"Seulgi.."

"Hmm?"

"I miss you.."

"Aw.. 2 weeks pa lang tayong nagkahiwalay.. miss na agad?"

"Hey, I'm used to seeing and touching you almost everyday.. you can't blame me."

"Right, sorry.. don't worry okay? Uuwi na ako sa weekend. Kaunting tiis na lang."

"I know.. I just miss you.. so much."

"I miss you too Hyunnie.. sleep ka na?"

"Can you sing for me?"

"Of course.. go on, higa na. I'll sing while you sleep."

"Goodnight Seul.. I love you,"

 

A crinkling whisper, curiosity

Builds up on the tip of my tongue

I’m looking around because I’m curious

Time stops when you transparently touch me

A fresh scent spreads in my mouth

 

What would I have done if I didn’t know you? I

’ll just laugh over this sad feeling

I’m so happy that I can share this happiness with you...

 

"I love you too, Hyunnie.."

 

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"Hi Love,"

"Hyun.. kumain ka na? Sorry ngayon ko lang nasagot yung tawag mo.. andaming naging problema dito sa bahay, kailangan kong ayusin lahat bago umuwi."

"It's okay.. tapos na akong kumain. Kasama ko si Kuya.. nagpunta siya dito para maghatid ng pagkain na pinadala ni Mama."

"Hmm.. I see. Kakain pa lang ako. How's your day?"

"Kumain ka kaya muna?"

"I can listen while eating Hyun. Besides.. namimiss ko boses mo. I want to hear you."

"I miss you too.. kain ka na. Saglit, hihiga lang ako then videocall?"

"Okay, ihahanda ko lang dinner ko. Make sure the doors are locked, yung mga wires dapat naka-tanggal na sa saksakan. Check everything thoroughly before you sleep."

"Yes Sir. Hahaha I'll hang up muna. Love you."

"I love you too, Hyunnie."

 

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I should've told you how much I love and cherish you..

 

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"Seulgi? Nasaan ka ba?!"

"Seulgi!"

"Seulgi! Please sagutin mo!"

"Seulgi!"

"Seulgi!"

"S-Seulgi.."

 

I'm sorry, Hyun.

 

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"Heechul? Bakit ka napatawag?"

("Seulgi.. kelan ang balik mo?")

"Bukas. Bakit? Is there something wrong?"

("I don't know how to tell you but,")

"Heechul! Bakit? Anong nangyari?"

("J-Joohyun..")

 

Hindi..

 

("J-Joohyun was involved in a car accident..")

 

Bakit??

 

Bakit siya pa?

 

 

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"Seulgi! Ano ba! Sabihin mo anong problema! Hindi ka na lang pwedeng umalis basta-basta, magagalit si Dad!"

 

"JOY! I DON'T CARE! NAAKSIDENTE SI JOOHYUN! WHAT PART DID YOU JUST NOT UNDERSTAND?!"

 

"Why do you keep on waiting, adjusting for her? You don't even know if she's still alive as of this moment-"

 

"Don't you dare, Joy. Don't you dare. I did all of this because she deserves it. She was worth it. So don't you dare say she's dead. Baka makalimutan kong kapatid kita."

 

"Seulgi.. this is your whole life. You're going to give that up?"

 

Why can't she understand?

 

I've never been truely happy, not until I met Joohyun.

 

Anong gagawin ko sa karangyaan at kapangyarihan, kung hindi ako masaya?

 

"And you think you're happy? By being Dad's pet? I've seen enough, Joy. I don't think I'll be able to love someone that isn't her."

 

"Seulgi.. please, pag-isipan mo muna. Once na umalis ka, Dad will never take you back."

 

Noong pumunta ako dito, buo na ang desisyon ko. At hindi 'yun magbabago.

 

"Noong tinanggap kong mahal ko si Joohyun, matagal na akong nakapag-desisyon Joy."

 

Kinuha ko ang bag ko at binuksan ang pinto. Muli kong nilingon ang kapatid ko.

 

"And I will choose Joohyun all over again. I'm sorry."

 

 

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"I think you're really an amazing person."

 

Agad akong napatingin sa babaeng nasa counter. Kanina pa pala niya ako pinapanood habang nag-dadrawing.

 

Binigyan ko siya ng ngiti. Hindi naman siguro masama makipagkuwentuhan sa kanya, wala namang customer.

 

"Drawing is easy.. nag-take ako ng classes so it isn't really a big deal."

 

"I still think you're amazing though."

 

Natigilan ako. Is she-?

 

"I like your hands."

 

Napatingin naman ako sa mga sariling kamay. What's special with them?

 

"And I think I kind of liked you too." Smooth.

 

Did she know I always visit this cafe around this time dahil alam kong shift niya?

 

Tiningnan ko siya. "Lucky you, I kind of liked you too."

 

Hindi naman ako nabigo ng makita ko ang matamis na mga ngiti niya.

 

 

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"Heechul!"

"Seulgi! You're here.. Joohyun.. si Joohyun.. kakagising lang niya."

 

God, thank you.

 

Papasok na sana ako sa kuwarto niya ng bigla akong pigilan ni Heechul.

 

"I think this isn't the best time to see her, Seul,"

 

What?

 

"What the are you on Heechul?"

 

"There's something,"

 

"What?"

 

"Joohyun.. nagka-amnesia siya."

 

What?

 

"What do you mean.. wala siyang maalala? K-Kahit ang pangalan niya?"

 

"No.. she remembers me.. and Mom. She can remember things up until 2 years ago."

 

2 years ago?

 

That's when I first met her, sa coffee shop.

 

"I'm sorry this happened, but for now, you need to give her some time. Seeing you, can get her life in danger."

 

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN?! GIRLFRIEND NIYA AKO! WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT I'LL PUT HER IN DANGER?! Just.. just why?"

 

"Seulgi, you're the only thing she can't remember. The things she did with you, her memories after meeting you, it's all gone."

 

Why?

 

Why us?

 

"H-Hindi totoo 'yan.."

 

"I'm sorry, tatawagan kita kaagad once na bumalik na ang mga alaala niya, I'm sorry Seulgi."

Kasabay ng pagtalikod at pag-alis ni Heechul ay ang mga luha kong wala ding tigil sa paglabas.

 

I'm sorry Hyun..

 

I'll be back.

 

I promise.

 

 

 

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