Do you ever feel like crying because you just realized you’ve been clueless for the longest time?

Ganyan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. When exactly did this happen? When did I start liking Jennie? We weren’t even exactly friends then, we always fought pa nga. Kaya naman litong-lito ako ngayon. 

One thing’s sure though... Jennie Kim is peacefully sleeping beside me. We made out last night, a lot. Then we decided to go back to sleep.

Nakayakap si Jennie ngayon sakin. I didn’t want to wake her up. Paano kung bigla nalang niya sabihin na last night was a mistake? Parang di ko ata kaya yun. After I had a taste of her lips, and feeling her close to me... hindi ko maisip ano magiging reaksyon ko if she chooses to just forget what happened last night. 

“I can hear your thoughts from here.” narinig ko si Jennie. She even snuggled close to me habang nagsasalita siya. 

“Ah. Eh.. Goodmorning.” I stuttered. 

“Antok pa ko.” she pouted, with her eyes still closed. 

“Jennie, gusto kita.” I blurted out. Dumilat siya at tinignan ako. 

“Obviously. We were kissing last night.” sabi niya sabay irap sa akin. 

“So...” I trailed off. “You’re not regretting what happened?” Tanong ko sakanya. Kinakabahan kasi talaga ako.

"Why would I? Ikaw ba, nagsisisi ka na ngayon?" Jennie tried to tease me pero I playfully shoved her away.

Jennie wiggled her eyebrows habang nilapit niya yung mukha niya sakin. 

Then we were kissing again. 

I reached for Jennie's cheek with my right hand while my left reached for her back. I started massaging it tapos natigilan ako nung may narinig akong humahagulgol. Why would Jennie cry while we're making out? I removed my lips from hers at tinignan ko siya. Turns out the crying came from the sala part ng condo.

"Did you hear that?" tanong ko sakanya. The crying went on at mukhang nanggagaling yun sa labas.  Kaya naman dali akong tumayo at sumond naman sakin si Jennie and we found Lia sprawled on the floor, crying. 

I looked at Jennie at tulad ko, mukang nag-alala din si Jennie sa nangyayari. Jennie seemed frozen in her place kaya naman ako na ang gumalaw at umupo ako sa tabi ni Lia. Nung maalimpungatan siya sa paghawak ko sa balikat niya, she looked at me with her puffy eyes tapos niyakap niya ako at humagulgol pa siya lalo. 

I slowly patted her b