"Hi!! Look this boy is so hot!!!!" Hara runs toward us and shows us her newest magazine. "BEAST's Junhyung is so HOT!!"

"Woaa!! SHINEE's Key!!!" Nicole beamed and stole Hara's magazine. "He is so MY TYPE!!"

"Gyaaa!! G-dragon!!!" I cheered when I saw my most favorite idol. "I really wish I could have a hot boyfriend like him.."

Hi..

My name is Choi Seohyun, I'm 21 years old this year..

"Handsome but cute face, great fashion style, everything from G-dragon is just PERFECT!!" I beamed. "When would that kind of guy come to me?"

"Ya!! Look at yourself before you speak!" Hoya smacked my head and I pouted.

"Yeah.. Hoya was right, that's pretty impossible that perfect kind boy would fall for you.." Mir smirked and I glare to him. "Boys are scared of you, literally.."

"Who don't?" Dongwoon added, made me pouted. "You are too perfect, Hyunnie"

"Straight A student, checked! Rich? Checked! Talented? Checked!" Nana popped out and smiled to me. "Not to mention, known as living-size barbie doll"

"Guys, you should stop.." Lizzy defends me as I hug her arm. "Do you want me to introduce you with Sungyeon unnie's friends? They are cool.."

"Jeongmaleyo?" I asked as Lizzy nods. "Aaaaa!! Gomawo!!"

"Cho.. Choi..  Seohyun-sshi.."

"Hng?" I turned around and see him standing in front of me.

Who is this guy?

How could he looks like this in 2012?

"I.. I.. My name is Lee Jaejin from Musical division.." That Jaejin guy bowed to me as I bow back to him. "I.. I.. I love you, Choi Seohyun.."

"WHAT?!"

"Aa.. Umm.. Minahanata.. I really am sorry for disturbing you.." Jaejin bites his lower lips as he looks terribly nervous. "Wo.. Would you... g.. go.. f.. for.. a.. Hatchi! Ah! Mianahe.."

How could this guy be so awkward?

Poor him!

"Uaa.. He is so skinny.." Hara looked at him from head to toe.

"and short!" Mir is giggling with Hoya and Dongwoon.

Urgh!!

They are so mean!!

but yeah, this guy is SO NOT COOL at all..

He looks out-of-fashion!

What kind of cardigan is that?

and that hair style?

Oh my!!

Even my Choi Jonghoon-appa looks better than him!

Those shaky hands..

Thick glasses..

Kinda awkward, clumsy and not to mention, easy-to-be-bullied..

"Hyunnie.." Nicole pokes me. "I heard that this Jaejin rarely comes to school since God knows when"

"What? Skipping school?" I shocked.

I really hate people who skipping school for nothing!

Come on!

Our parents work really hard to pay the tuition fee..

This guy is such a really big NO!!

"Umm.. Seohyun-shhi, may I ..."

*pluk*

I throw Hara's magazine on his face..

I didn't mind to throw it, but, what has done is done..

"Mi.. Mianhae.." Jaejin is stuttering.

"Mianhae, but I just wanna hang with those kind of boys..." I showed him those idols' pictures. "Annyeong.."

I ran to my friends..

Literally ran...

Mianhae, Jaejin-ah...

"Waaa... Hyunnie, you were scarry.." Lizzy beamed at me.

"You were mean.." Nana added.

I just stay silent..

I know I was so mean..

I'm such a y mean..

I bet Jonghoon appa and Jessica umma would kill me if they found out..

I'm not raised to be a harsh girl who judged people by their style or look just because my parents are designers..

I was embarrassing him..

It must hurts him so much..

But what could I do?

I don't like him..

I don't have any feeling for him..

and I don't even know him..
 

"Hyunnie..." Chaerin runs to me and hugs me tightly. "I heard from Nana that someone confessed to you yesterday.. Eottoke?"

"Did you accept him?" Min, my other best friend pulled my hand. "Tell me!!"

"Ya!! Don't be silly!!" I whined and pout. "I would never date that nerd !!"

"Ms. Jung!"

"Since you seem really energetic today, please bring this book to my office, NOW!"

"Ne, sungasaenim" I bowed and take these super tall books tower in my hand and leave them alone.

This guy is just too mean!!

How could he torture me just because I am his ex-girlfriend's daughter with his-least-favorite designer?

Aish!!

Jinjja!!

These books are too heavy..

That Jay Park is really crazy because of love!!

Love...

Lee Jaejin...

Ah!

I feel so bad to him..

Jaejin seems like a good guy..

He didn't even harm me..

but I treated him like that..

"Yaa!! But that's not my fault!!" I stomped and sigh.

*set*

"Aaa!! The books!!"

*gyuut*

"Watch out!" I fell warm hands wrapped my hands and the books. "Aaa.."

Thump!!
Waa!!!

Kye.. Kyeopta!!!

This guy is really cute!!!

"Ga.. Gamsahamnida.." I bowed to him after I put down those stupid books.

"Mi.. Mi.. Mianahe.." He bowed back to me. "Mianhae.. I was holding your hands without your permition.. I really am sorry, for what happened yesterday too.. Mianhanata.."

"Eh? Yesterday?" I shocked. "I've met you just yet.."

"Woaa.. He is so cute.." I heard some juniors giggles and I shot them my death glare.

"Lee.. Lee Jaejin.." That guys smiled at me. "I'm Lee Jaejin.. I confessed to you yesterday.."

NO FREAKING WAY!!

"Seriously?" I asked as he nods. "Did you dye your hair to blonde?"

He nods and smiles..

"And your thick glasses?"

"You gave me this fashion magazine yesterday, so I went to hair salon and asked them to change my hair like G-dragon's style.." He explains. "and I wear clear soft lenses now..."

I just nod when my mouth hand widely open.

"But when I come to school this morning, everyone was staring at me like I'm an alien..." He pouted, CUTE! "Do I look that weird?"

No..

No way!!

No Freaking way!!

This nerd to be this cutie?

Am I dreaming?

"Se.. Seohyun?"

"Ne?" I startled as I jump back.

"This weekend, may I have a date with you?" He asked me while he bows his head. "May I?"

"Fine!!" I smiled and he jumps.

I decided to go for a date with Lee Jaejin!!
 

"Has Jaejin arrive?" I rushed to the station. "I hope not, I hate to be the late one!!"

"Jeongamlayo?" I could hear Woohyun, one of my schoolmate talks to his friend. "That cute blondie is Jaejin? That's impossible!!"

"Seems like.." That girl, Chorong is nodding. "But his style is still as ever.."

Jreeeng!!!

WHAT IS THAT?!

That is so LAST CENTURY!!!!

"Aah.. Seohyun.." He smiled and rushes to me. "Thanks for coming today.."

"Jaejin, where did you get that clothes?" I'm pointing his shoes to his top.

"Umma bought all of these for me.." He answered innocently.

Yeah..

Old-fashioned umma's style..

What could I ask?

"Do I look bad?" Jaejin asked me with his innocent eyes.

Aww!!

This guy is so adorable!!

"Umm... NO.." I lied. "It suits you.."

What did I say?

Why must I lie?

But I can't hurt his feeling...

Not again...

"Jaejin, let's go to that "arrogant" boutique!" I dragged him to this familiar boutique.

My parents boutique, "arrogant".

"Um.. Okay.." Jaejin is just following me with cute smile plastered on his face.

"Welcome to "arrogant".. Let's me make you proud of your style.." Hongki ahjussi opens the door and greets us. "Uh, Young la..."

I put my finger on my lips to make him shuts up.

I won't let Jaejin knows that my parents own this boutique just yet.

"Could you help me to find the right clothes for my friend?" I ask Hongki ahjussi as he nods and follows me. "Wait me here, Jaejin!"

"Hyunnie, who is that?" Hongki ahjussi asks me when there are just two of us.

"What do you mean, ahjussi?" I asked him back as he points Jaejin. "He is my friend.."

"Aish.. Don't lie to me!! I know you as well as I know my own daughter!" Hongki ahjussi pinched my cheek. "Looks like a good guy.."

"He is.." I nod and smile creeps to my face when I glance at the smiling Jaejin. "This one is good!"

I left Hongki ahjussi and rushed to Jaejin.

"You should try this one!!" I hand him the clothes. "It would look god on you!"

"I'll try it then.." Jaejin sighed and stand up. "But don't laugh out loud if it didn't suit me..."

"Okay!" I nod, he shoots me his glares. "I promise!!"

"Look who is promising things to a boy.." I looked back as I found Minhwan, my younger brother smirks to me. "Your boyfriend, Noona?"

"No!!!" I blushed as he giggles. "He just a..."

"Do I look good, Seohyun?"

OH MY GOD!!!!

HE IS SO *#@%&$!!!!

"Wow!! It suits you.." Minhwan clapped his hands. "You look great, hyung.."

"Gamsahamnida..." Jaejin blushed and bowed to Minhwan. "Seohyun, how do I look?"

"You look GREAT!!" I beamed.

He looks, COOL!!!

He looks handsome, cool and cute at the same time!!

"Everything is 1,000,000 won.." Minhwan played as a cashier and hands me the bill.

What?

We must pay?!

I MUST PAY ON MY OWN PARENTS' BOUTIQUE?

"Miss, how would you pay it?" Minhwan pokes my hand as he smirks.

"Credit card..." I gritted my teeth as I hand him my american express.

"I really am sorry miss..." Minhwan smirks as he hands me back my card. "But the machine doesn't work.. Just cash would make it..."

WHAT?!

CASH?!

"Umm... Chusuhamnida..." I pleaded and shoot him my puppy-eyes. " I didn't bring enough money.. Just try the card one more time.."

"No, miss.. We can't.." Minhwan gave me his eye-smiles as he holds back his laughter. "We just accept CASH for now.."

CHOI MINHWAN!!!!

How dare you embarrassing me in front of Jaejin like this?!

What kind of younger brother are you?!

You KNOW that I literally NEVER bring cash, more than 50,000 won!!

You are so going to get some "treatment" from me once I get home!!

I'm so going to tell Umma and Appa!!

"Just take this, please..." Jaejin puts his 1,000,000 won.

WHAT?!

NO!!

Jaejin!!

You don't need to pay!!

WE DON'T NEED TO PAY!!

I DON'T NEED TO PAY in MY OWN PARENT's BOUTIQUE for MY DATE's clothes!!!

and 1,000,000 won is expensive!!!!

"Jaejin!!" I hold his hand and pull his money. "If these clothes are ridiculously too expensive, we don't need to buy it.."

Well, it's not ridiculous actually..

How much would you ask for head to toe clothes from "arrogant"?

Our boutique is more than just popular among fashionistas...

"Nah.. It's fine.." Jaejin gives his money to Minhwan, as that crazy dongsaeng of mine happily took it.

"Why did you bring too much money like that?" I blurted. "That's dangerous for a 21 years old like us.."

"Ah.. I took my chuseok's money which I earned from a baby from my account this morning.." Jaejin smiled sweetly as he pats my head.

"Ya!! Just cancel it!!" I glared at Minhwan who doesn't even listening to me and look back at Jaejin. "It's for your future, Jaejin.. Just keep it!!"

"Nah.. It's okay.." Jaejin pats my head once again. "Don't be like that, Seohyun.."

"Jaejin..." I smiled as he walks a head.

I kicked Minhwan's legs as he groans.

"Woaa.. Seems like somebody is angry.." Hongki ahjussi popped out after getting back all Jaejin's clothes.

"YOU ARE SO GOING TO PAY THIS, CHOI MINHWAN!!" I theratened my dongsaeng as he runs to umma's office. "I'm going now, Hongki ahjussi.. Annyeong"

"Jaejin, Wait!!!" I'm chasing that clumsy blondie. "Mianhata.. Because of me, you spent that 1,000,000 won for clothes.. Mianhae..."

"Nah.. Gwenchanha.. It's not a big problem.." He chuckled as he slightly sighs. "Meanwhile.. I'm really happy I could go for a date with Seohyun... I really am happy.. I'll do anything fun this whole day with you!!"

Thump!!

Jaejin..

How could you?

So CUTE!!!

"I really am happy.." Jaejin blushed. "May I call you, Hyunnie?"

"Okay, Jinnie!!" I winked at him. "Let's have a fun date!!"

"Eh?" I yelped as we stopped. "You want to take some photo stickers?"

"Ne.." He sheepishly smiled. " I really wanna try it since a really long time ago, but I have no friends.."

Aigoo...

Poor Jaejin..

"I.. I wanna go to karaoke too.." He blushed and bites his lower lips.

Jaejin..

You are so pure..

"Gajja!!" I hold his hand tightly as his eyes widened as his cheeks reddened. "Let's do anything you want!! Start from photo stickers!!!"

I'm really glad I have a date with him..

The used-to-be-a-nerd Lee Jaejin..

He changes for me...

and now,

My heart skips a beat when our eyes met..

"Aaa!! I'm happy!!" I beamed as we arrive at Han river. "Take some selcas with Jinnie.. Sang with Jinnie.. Seeing Jinnie played guitar.. Everything is fun!!"

No respond...

"Ah.. Mianhae.." I bowed. "I'm not supposed to call you "Jinnie" like that.. Mianhae.."

"Ah.." Jaejin sighed.

"Chusuhmanida.." I bowed to him. "You must think that I'm totally rude now.."

"Today is so fun!!" Jaejin giggled and looks me in the eyes. "I could do so many things beside on watching TV-dramas or reality shows, reading some books or playing my guitar.."

Woaaa!!!

He looks so bright and cute!!!

"I skipped school, often.. So I skipped these funs too.." He pouted. "I never knew that photo stickers and karaoke have so much fun like that.."

Lee Jaejin..

"Jaejin, Let's sit down.." I dragged him to the nearest bench. "May I ask something?"

"Anything.." He smiled to me.

"Why did you confess to me?" I look him in the eyes, he yelped and blushed.

"Did.. Did it too early, right?" He asked me, his voice is nearly cracked.

"Nah.. It's not like that.. I just wondering.." I smile. "We don't attend the same division.. We never have the same classes.. We never talked.. It's just surprising for me.."

"I'll tell you once.." Jaejin sighed and blushed. "Just once! And you must listen to it carefully, Hyunnie.."

I nod..

"In our first day at middle school in Shinwa..."

*flashback in Jaejin's POV*

"He barely came to school in elementary.." Woohyun told his friends while looking at me like I'm a weirdo.
"and ends up has no friend at middle school"

Tsk!!

Am I that pathetic?

What's wrong with skipping school?

That doesn't mean I'm a bad guy, does it?

"Excuse me.." Someone pokes my shoulder. "You dropped your book.."

"Ah.. Ne?" I turned around.

"Lee Jaejin.. Class 8-F.." There she is..

A beautiful angel with big chocolate sparkling eyes and silky black straight long hair smiling at me..

"What a beautiful name.." She hands me my book with the most beautiful smile I ever see plastered on her porcelain white perfect face.

"Seohyunnie..." One of her friends calls her. "Ya! Choi Seohyun, balli!!"

"Ne, Lee Sungyeol!!" That seohyun girl bowed to me and leaves with her Sungyeol friend.

and my heart skipped a beat..

and I can't get her out of my mind..

*end of flashback and Jaejin's POV*

"After that day, I always lay my eyes on you from far away.." Jaejin bitterly smiled. "You always have your friends with you.. and I found out that You and Sungyeol were dating for like 5 years till you found out that he had a scandal with Myungsoo"

I chuckled..

That memory about MyungYeol supposed to hurt me..

But it was just so silly now..

"And that was the very first and only time before, you said my name.." Jaejin smiled widely and look straight to me eyes.

"Mianahanata.." I blushed, embarrassed. "I didn't even remember.. Mianahe.."

"Nah! Gwaenchanha... You always be that popular "walking-barbie" for everyone, and I'm nothing.." He pats my head. "And that still makes me happy as long as I could see you.."

Thump!!

Jaejin... Mianhae..

Thump.. Thump..

Why do you look so pure?

and sincere?

I really am a harsh and rude ...

Mianhae...

"Mianahe.. I was talking senseless.." Jaejin laughed awarkwardly..

"Jaejin-ah.." I called him and

Chu~

I kissed him..

His eyes widened in surprise, but closed in process...

He deepen our kiss as he pulls me closer...

I put my arms on his neck as he nibbling me lower lips, begging for my entrance..

and then, our tongues are dancing..

Fighting for dominance...

"Ah.. Mi.. An.. Hae..." I covered my face as soon as we broke the making out-things to take some air.

"That.. That was..." Jaejin is stuttering.

"I'm so sorry for kissing you like that.." I bowed to him. "I really am sorry"

Jaejin, I'm sorry..

but I think I love you now..

What?!

Jaejin is crying?!

Omo!!

What did you do, Choi Seohyun?!

"Ah.. Mianhae..." Jaejin smiled and wipes his tears. "I was crying.. Mianhae.. But it's because I'm happy.. I'm feeling alive..."

Jaejin.. You're so cute...

"Thanks you so much, Choi Seohyun.."

Jaejin...

"Jinnie, do you have a cellphone?" I asked out of the blue as he puzzled. "Give it to me!"

He just hands me his black iphone 4s as I put my number on his phone.

"Here is my number!!" I showed him as I saved it as Seororo. "Give me yours'!"

I hand him my white iphone 4s and he saved his number as Jinnie~

"Let's go to other place!!" I jumped and smiled to him. "Spring is coming!! We could see cherry blossoms.. and then summer will come, and we could come to fireworks festival!!"

"You are so cute" Jaejin pats my head and pulls me to his embrace. "Just stay like this for a moment, Hyunnie.."

"Because we're still 21, we have to try anything fun in this world!!" I beamed as he just looks at me. "Right, Jinnie?"

"You'll always right, Hyunnie.." He kissed my forehead and pulls my hand. "Gajja!! Let's have some fun!!"

I.. I really am in love with Lee Jaejin!!

"Hyunnie..." Chaerin looks at me weirdly. "What's with that wide smile?"

"That's kinda creepy.." Min added. "Do you have a boyfriend, now? Right?"

I just smile and close my eyes..

and replaying last weekend's moment..

"Hyunnie is having a boyfriend!!!" Hara chirped as the other girls come around.
"That's why she is so happy"

"I know it.. Minhwan told us.." Dongwoon smirked at me, as Hoya and Mir following him.

"Who is he? Tell us!" Lizzy demanded.
"Which one is hotter? Your new boyfriend? Sungyeol? or Kyuhyun sunbae?"

"He is..."

"Hyunnie" I smiled to that certain boy's familiar voice. "Thanks for last weekend"

WHAT IS THIS?

WHAT WAS FREAKING HAPPEN to MY JAEJIN who spent 1,000,000 won on my parents' boutique and made me fought with Minari the whole sunday?

Where is my cute blondie boyfriend?!

"Jaejin?" My voice cracked. "What's wrong with your hair? and what's with that thick glasses again?"

"Ah.. Mr. Park asked me to die my hair for these month's play.. I played a dark haired guy.." Jaejin explained as I nod. "and about this glasses, I lost one of my soft lenses.."

"Isn't that "Jaejin" nerd?" Nicole yelped as she is pointing Jaejin. "He is so NOT COOL.."

"I thought Seohyun's boyfriend would be a cute or hot fashionista, like always.." Nana rolled her eyes. "but this Jaejin? No! It must be a joke.."

"Yeah.. Seohyun is kinda "fashionista-boy"s ottaku.." Hoya chuckled.

"He is not my boyfriend.." I gritted my teeth. "THERE'S NO  WAY IN MILLION YEARS I WOULD DATE THIS NERD.. He is not a fashionista or even ullzzang.."

*gyut*

Ya!! Choi Seohyun!!!

What did you say?

Why my heart is hurting?

Jaejin..

He looks...

Undescribeable..

"Hyunnie!!! That was mean!!" Min groaned.

"You've hurt him twice.." Lizzy added.

"But he deserved it.." Chaerin just shrugs her shoulder.

How could I be that rude and mean toward Jaejin?!

BABO EVIL, CHOI SEOHYUN!!

In the very next day I come back and forth to Jaejin's classes, but he didn't attend any of his classes...

It has been 2 weeks I never saw nor met Jaejin..

Jaejin must be really HATE me by now..

Ya!!

He must hate you!!

He is not that stupid!!

You've hurt him, Seohyun!!

I've hurt him..

Saying things I never meant out of the blue..

I would never forget Jaejin's face for that moment..

His undescribeable expression..

Hurts..

Anger..

Honestly,

I fall in love to Jaejin's pure and innocent charms..

Even if he is a nerd and old-fashioned,

but I STILL LOVE HIM..

Jaejin...

Aaah!!

I'm such a jerk!!

I must call him and beg him apologize..

I must beg him apologize and tell him directly about my feelings..

It's a MUST!!


To: Jinnie~
From: Seororo ♥

Jinnie-ya..
Anniyo..
Jaejin-ah..
Jeongmal Minahata..
I was saying things I never meant to you..
I was so mean.. and incredibly cruel..
I'm such a ..
I really am sorry..
I love you..
I really do love you, Lee Jaejin...

It sent!!

What is going to Jaejin's mind when he gets my message?

Nah!!

He must delete it right away!!

He must be hate me!!

Will he reply me?

*hng*

WHAT?!

WHY MUST THIS STUPID PHONE BROKE at this epic time?!

STUPID!!!

YAAAAA!!!!

"Noona, what is it?" Minhwan popped out from the door. "You are so noisy.."

"It's none of your business!!!" I throw my Keororo dolls to him. "Get out!!"

Eottokhe?!

My phone is broken now!!!

Maybe Jaejin would reply my message..

Which would contains his blames, anger and curse for me..

I'm so scared...

Literally scared...

Jaejin-ah, Mianhae...

After that stupid broken phone accident, spring ended..

and so did summer...

"Jaejin.. It's Fall now..." I whispered to myself as I passed the corridor once Jaejin confessed to me, and I hurt him twice..

"Hyunnie....." I could feel Hara jumped and hugs me. "I miss you!!"

"Ya!! Why don't you pick my calls?" Mir twisted my ear. "You never replied my messages too!"

and my other friends start to complain that I never replied to their calls or messages.

"Guys!! My phone was broken..." I yelled as they stopped complaining. "I'm sorry.."

"Ah.. Gwaencahnha.." Nana hugs me tightly.

"Umm, Hyunnie.." Lizzy poked me. "Why don't you see Jaejin?"

"Yeah.. You didn't say sorry yet to him, did you?" Min added.

"He supposed to share the same class with Seungri oppa in next 15 minutes.." Chanrin added. "Go!!"

I must go there!!

I must go to his class and talk to him!!

I must be brave!!

It has been months!!

Huh?

The class is empty?

Where are musical division's students?

Where is my Jaejin?

Oh yeah..

He must skips classes again, like always..

"Hyunnie!!" I yelped when I found out Seungri oppa was the one who poked me. "Searching for someone? Should I call him or her for you?"

"No!! Don't call him!" I stopped Seungri oppa, Chaerin's boyfriend. "Um.. Oppa is attending the same classes with Lee Jaejin, right? Is he coming today?"

"Omo!" Seungri oppa's face paler, I get goose bump. "Hyunnie, you didn't know yet?"

"Know what?"

Jaejin...

"This morning, we got a really bad news...

That Jaejin ..."

NO!!!

That must be a LIE!!!

"Lee Jaejin, I'm here!!!!" I shouted from the top of my lungs. "Jaejin, nawa!!!"

*brak*

"Lee... Jae.... Jin..."

"...Jaejin was death.. He had a serious illness..."

*bruk*

"Jinnie..." I didn't yell again...

My voice won't come out from my mouth.

"He is so cute, isn't he?" I looked to my left and found Jaejin's mom smiling weakly at me. "Jaejin had a heart-disorder since he was a baby.. He must went in and out from hospital numerous times.. His cardiologist said he won't be alive till this spring.. but he was stronger than that.. He is still 21.. This is too fast.."

I just silently cried as Jaejin's umma hugs me tightly..

My eyes never once left from my lover's cold body...

"Because of hiss illness, Jaejin barely came to school.. He didn't have a lot of friends.." Jaejin umma kissed my forehead. "Thanks for being such a nice friend for our Jaejin.. It's such an honor to know that he became friend with a really nice and pretty girl like you.."

"I.. I was..." I chocked with my tears. "I am his girlfriend, ommonim.. I'm Choi Seohyun..."

Jaejin looked like he is sleeping..

Peacefully sleeping with a really nice dream...

With his messy blanket and guitar closed to him..

But this time, he is breathless and his body is deadly cold...

*brugh*

IT HURTS!!!!!!

JAEJIN, IT HURTS!!!!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!!!

I WON'T BELIEVE THIS!!!!!

I'm the one who hurting you!!!

I'm the one who make you suffer!!!!!

I've killed you!!!!!

Just if I knew, Jaejin....

Just if...

*pluk*

My..

My broken phone is turning on?!

How come?!

Did I get any message from Jaejin?

Did I?

Thump!!

Some messages from Jaejin!!

To: Seororo ♥
From : Jinnie~

Hyunnie, thanks for your message^^
I never took your silly words to my heart^^
Since I was a baby, I'm tortured with heart-disorder..
I've been told that I won't be able to live till this' spring..
I was too shocked..
That's why I pushed my limit and confessed my feelings for you that day..
You always be the love of my life..
It was so embarrassing...
But I was happy..
and...
I'M NOT SCARED that I'd DIE really soon any longer...
I really am happy that I could get my love before I die..
I really am love you..
You'll always be my guardian angel..
The reason of my life, Choi Joohyun (˘⌣˘)ε˘`)


Jaejin....

Mianhata....

I really am sorry...

Ah!!

There's another message form him..

What?!

He sent it THIS MORNING?!

To: Seororo ♥
From: Jinnie~

My angel.. My love.. My Hyunnie..
I know my time is coming..
I just want you to know something..
I made this for you myself..
I wish I'd sing this song in front of you..
but seems like I ran out time..
btw, check this out :

Are you doing okay?
Aren’t you sick?
I’m becoming worried of you being without me
I hope you eat well even if you’re busy
Bundle up when it gets cold
Live your life bravely and do not cry

One day of year 2012
I held a pen suddenly thinking of you
Who do you call when you’re scared to walk alone at night?
I write a letter I can’t send
Are you eating well on your own?

I’m worrying today too
I write a letter I can’t send
I care about you, I think about you
Even though I know I can’t be like this
Today I’m only thinking about you
I’m worrying about you all day long
I write my feeling that can’t reach you
Are you doing okay?..

I worry too much, right?
This talking is too much, right?
I’m nagging you like a habit
The image of you full of tears
Keeps appearing in my eyes
Seeing it, days aren’t easy
Are you doing okay?

Why didn’t I know back then how precious you are?
Why was I so dull when love came and when it left I look for it again?
I didn’t realize when you were next to me
Because I was a foolish guy
Because I was a stupid guy

I understood after you left
I made it hard for you and hurt you a lot, right?
I am really sorry
I’ll let you go now
Meet a good guy
I hope you live happily
I believe you will do good as I know you will
Your always smiling picture
I don’t want to stain it with my tears
Today too, just like that, I will only smile

I love you, Choi Seohyun.. I always do..

ANDWE!!!!!

NO!!!!!!

MY JAEJIN!!!!!!

NO!!!!!

Why must I judged people buy their looks?

Why must I declined my feelings?

Why must I ditched you?

Jaejin, you were a really strong guy!!

I wanna be as strong as you..

This thing hits me on the face...

That the real angel is you, jaejin..

You are my guardian angel...

THE END