Minjeong POV

"Minjeong as much as I like you sulking, staring at Jimin unnie's contact wont magically solve your fights"

Ningning, my best friend commented as she eyed me with a frown on her face. I believe that she is already bored because I had been ranting/telling her about the fights that Jimin unnie and I been having.

"I am not sulking" I quipped

I looked at my phone one last time hoping that Jimin unnie would message me. I let out a sigh because this past few weeks, all we ever did was to fight.The tiring thing about it is that it is always the same topic. Me being wary of her in public in short, me rejecting her skinships.

"Minjeong, this past few weeks all I had been doing was hearing you or you ranting about to me about your fights with Jimin unnie. Having fights is normal but you two fights almost everyday" Ning said and I could the worry in her voice

"I know that and it is always the same topic, with me rejecting any skinships that she initiates in public" I sighed as I pulled my pillow closer to my chest

"Min I'm going to say this because I truly believe that you and Jimin unnie are perfect with each other but if I am not close with you, It wouldn't even cross my mind that you and Jimin unnie are a thing" She said as she sat infront of me making sure that she is looking at me in the eyes

"But Ning, she knows that I am not comfortable with it! When she was courting, I told her that and she told me it is okay which now I think is a lie!" I frustrated groaned

I feel tears coming to my eyes and I dont know if its because of me frustrated of myself or is because of Jimin unnie. Everyone knows that I hate skinships! I'm okay doing it in private but I get conscious when I do with people around! Heck! I still find it awkward when my parents hugs me with people around! Why cant people understand that? Why cant she understand that?

"Minjeong that is not what I'm pointing out, you tend to push Jimin unnie away. She understand that you dont like but what she wants from you is reassurance" Ning reasoned as she softly cradled my face while wiping my tears away

"Reassurance? Why is she doubting my feelings for her? I am always with her? I take her out on dates, I cook for her, I d-

"And you do that also with us" Ning interfered as she looks at me in the eyes trying to make me realize what she was trying to say

"Y-you mean she thinks that I love her like I love you guys? S-she thinks, she is not special to me?" I whisphered as I feel my heart ache

I can't believe I made Jimin unnie feel that, maybe that is why she easily gets jealous when I hang around with people that she doesn't know. All this time it was my fault...

"Minjeong, Jimin unnie understands that you hate skinships in public but she is also a human, she needs reassurance. She needs something to hold on that you are just in it as much as she is because as much as I hate to say it, when I look at the two of you, it looks like a one sided relationship" 

I cried after hearing what Ning said, does it really look like that? I love Jimin unnie, I thought I was doing a good job making her feel it but I was wrong...There was nothing that Jimin unnie could hold on to see that I was just inlove as she is.

"I d-didn't wa-want to m-make her feel that way N-ning! I-I love Jimin unnie!" I cried at my best friend embrace

Since I was a child, I wasn't very good at showing feelings, I find it awkward to express it maybe that is why people gave me the nickname 'Winter' when I first stepped into the university but its not my fault, I'm just really bad at showing people that I care and love them. It was also the reason why a lot of people have walked out on me, they think I didn't care but I do and it hurts everytime I see people that I care about walked out on me just because I'm bad at expressing myself.

"Don't overthink Minjeong aah, Jimin unnie isn't like the others. She accepts you and your awkward when it comes to showing how you feel. I am sure that she wont leave you because of it"

As much as I want to be reassured about what Ning said, there is always a voice in the back of my head that tells me that Jimin unnie will eventually leave me because I am such a mess...

"Why cant I be normal?" I sniffed

"Okay Kim Minjeong, you are normal! You just have a little difficulty in expressing yourself but you are normal. Dont ever think like that okay? I'm sure that Jimin unnie loves you just the way you are" 

I hug my best friend tighter because she had always been my rock, when people started talking s about me because of how 'dead' I look, Ning always comes to my rescue and as much as I want to let her be the one to always think of ways to solve my problems, I think its time for me to put Jimin unnie's doubt away. I know that I love Jimin unnie and would regret everyday, If she walks away because of me and my problem with expressing my emotions.

"Ning, I love Jimin unnie"

"I know, I'll talk to her la-

"Ning thank you but I want to solve this problem with Jimin unnie myself" 

I almost laughed when I saw her look away from me with tears pooling her eyes.

"Why are you even crying?" I chuckled as she frantically wiped her tears away

"I'm just so proud of you Minjeong aah, if you need any help, you know that I am always here" She smiled

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"Kim Minjeong, I'm betting you that she will ask for your hand in marriage after pulling that stunt"

"Well, lets hope that because I dont see anyone in my future other than Jimin unnie"

"I think I like you more when you were sulking"

End of POV

*5 Days later*

Jimin POV

This ...Why can't just Aeri and Yeji leave me in my dorm. Binge watching romantic drama and crying my eyes and heart out is so much better rather than attending this School Festival where couples are seen left and right. Speaking of couples where are the girlfriends of this two as far as I thought, I'm the only one who is having problems.

"Can't I just go back to the dorm? The noise and the views are annoying me" I quipped as I frowned at the couple infront of me who are clinging to each other like they will forget how to breathe if they seperated

"Quit being bitter with the couples here Jim" Yeji said rolling her eyes

"I am not bitter! They just don't know how to keep their hands to themselves" I groaned as another couple who was holding hands passed by us

"Okay not bitter but maybe jealous" Yeji countered and I was this close to smacking her in the face if it wasn't for Aeri

"Okay, Yeji stop and Jimin we are here to enjoy the School Fest" The latter said as she put herself between Yeji and I

"I'm not jealous! I accept that Minjeong isn't comfortable with it!" I growled as I shook Aeri's hand on my shoulder

"Accept? If you accepted it then why the are you having fights with Minjeong everyday!? Isn't that the main reason on your fights with her! Dammit Jimin wake up!" 

That hurts...

" you! You dont know anything about Minjeong!" 

"I dont but I know you! I know that you kept trying to bottle up all your hard feelings to her because you are afraid to let it all out and potentially hurt her! Jimin, I know how much you love Minjeong but you can't give your all to her, if she doesn't give her all to you....Have some dignity"

I glared at her but with all the tears in my eyes, I eventually break down. I feel their arms encircling me. God....I must be the most pathetic person on Earth! Who the ing hell cry in the middle of the School Festival where half of the people that are attending is happy.

"I k-know that Minjeong lo-loves me but I ju-just wish she m-makes me feel it...Sometimes I fo-forgot that we are in a re-relationship because there i-is no diffe-difference on t-the way sh-she treats me and her f-friends...I just want s-something fo-for me to hold on..Is that too much to ask?" I cried as I clutch on Aeri's shirt

"Its not Jimin, you have every right to also ask because a relationship is and will always be a two way, you can't be the only one who is giving" Aeri said as she lift my head to look at me straight in my eyes "Jimin, your feelings are valid. If you want assurance, tell it to Minjeong. You can't always be the one who will shoulder all of it and you need to stop being scared of hurting Minjeong feelings, relationships aren't always smiles and laughter. You need to tell Minjeong what you feel even if it hurts her feelings because with that you will see if she also cares for you"

"Its a wrong timing but damn Aeri...Since when did you get so poetic" Leave it to Yeji to ruin heartfelt moments

"Yeji you seriou-

I didn't let Aeri finished when I pulled both of them in a hug, they were a bit tense but it was gone in a moment. I hug them tighter feeling happy that I always have this two with me. 

"I'm sorry" Yeji whisphered as she hug me tighter

"I'm sorry too" I replied back

As soon as I let them both go, we all had a smile into our faces and with that I thought to myself that I could enjoy this night without thinking of her for now. I let myself get dragged by them, we were now in the gym with those two forcing their way in so they could be infront.

"Move people! The girlfriend of the vocalist is coming thru" Aeri shouted

"What are you looking at? The basist and the back up vocalist's girlfriend is me" Yeji snapped at the girl who glared at her because she was apparently -in Yeji's words- was in her way.

"This is so embarassing! I want the Earth to swallow this two or maybe me!" I thought as I keep my head down as I felt the glares coming behind us

"We are finally in the front" Aeri grinned removing her hands in mine

"I never felt so embarassed in my whole life" I said slapping both of their arms

"Earlier you look like you love us then the next minute you are embarassed of us? Make up your mind girl" Yeji said as she rubbed the spot where I had hit her

"Well I would be still loving you, if you two didn't practically pushed half of the students just to get here!" I said as Yeji just make a face to me but nonetheless ignored everything I said

"Well I wouldn't really done that if Ning didn't said to me that I should be in the front" Aeri shrug

"Ning told you that? Ryujin also told me that" Yeji said surprised

"Maybe they are going to serenade you two" I teased them which almost immediately made them blush

"Well I wouldn't mind that hehehe I think that will be sweet" Yeji answered shyly with Aeri who also nodded with a blush on her face probably imagining it already

"Now is not the time to be jealous of them, Yoo Jimin but it would be so nice to hear Minjeong sing again" I thought sadly

The MC entered as he hyped the crowd and introduced the band. Ryujin and Ningning are Yeji and Aeri's girlfriend who also is Minjeong's circle of friends, I find it quite funny that Minjeong who is a extreme introvert is friends with two person who happens to be one of the most extrovert people I have ever met. I guess opposite really do attract.

"NING MY BABY! I LOVE YOUUUU!" Aeri shouted hysterically 

Aeri shrieked again when the latter winked and gave her a flying kiss. Seriously the concert haven't even started yet but I think I have gone deaf already!

"RYUJIN YOU IDIOT! PLAY WELL! I LOVE YOU!" Leave it to Yeji to express love and hate in a single sentence

Ryujin made a face at her but laughed and gave her a finger heart which made my cat eyed friend blush and grin. I find Ryujin and Yeji's dynamic so funny because there is nothing in between of them, its either they will love each other or kill each other.

"Supporting my friends is nice but this makes me more lonely than before, I just wish Minjeong is here" I thought as I checked my phone hoping that Minjeong will message me and ask where I was or whatsoever but alas there was none

I swallowed as I try not tear up, maybe Minjeong doesn't really love me...okay, I seriously need to stop thinking like this! 

"Just enjoy the night Jimin" I thought as I focus my attention again on the stage when I hear the slight tap in the mic which indicates that it would starting soon

"Okay, my fellow students, we will be performing 3 songs but for the last one it would be a bit special! Without further ado, lets get this party started!" Ning shouted as she nodded to her bandmates

They started playing and I actually find myself dancing and singing along with them. They were performing What the Hell by Avril Lavigne and boy does Aeri's girlfriend has some pipes! Ning was so good in hyping at the crowd but at the same time still hitting the right notes. Ryujin was doing back-up and her low registered voice was so good! Yeji was blushing and I dont know if its because of the hotness or what she is imagining that she will be doing to her girlfriend later.