as-sking me about that?” I stuttered clutching her shirt

I shouldn’t think about that! No…Min-Minjeong will never do that! W-we love each other! We have other problems before but w-we never thought about doing that! This….This is just another bump in the road!

“Min-Minjeong pl-please say something” I begged as she wasn’t talking again

“Jimin, I’m so tired” she said again but this time I knew that this is a different tired and no…just no

“N-no, thi-this..w-we co-could solve this babe pl-please”

“Now its babe?” she chuckled bitterly

I closed my eyes and just like that all the wrong things that I have done to her, all the unfairness, all the things that I have took granted came flashing before my eyes.

“Is this the realization that Aeri was talking?” I thought

“I’m so-sorry Minjeong, let’s talk inside pl-please lets talk there” I begged again and pushed her away from me

I was now holding her in arm’s length and I could finally see her face and it broke my heart.

God…

I promised this girl that I would never hurt but look at us now…

“Jimin, I’m h-happy that you reached your d-dreams. I really am”

I shook my head as I cradled her face and connected our foreheads.

“Minjeong please” I whisphered closing my eyes

“But I’m so tired of this…”

“I’ll d-do better!” I retorted

“Ji-jimin lets not make th-this hard for us…lets sto-p this be-fore w-e lose ourselves. I don’t wan-t to hate you”

I whimphered. I couldn’t utter a word. I don’t even know what to say.

I opened my eyes and I saw that her eyes is just as broken as mine.

“B-but I love you” I mumbled

“I love you more bu-t sometime l-loving ea-each other isn’t enough” she replied caressing my cheeks

“Is this because I forgot our annivers-ary? I’m sorry I p-promis it won-t happ-en again pleasee…I can’t live wi-without you” I begged harder

“You already do baby, you already do” she smiled

“W-what?”

“You can already live without me…I asked you, are you happy you replied yes because you are reaching all your dreams. You dictate every each of your dream….but wh-where was I?” she asked staring at my eyes

“I’m not part of your dreams or happiness anymore Jimin ahh but that’s okay because I love you. I’m happy that you are reaching them baby but I’m tired…I am so tired” she ended kissing my forehead

I feel her walked away, I wanted to chase her but I don’t have enough strength. I watched walk away from me, I tried calling out to her but I couldn’t make any eligible words because every time I opened my mouth, all that was released was a whimper.

“Jimin let’s go you need rest” I feel a