“When two people are meant to be each other,

no time is too long, no distance is too far,

no one can ever tear them apart.”

-unknown-

Seoul, South Korea.

I’m walking along this snowy street, put both of my hands inside my coat’s pocket. It’s getting nearer to new year’s eve and the weather automatically getting cold. My foots still stepping slowly, until I stop at a park, a place we used to be sitting side to side. I can feel the snow starts pouring as soon as these icy things touch my skin. It’s cold, as cold as my heart. Now I’m sitting on a wooden bench, looking at the kids are making a big snowman. I glance at a couple near the fountain, they kinda remind me of someone, a man I love the most after my late father. My heart beats faster as the memories start to play like a movie. Hey there.. I miss you..

“soojungie!” he called me, I turn my head to he back to meet him, “oh, oppa. wae guraeyo?” I asked.

“are you free?” he asked back.

“yeah, why?” I replied as I nodded my head slowly.

“want to join me? i..i want to go to the bookstore, I need to buy some tense books.” He said hesitantly.

“sure, oppa.” I nodded as an agreement, he just smiled then pulled me to the parking lot.

He’s Choi Minho, my schoolmate since we’re still a highschoolers. We took the same major at college, English Literature. He’s a year older than me, that’s why I called him oppa. He such a perfect man, quiet handsome, good at sports, smart, and his eyes definitely a woman killer. As for me, I did fall for him but I realized we’re just friend, like oppa and his yeodongsaeng. He’s like a half of me, even people said we’re like a soulmate for each other. Generally, a soulmate should be a destiny for each other, right? But  I don’t ever think that we’re soulmate since we’re not belong to each other. I’m just a friend, and so is he.

“soojung-ah..” he said, broke a silence atmosphere between us.

“ne?” I answered, while turned my head toward him.

“what’s wrong? You don’t talk too much today. Any problem? Just tell me..” he said, his eyes still focused on the way.

“nothing, oppa. I’m fine, don’t worry..” I replied as I forced to showed my smile.

“really? Ah, we’re here soojungie.” He told me  as he parked his car in the parking lot. I took my bag on the back seat then I loose the safety belt around my shoulder. Minho opened the door for me and both of us walked toward the bookstore. It didn’t take a long time to find those tense books since that kind of book was a common thing, he immediately paid the book at the cashier then he brought me to a coffee shop nearby.

“thanks for today, soojung-ah.” He said after he sipped his cold frapucchino.

“you’re welcome, oppa. I also want to say thanks for this vanilla milkshake and tiramisu, you just saved me from hunger.” I said playfully, he just chuckled and sipped his coffee after that.

“soojungie, may I tell you something?” he suddenly said with a serious tone. I frowned my my forehead, he hadn’t been that serious before. “what is it, oppa?” I asked.

“saranghae..” he said softly, while stared at me deeply right at my eyes. I was shock, I didn’t know what to say. Was she just joking at me? or he really meant it?

“oppa.. wh..what did you say just now?” I asked. He moved beside my seat, our face just 5cm apart and it made me nervous. I could felt his warm breath and unconsciously I closed my eyes as I felt his lips touched mine. A sweet and deep kiss, my very first kiss.

“I love you, soojungie. I really am.. will you be my girlfriend?” he said, still stared me with his enchanting eyes and my head just nodded without any command.

I’m smiling bitterly, remembering about our memories just make my wound getting worse. I let a heavy sigh, it’s really cold here but I don’t want to go, I really need a time to heal myself. I glance at a tiny ring on my left ring finger, and unconsciously tears rolling on my face. Still, I miss you..

From: Turtle Oppa ♥

Hey, have you finish? I’m outside already..

I smiled as I read his message, I peeked from my window and there I saw him stood next  to his car. I quickly grabbed my bag and cardigan then went downstairs. Mom and Sica unni were teasing me and it made my cheeks felt like burned in a hot microwave, I just smiled shyly and kissed them one by one before I leaved home. Minho oppa promised to brought me to an Italian restaurant at Apgujeong, to be honest he had changed me to be a shikshin since our first date. I didn’t know that he’s a big eater even we had known each other about 5 years.

“you look beautiful.” He whispered softly.

“thankyou..” I smiled sweetly, not to mentioned that I wore a mini floral dress paired by a soft pink cardigan. He liked this style so much. “anyway, where are we going?” I asked, pretend that I forgot his plan.

“my promise..” he simply answered.

The dishes served already on the table, a plate of salad, penne with salsa sauce, risotto, some garlic breads with mayonnaise, and two glasses of red wine. He immediately fed me with my risotto, and I fed him back with his penne. Such a childish thing, but isn’t it a common thing for a couple?

“jagiya I have something for you..” he said as he finished his meal. I wiped my lips quickly, “what is it, oppa?”

He took a small velvet box from his pocket and slowly opened it and there I saw a beautiful ring on it.

“you like it?” he asked carefully, I just nodded. “absolutely like it..” I said. He took the ring and put it on my ring finger.

“beautiful..” he said with a satisfied expression, made me smiled widely. “happy first monthyversary..” he said sweetly. Omona, I just  realized that it was our first month being a couple. How could you forgot it, Jung Soojung?

“gomawo, oppa.. you know I almost forgot it, glad that you remembered our anniversary since boys usually careless about this matter.” I said playfully while he just smiled widely then spread his arms and hugged me tight.

“I love you, soojung..”

“I love you too, oppa.”

This feeling is killing me. I’m gonna lose him soon, he’ll leave me here alone though how much I need him he will not comeback after this. That stupid man has broken my heart into pieces, he even doesn’t take any responsibility to fix it. I’m starting to regret what we’ve done these past 3 years, I shouldn’t have said yes, I shouldn’t opened my heart for him. However it is, we’re supposed to be a friend. No more..

“I’m sorry, soojung-ah..” he said in a low tone. Tears rolled down on my cheeks already and I didn’t even bother to respond his apology.

“soojung please, hear me first.” He said as he lifted my chin, made my eyes met his.

“now what, oppa?” I said while tried hard to avoid his gaze.

“let me explain first.” He said, still looking at me deeply.

“let me go..” I said as I walked away but he grabbed my wrist quickly. “ya! I said let me go!” I yelled at him, still tried to struggled from his hand. I let out all my strength and as I successfully escaped from his hand I immediately ran away. I hate you, I hate you so much Choi Minho.

I can’t help but cry. I hate him, but I hate myself more. I shouldn’t cry, I shouldn’t be such a fool like this. I’m sobbing hardly with both of my palms covering my face, and snow is pouring from above. Until then a pair of strong arms wrapping my body from behind, I’m shock but I dare myself to see who is he. His eyes meet mine, and he gives me his sweetest smile.

“what are you doing here?” I say coldly. He chuckles at my words and it’s annoying.

“I’m the one who supposed ask you that kind of question.” He says, he takes a seat beside me. “still mad at me?”

“huh? why should I mad at you?”

“don’t pretend that you’re fine, soojung. I know you more than you know me.”

“oh really?”

“soojungie, please.. let me explain what I’ve said before.”

“I don’t want to hear your explanation. It’s over, oppa. now excuse me, I need to go home.” I say as I stand up from the bench.

“you haven’t been that stubborn before, soojung.” He says.

“people change, oppa. including me.” I reply, still with my cold tone. I hear he lets a deep sigh, seems like he doesn’t know what to do.

“okay, looks like I better leave before we have a serious commitment.”

“what? what do you mean?”

“nothing..”

“do you trick me?”

“no, I don’t..”

“okay then, leave me.” I say as I avoiding his gaze. But instead he,move closer to me and grabs my hand, I’m trying to deny but his hand just too strong.

“I’m sorry, soojung. I didn’t mean what I said the other day.” He says.

“now what? you’re stupid, you don’t know how much I’ve wasted my tears, my time. I feel like dying, oppa!” I’m crying hardly, then he pulls me into a warm hug. I let my tears falling down.

“mianhae, soojung. Mianhae..” he says while rubbing my back. I’m trying to control my breath, I release myself from his embrace and look him right at his eyes. “oppa, just leave me.” I say.

“are you okay with that?” he asks me once again, and I nod my head slowly. “just promise me to comeback safely, okay? Don’t use me as an excuse to stay..”

He touches my cheek and rubs it softly, “and you have to promise me to wait here, okay?”

“I promise you..” I say.

“yes, and now I’m ready to say this..” he says. I

“huh? what?” I ask confusedly. He takes a deep breath and hold my hand tigh, his eyes deeply look at mine, “jung soojung..” he says.

“will you marry me?” he ask me. i can’t help to nod my head, Now I know that we’re belong to each other. He’s a half of me, and so am i. I’m starting to imagining our wedding, our little family with a pair of handsome son and pretty daughter, we’ll be together, forever and ever.

“surely yes, oppa..” I say while giving my best smile to him. My future partner of life. He immediately takes a small box in his pocket, he’s showing me a beautiful ring with a tiny diamond on it. he puts it on my right finger ring then kisses my lips. A soft and warm kiss. He holds my hand tight then we’re walking along this snowy street. I hope our love would be as beautiful as this winter day, and we’re never be apart through these four seasons.

..The End..