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Seulgi dropped her spoon getting up in a haste, her bowl of cereal falling over as she accidentally hit it and spilled everywhere. She ran off to their bedroom, and Taeyong heard her slam a door open. He stopped eating and quickly followed behind, and found her in the bathroom leaned over the toilet as she threw up continuously. He went behind her and held her hair back with one hand, the other holding her body up.

 

"It's OK, slowly... Take it easy baby..."

 

Seulgi was on the verge of tears from throwing up so much. hurt, head spinning, not to mention the horrible feeling in her stomach. She grabbed her tummy with one hand while had other held her up from practically falling into the toilet.

 

After a few minutes, she seemed better as she simply breathed heavily. Taeyong slowly held her up and took her to the sink, helping her wash her face and gargle. He then picked her up bridal style and took her to bed, before going back to the toilet to flush and clean up. He returned to see her laying sideways and heard her sniffle. Sitting behind her, he looked over her shoulder to see her crying. He held her hand over her tummy, slowly laying upright next to her, slipping his other arm underneath her to hold her close.

 

"What's wrong?"

 

"I'm... I don't know... I feel bad... I don't know anymore..."

 

Taeyong left soft kisses on her cheek, shoulder and hand, then he'd her tighter with his head in the crook of her neck. "Don't cry. I'm here." he knew why she cried. He realised a pattern, that whenever she threw up, she'd have a mood swing right after.

Seulgi held his hand tighter and tighter, afraid that if she let go she'd lose him. For some reason she had a fear of him leaving, because she was pregnant.

 

She threw up, which was disgusting. She was starting to lose her attractive figure. She wouldn't be able to attend his needs. She was becoming a load to take care off, finding herself burdensome.

 

What if he doesn't love me anymore?

 

"I heard that." she heard him say, and realised she said the last line out loud. "And your wrong. If I didn't love you, I would've left you the moment I found out you were pregnant. Also, why wouldn't I love my own wife? This baby is mine too. I'm more than happy we're having a baby. Don't do this Seulgi. Don't think like this."

 

Seulgi slowly turned to his side, burying her face into his chest. Taeyong brushed her hair with one hand, and traced her slightly protruding tummy with the other. It has only been three months, but he was already craving to hold the baby, wanting it out soon. He wasn't lying when he said he loved it. He was so overwhelmed with joy, that he almost held a party if not for Seulgi's protest.

 

"Come on, you still need to eat something. What do you feel like having that won't make you sick?"

 

Seulgi moved her face away slightly and played with his tank top thinking. A lot of things made her nauseous, even milk like earlier. Whatever she thought of made her feel sick, and that made her sadder because she couldn't find something to eat.

"I don't know..." she teared up. Taeyong sighed and kissed her head, wiping away her tears.

"I'll make you a strawberry smoothie. How's that?"

 

Not feeling sick, Seulgi decided to just go with it and nodded. Taeyong got up and tucked her in, handing her the TV remote. "Stay here, I'll be right back." he smiled and kissed her before leaving. Seulgi a random cartoon channel, but simply thought about Taeyong the whole time. He was so perfect in everything that she couldn't think about one small flaw even. Even his skin was too perfect.

 

Seulgi heard him say all the same to her, but that was before she got pregnant. Now, she wondered whether he thought about her the same way. Or did his feelings change. She can't help think this way. Her mood swings were horrible, and she could only be thankful Taeyong was calm enough to deal with her.

"Here." she turned to see Taeyong back with strawberry smoothie, and a bowl of gelatto. "Since you're getting sick to diary, maybe this will be better."

 

Seulgi sat up smiling as he placed the tray next to her and sat at the edge of the bed. He first gave her some medicine, then the smoothie. She drank it up, finishing halfway in one go, and heard him chuckle amused.

 

"Damn. I should make more next time, you are going eating twice as much from now on."

 

Taeyong instantly regretted his words when she slammed the cup down.

 

"Are you calling me fat?" she asked upset. He shook his head smiling, and held her hand.

"Of course not. You have to eat a lot. It's for the baby. We don't want either of you weak, right?"

 

Seulgi looked down to her hands, when he suddenly spooned some gelatto and fed her. She looked at him, and decided to ask what's been bothering her the whole time.

 

"Do you think I'm perfect to you like I was before?"

 

Taeyong furrowed his eyebrows confused and set the bowl down. "What do you mean?"

 

"You always called me perfect, pretty, healthy fit, graceful... But you don't anymore... Am I ugly now that I'm pregnant? I mean, and I lost shape, but it's not that bad right? I've been gobbling up food though... I must look unattractive now to people. I feel so down..."

 

Before she could say anymore, Taeyong jumped onto her pushing her down and hovered above her, making sure not to put pressure on her body. He pressed his lips onto hers, and bit on her bottom lip it.

 

Their make out session was quick as Taeyong pulled away and turned then over, having Seulgi straddle his lap as they both sat up. He continued to kiss her, lips, cheek, nose, jaw, collar, neck, even until the valley of her s, her low cut night dress giving him easy access. He nuzzled into her chest, one hand on her back, and another tracing her tummy again.

 

"I'm sorry if I didn't say it to you up front. I'll be honest with you, but you're even more beautiful when you're pregnant. I don't care about your fit body, your eating habits. Your body is perfect for our baby, your face is always pretty to me no matter what, and your eating habits are adorable, because you're eating for two people now. You're always perfect to me. Everything happening to you is natural, and that's what I love about you, so you're perfect. I don't want you to change a thing."

 

He kissed her exposed skin above her s, slowly going back up to her lips to see her cheeks stained with tears. He kissed them away before attaching their lips again, Seulgi's hands finally leaving his tank top and gripping his hair and around his neck as she too pulled him closer.

 

 

"I need more strawberries!"

 

Seulgi whined kicking the blanket. Six and a half months and her cravings were getting worse, as did her mood swings. She got mad too easily, to the point Taeyong decided to work from home since she'd get upset of him leaving her alone.

Right now he checked the fridge but they ran out. He sighed and closed it, going back to the bedroom where Seulgi laid sprawled across the bed.

 

"We're out baby. How about we both go down to the grocery store and get some? You must feel sad staying in all the time."

 

Seulgi huffed not wanting to get up, crossing her arms and pouting. But Taeyong could only chuckle because he knew she'd listen. He knew she'd been feeling sad staying in a lot since she was scared to go out, so going out once today would help her open up a little. And she knows that he knew that she'd go anyways. He sat next to her and opened his arms.

"Come here." he cooed. Being extra emotional now, Taeyong would try to show affection to her even more seeing that it made her happy. Seulgi looked at him with a big smile and slowly got up scooting closer. She snuggled into his embrace, her bump pressing against his side where he felt a kick, and squealed. "See, even the baby loves my cuddles."

 

Seulgi looked up and grinned at him. "What can I say. Your cuddles are the best. But not to be shared outside us, got that?" she commanded, making him laugh and nod. He got up and slowly helped her stand as well, passing her her coat as he put his on himself.

"I'll walk you, don't worry. But it's time to go out and get some fresh air, especially for you."

 

They were soon out walking around the neighbourhood to the grocery store. Seulgi really enjoyed the outdoors from being inside for so long. The fresh air really helped her feel better. Though she was taking a long time to walk, Taeyong didn't care and walked with her, an arm around her waist holding her close to him. Any passerby around them could tell what kind of a happy family they already were, and could only imagine how happy they would be more when the baby comes out.

 

Once at the store, Seulgi decided to sit on the benches at the entrance while Taeyong did the shopping since he didn't want her to walk around too much. Seulgi's place was at the opening, near the counter that she could hear them. She was playing with her phone, going through some things when she saw a text from Taeyong saying he's almost at the cashier. Seulgi was about to get up when she over heard the cashier talking into her phone.

"Yea he's here again. You know, pale tall guy, built and has dimples. I can never ever focus... Oh my God, he's coming, gotta go!"

 

Seulgi looked and saw Taeyong making his way to the cash register, and noticed the way the young lady, obviously a new adult, suddenly became all shy and flirty. Taeyong placed the basket on the counter and smiled, being the polite man he was, while she looked through the items.

 

"Wow, so many strawberries again. You must really like them." she tried to converse. Taeyong chuckled and was about to answer, when someone called him.

"Yong, did you get my strawberries?"

 

Both the cashier and Seulgi looked to see Seulgi come and hold his hand. Seulgi peeked and saw the girl's smile drop, especially when she saw her baby bump. Taeyong chuckled and kissed her forehead.

"Enough for two weeks this time. Then we won't have to come out again." he joked. Seulgi scowled at him, then peeked again to see the cashier glare at her, scanning the products faster this time. She rested her head on his shoulder and hugged Taeyong's arm, and he knew there was only one reason behind her clingy behaviour, and this wasn't only when she's pregnant, but since they were together three years ago.

She was jealous.

 

Once she was done packing their things up, Taeyong gave his (black) card and waited for her to swipe it, when he decided to have some fun.

 

"You should smile more, you look prettier."

 

He felt a sharp pain in his arm as Seulgi dug her nails into it, and bit his bottom lip holding in the yelp. The girl pressed her lips holding in a smile and blushed, losing focus for a second. She quickly got back, and gave them the bag, and before anymore was exchanged, Seulgi dragged Taeyong away the moment he took his card back.

 

Taeyong chuckled as she ignored him on the way home. But he noticed how she wasn't angry like usual, but she was sad. He felt bad for teasing her, but couldn't get her to talk even when they reached home. Seulgi went to the bedroom, and Taeyong followed after putting away the groceries, finding her laid down facing away from the door. He laid down next to her, and tried to hug her but she pushed his arms off.+

"Baby, what's wrong?"

 

"You've been seeing someone... And it's that cashier sl*t!"

 

Taeyong felt hurt, but it was partly his fault. He knew he shouldn't be teasing her like this during her last few weeks, especially when she was naturally protective of him. He sighed and hugged her tight so that she couldn't let go this time, and kissed her shoulder and neck.

 

"I'm sorry I teased you. But it's not true. I don't even know her name, she's just always working there, so I became familiarised. I'd never do that to you baby, you know it. Look at me, please."

 

Seulgi couldn't, as she was hiding her face into the pillow with a smaller one on top because she couldn't stop crying. Taeyong s an arm under her head, and pulled her over to turn around to him. He pulled the top pillow away and tried to face her, but she forced her face down and hid in his chest.

 

"Baby please, trust me. I shouldn't have teased you. I'm sorry Seulgi, look at me just please, you don't have to talk to me."

 

Seulgi wrapped an arm around his torso, cuddling more into him, face burying into his chest. Taeyong smiled lightly and held her close as well, his arm under head head combing her hair back.

 

"You know, with you and Sohyun later around, I don't think I'll be able to look let alone talk to any other girl." he chuckled trying to lighten the mood. Seulgi just sighed, suddenly whining silently before sitting up. Taeyong could tell she felt uncomfortable about something. "What's wrong?"

 

"It's just..." her left hand went up to the top of her right , pressing into it. "It hurts here..."

 

Taeyong took her hand off and kissed it. "You're lactating. Remember the doctor said it would hurt sometimes since they're growing." he slowly shifted to sit behind her, trapping her between his legs. "I'll massage, here."

 

He started to softly press down her shoulders, putting small pressures with his fingers at wherever he felt knots. Slowly he shifted his hands to the top of her s where she claimed it hurt, and gently pressed down. Seulgi flinched in discomfort, and he mumbled a quiet sorry before massaging more gently.

 

Seulgi leaned back against his chest, her head falling back on his shoulder as she tried to relax. His hands slowly went underneath her s, massaging them gently there. "Better?" he asked and pecked her forehead.

"Hmm... Thank you..." she mumbled. Taeyong stopped, and wrapped his arms around her chest hugging her, and continued kissing her neck.

 

"I love everything about you..."

 

"What do you mean?" she asked, confused by his sudden confession.

His hands started to move up to her hair, combing it down. "I love your hair."

 

Poked her nose. "I love seeing your face."

 

Rubbed and kissed her shoulder. "I love touching your skin."

 

Held her hand. "I love your delicate hands."

 

Held her , and her tummy. "I love that you're going through all this for our baby. Your s, tummy, hips are getting bigger. I know how uncomfortable you are, but you're going through with it for our baby. I can't love you enough for all this."

 

Seulgi looked down at their hands as he held both hers around her tummy, and continuously kissed her from head to shoulder. She slowly faced him when he suddenly rubbed his nose on hers lovingly.

 

"Taeyong, why are my mood swings so bad... I hate it. I feel like I'm disturbing you... And even to myself, I hate it."

 

Taeyong sighed and kissed both her hands before hugging her again, and swung side to side.

 

"I don't find it a nuisance. But I'm sorry you feel bad about it yourself. It's normal, but I guess I shouldn't tease you anymore." he chuckled. "From now on, I'll love you so much you'll be begging for me to stop, but I won't because you deserve to be loved more than ever."

 

 

Seulgi felt uncomfortable, and woke up. Something wasn't letting her sleep, and she figured the baby must have been moving around as she felt something on her tummy. She shifted, and realised taeyong's arm was holding her securely to himself, so turned around slowly to face him. She cupped his cheek and traced it with her thumb, and a smile slowly crept onto her lips.

 

"Why... are you up... so late?" Taeyong mumbled and held her hand on his cheek, eyes still closed.

"I can't sleep... The baby's awake I thi- Ack!" she suddenly crouched slightly, grabbing her lower tummy. Her sound was enough to wake taeyong completely and sit up right away. He held her arms and helped her sit up.

"What happened?"

 

"I think she just kicked too ha- AKH!" she groaned louder, crouching even more. Taeyong quickly got up, put on a tank top and sweat pants, and got both their coats. He then took his own hoodie and shorts and put them on Seulgi after taking off her night dress, not bothered to help her out on a bra. He carried her to stand, and helped her out on her coat, put his own on, then carried her again downstairs to his car.

 

"Wait, no, it's just a ki- AKH!" he stood her up to open the door, when his attention was taken away by her next action, as liquid poured out between her legs.

"NO IT'S NOT, YOUR WATER BROKE!"

 

Taeyong didn't take another second before pushing her into the passenger's seat and driving off, one hand on the wheel while the other held her hand to let her squeeze something through the pain.

 

It didn't take long to reach the hospital, and Seulgi was quickly taken into a ward. But the doctor came in, and shook her head.

"We'll have to wait. The opening is too small, or she'll be hurt."

 

Seulgi couldn't take having to sit through her labour pain, at three in the morning, and for the next four hours. She cried every few minutes, and all taeyong could do was lay down next to her and hold her close. He wished to share the pain, as seeing her tears broke his heart. At one point she yelled so loud he couldn't take it, and forced the nurse to call the doctor.

"She's in pain! Just check, I'm sure it's OK now, please!"

 

The doctor took a look at Seulgi, and nodded at the nurse. "I think it is OK. Take her to the delivery room. Sir, you can follow her and put on the robe and mask."

 

Taeyong was prepared, and he stood next to Seulgi as she kept tossing and turning on bed, gripping on the side bars of the delivery bed. He took both her hands and held them himself. Seulgi hesitated, but with a sudden pain, dug her nails into his skin.

"That's it... It's OK, let it out. It'll be over soon." he whispered and kissed her forehead.

 

The baby was out, and seulgi opened her arms out coaxing to hold her, tears of joy streaming down her cheeks. "Lee Sohyun... Our beautiful daughter... You're here, with us... I can't believe it."

 

Taeyong crouched down next to them and held both of them close to him. He looked at Seulgi as they shared a loving stare and kissed. "Thank you Seulgi. You gave us the best gift anyone could ask for. You made us happier. I love you so much." he let out a tear before kissing her again.

 

"I promise, both of you, and any future child we have, that I'll never love anyone else but you."

 

"Future child?" Seulgi asked quietly. Taeyong simply smiled back with a wink.

"Remember what I said, you're even more beautiful when you're pregnant."

 

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