Chapter 1

If I can't have you
They say fall season is a beautiful scars, watching the trees turn from a uniform green to all varieties of gold, yellow and red.
is a spectacular experience. One can almost be blinded by the fiery brilliance. How can it be that all this beauty is a sign of death and decay?
with all this beauty there is certain sadness. The feeling of melancholy, fear of the changes and the leaves are saying soft goodbyes. 
And for the others Fall season is the most calming season of all, A soothing sound of the wind-- whispering and rustling. 
It's the best time to think and reflecting our own lives, It's a time of change in this world we share-- another page to turn. Yes, letting go is a decision that hard to make but letting go of our fears. 
You'll not compromise life over a painful past. Some are afraid of change and some are not.

But for me Fall season, is the hardest. the leaves are all falling, like they're falling in love hard with the ground. That's exactly what happened to me.

I can't forget the first time I laid my eyes on you, It's still lingering on my mind how those leaves fall  unto your face, how you smile so brightly while you close your eyes. I got mesmerized by your beauty how perfect

that moment is. The season, the falling leaves and you. And it's as if the world stops and all I see is you.

No spring nor summer beauty hath such grace as I have seen in one autumnal face. I smile as I remembered it. I 

still can't believe that I am waiting here as you walk on the aisle, I look at you and you give me your brightest smile.



Then slowly flashback rushing on my mind, how I saw you there and how our story unfolds.


***


"Hello unnie?" I calmly said on the phone while walking fastly, "Yah!!" I suddenly put my phone away from my ear, "Yah unnie, why are you shouting?

it hurts." I pout eventhough I know she can't see it. 


"Where are you? Yuju and I are already hungry and stop pouting." Sowon unnie angrily said.


"How-- ah nevermind! I'm close already unnie, just wait for a minute." 


"A minute?! Don't tell me you're still in your house?!" 

"Yah unnie stop yelling will you? I told you i'm close already." I sigh, this unnie really. poor my ears.

"Then why all I hear is your rushing footsteps?" She suspectingly said.

"It's because i'm stuck on the traffic a while a go," I said while eyeing my sorroundings."So I decided to walk than to suffer from your wra--"
I suddenly stop, when I see something or rather someone. My mouth agape at the sight, how can someone is so perfect with their
side profile while looking up at the tree? those leaves that fall into her face, that beautiful smile, and the wind that blows her hair. my breath hitched,
"Wow" I absentmindedly said, "Yah Yerin-ah?! are you okay? are you still there?" Sowon unnie said on the other line. but my brain can't process anything
and it seems the world stops and all I can see is you. 

Feels like i'm in the movie, but the difference is I am the leading man and you're my leading lady. The gust of the wind-- calming and soothing.
The falling leaves, and rushing footsteps of the people. it all stop, all I see is you. Your smile that I never seen on the countless movies i've watched.

It's all genuine, my heart beats so fast. and I fall hard not on the ground but with you.


***


That's the first time I saw her, I don't believe in love at first sight. I mean how can you love--someone seeing for the first time? rubbish! it's a 

ridiculious concept, How could you possibly love a person without even so much as knowing their name? but it all change because of her. In a blink of

seconds all my perspective in life crumpled because of her, the way I think, how I see life. I hate fall, but  it's the time I saw my angel

it's all too sudden and I didn't say that it doesn't scares me, change is scary but I hug it all. I accept my defeat, I came to love fall season--I believe

in love at first sight, For her it's all worth it. change it's not entirely scary, you will also experience those spantaneous moments in life. Unexpected

yet scary isn't it? cupid surely knows how to play.


***



At the cafe.


I open the door of the cafe where my friends are waiting for me while still thinking about her, I sigh dreamily. 

I stumbly walk towards my friends, but before I even sit on the chair they immediately bombarded me with questions,

"Yah Yerin-ah! are you okay? what happened to you? why your face is like that?" Sowon unnie asked concerningly.

"Yerin unnie what's wrong? you look like you saw a ghost, don't tell me?--" She gasped, 
"That face, y-you also saw an alien unnie? I knew it!" Then she turn to Sowon unnie and shake her shoulder excitingly, 

"I told you unnie, alien is real. right Yerin unnie?" She said while smiling at me, "A Goddess to be exact." I said dreamily.

Yuju look at me weirdly, while Sowon unnie stares at me with the look of 'explain' 

"I found her already." I said fantastically.

Yuju seems lost, "Who?" Sowon unnie asked, "My Angel" Yuju blink her eyes, while Sowon unnie look at me judgingly, she holds my shoulder and said.

"Yerin do you have a problem? we can talk it out, but don't do something stupid like drugs okay?" I blink my eyes and said "ha?"


"I mean, We are here for you Yerin ah" She softly said to me, "But unnie it's true I saw an Ange-" She put her index finger on my mouth to shut me up


"Shh.. you know Yer--"


"Unnie!!" Yuju shout, Startled us "I want to see an Angel too unnie!" She holds my hand, almost dragging me but Sowon unnie stop her and said, "Yuju-ah, 


Yerin is just joking right Yerin-ah?" I shakes my head, "No, She's real" I sigh abstractedly, "Kyah! see unnie, it's true I need to see one too!"


Sowon facepalmed, while me thinking about my angel again and Yuju is in her world.


***


After that unexpected meeting of my angel, I can't stop thinking about her for months. I keep on walking on that place hoping to see her again, 

but faith forbid it to happen so after a months of hoping. I gave up and just thinking that it's just a dream, a 
beautiful dream. eventhough 
I tried to forget about her, her side profile keeps on appearing on my mind. how can I forget about that breathtaking view? I sigh for the umpteenth times
today. How I wish that it's just a dream, but yeah whom I am kidding? I know deep in my heart that all of it are real. Apparently I keep on
denying it to myself. My heart knows that it's love at first sight, how on earth I fell in love!? I don't even know her name, or is she even exist!? Well I saw her perhaps  she's just a pigment of my imagination that I created because i'm so hopeless? 

"Arghh!! I don't know what is real and not anymore!"

I lay on the floor, I really can't stop thinking about her eventhough I keep on telling myself to stop. it's like she occupied half of my mind and hard to 
get rid of her, I smile unconciously. those smile that captured my heart. I never forget that perfect moment. I will treasured it for the rest of my life 
I accept the fact I will never meet my angel again. I unconciously drifted to sleep while thinking about her, A sigh of content escaped to my mouth with a 
sweet smile plastered on my face before I fall into a deep slumber.

***

Two figures staring at the sleeping figure on the floor, one is worried and one is annoyed. "Unnie I told you we need to call a cops" Yuju said
while giving the sleeping figure a worried look, "Look unnie she's not even breathing!" she said unsettlingly.

Sowon just massaged her forehead, she sigh what should she do with this weird friend of hers. "Yuju look, she's just sleeping okay? it's just happened
that this duck choose to sleep on the floor." She calmly explaining to her peculiar friend. 

"No unnie, what if a thief entered here and want to steal something in this house but Yerin unnie saw him, they fight then the man pulled out a gun and 
he hit unnie's head that's why she's laying on the floor unconcious?" Convincing her unnie that something happen to her Yerin unnie, Sowon open her eyes
widely, she immediately looking around the house looking if something bad really happen here. but everything is still in place, no traces of robbery
or something. shakes her head, amused that she  believe in what her weird friend said.

She heard a loud gasped, "Omg! unnie! what if the Angel that Yerin unnie told us is went here to make a revenge because that angel upset that Yerin unnie called her a angel but it turns out that the angel is really a alien?" She looks at me with her teary eyes, "Eh?" I'm loss at word because of what she said, then I heard loud cry, I saw Yuju shaking Yerin while sobbing loudly "Yerin unnie! Don't leave us please! don't go with your angel unnie, that angel is not an angel she's a alien!" 

Yerin stirred awake, blinking. "Yuju?" she quizzically asked, because last time she checked she is just thinking about her angel and then now she 
saw Yuju crying 'eh?' "Yerin unnie!" Yuju hug her Yerin unnie, "I thought you leave us and go with your angel"

Yerin look at Sowon questioningly, but Sowon just shrugged it off. "I-- ooohhh" Yerin wants to say something but she feel something soft. Yuju accidentally
rubs her bosom in Yerin arms, Knowing Yerin and her erted nature. Sowon amused by the scene infront of her, Yerin have a erted smile on her face
and Yuju is still crying who is still clueless what is going on. Sowon just had enough and smack Yerin in the head while pulling Yuju away from the ert

"Why you give me a friends like them?" She asked to no one, "Unnie who are you talking to?" Yuju asked her, "No  one, i'm talking to no one" she answered Yuju look at her weirdly, "Unnie you're weird" Yuju looked at her insanely.

Sowon stares at her absurdly, Yerin laughing so hard while Yuju incredulity look at her. the world must be cruel to her Sowon thinks.

 

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Hope you like it, it's my first time to write so please bear with my grammatical errors also with not so good story. Just wanted to write because I really miss sinrin so much :( please let me know what you think to this story. Thank you if ever you'll like it hahahah!

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