I'm sorry for ranting here because I just don't know where to go or what to do with my feelings anymore.

I know multidating is normal thing here in rpw. I get that. But ngl it ing hurt when all this long you tried to be a patient and understanding lover thinking your lover was busy with his ooc life just to find out later your lover was busy somewhere else. 

I swear I'm not a clingy person! But I do have feelings. My partner didn't even remember our monthsary date yes he's being so active and mushy elsewhere with his other lover. Just ing tell me if you don't love me anymore for god's sake. I was so ing hurt when I knew about this.

Why did you do this to me? Just ing tell me if you're done with me. I have been trying so hard to understand your absence for you just to play with me like this. I don't ing care if you're busy for real but for you to treat me like this and come back later with all kind of excuses about your ooc problems. Like what the . Why did I even bother to comfort you all this long when you're all fine out there! if you wanna multidating then try to be fair to all your lovers. Don't treat them like !

Sigh. 

What I hate the most is, even after knowing all of this I still miss you.