The Moon lover Girl

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The Story of a girl who loved the Moon

For her, it was not just a moon... It was him, her brightest moon, the one who was her strongest shoulder to lean on, the one who was always beside her, the one whom she loved, still loves and will keep loving...

Dedicated to our Brightest Moon.. Our loving Oppa who is always beside us... Who always keep loving us and who always stay beside us.. Sarangaheyo Jonghyun Oppa. Also dedicated to my SHINee World .

Foreword

It was forecasted to rain today.  But for some unknown reason the rain droplets refuses to let themselves come down. The cold breeze gently touched her hair passing by messing up her hair all over the  face … She kept looking up in the sky frequently while walking through the metro station from her office … The sky seems to be gloomy and the clouds seems to be heavy just like her tender heart…  ‘Mamma the sky looks so dark and scary!  Will there be a thunder tonight? ‘She turned back to see where the little voice comes from... A curious little kid was looking at his mom to get an answer. And the Mamma replied ‘It will soon, so let’s go home before it does ’. They hurried as they were running to catch the next metro. Though it was the kid who was curious to get an answer it seems that she was dragged more into that question. She kept thinking. ‘Is that all? Or is it because the clouds are holding back, though it’s heavy just because they don’t want the earth to see them letting it out?  Just like us... At times no matter how hard it is... No matter how heavy it is... we just keep holding on... Just because we don’t want to let it go and expose ourselves to the outside world...’

It seems that Selene had a long day today. She seems to be in a state of mixed emotions… She was angry but sad. She felt exhausted and frustrated too. Her heavy heart kept her looped inside a series of deep thoughts. She kept walking in a way that made it obvious that she was lost in her thoughts. The station seems to be less crowded than usual.  She plugged in her headset and started listening to her favorite tracks while waiting for her metro. She does that always just to get away from the rest of the busy world and to get confined to herself... She watched the people who passed by … some seems to be happily moving around, where as some seems to be tired after a hectic day of their work life... The teenagers seem to enjoy their best part of life hanging out with friends chatting and the kids playing around seems to be happy to go home after their school. And she kept asking herself… ‘And Selene... What are you doing here? And what have you been doing all these years? ‘. That one question made her feel a pain somewhere inside … She was a girl full of dreams… But life never gave her a chance to taste the beauty of her dreams.  It was a tough decision for her...  whether to follow her dreams or to follow the normal flow of life... Some situations in her life made her leave her dreams far behind and flow in the direction of the wind... Just like majority of people do...  The only comfort she had in her life so far was her passion for music and dance accompanied by her favorite five behind those tracks... 

Selene was having a hard time in her life... She was not happy with what she is right now... She kept regretting her decision of leaving her dreams behind and choosing an easy path. She was successful but was not happy deep inside. Not a single day passed by without regretting the past decision she made. She felt so frustrated and sad how life had treated her. She felt jealous seeing how happy others are when things that is simple for others seems to be out of reach just for her…  And finally she gave a big thought about it... And today she made her decision... To chase her dream no matter how late it is…

She expected support but all her colleagues did was to confuse her… Some blamed her ‘Are you crazy? Do you think you will get a secure and well esteemed job like this? And it’s too late to choose another path... You better think wise before you act’. Some advised her ‘Don’t you think you should give it another shot? Like anyways we have chosen this path and traveled so far. So why don’t you try to get adjusted to it and move forward.’ It was just her parents and close friends that supported her and said ‘Follow your heart... Chase your dreams... It’s not too late for anything…’ She was confused totally confused and worried... She was not sure if the decision she made was right or an act out of some sudden emotional burst.  Above all she was scared if others would judge her decision that might end up hurting her... All these thoughts made her lost that she nearly missed her stop. She hurried out of the metro pulling her bag and the umbrella. As she came out of the station it started to drizzle. Cold breeze was accompanied by the rain droplets making it feel cold all over. She walked to her residence but had a heavy mind. As she reached her residence she met Mrs. Claire her residence owner who was ready to leave for the day, closing the residence reception in a hurry. ‘Good evening Mrs. Claire’ Selene wished her with a gentle smile... ‘Aww good evening my sweet little girl... I hope you had a great day.’ Mrs. Claire replied with a smile. ‘Yeah, kind of. Its drizzling already I hope you reach home before the thunder. It’s in the forecast today’ Selene replied. Mrs. Claire looked at the sky outside and replied ‘I hope so dear  ... take rest and see you tomorrow’. They waved bye at each other and moved. Selene took the stairs and reached her room on the first floor. She took the key from the bag, opened the door and got inside. Though she was back to her room she felt restless. She walked into the balcony and saw it was still drizzling. She suddenly thought about something and checked her watch. Its 7 pm already. She took her umbrella grabbed the key and ran outside locking the room. She walked past her residence to the park nearby. As it was raining and dark it was almost empty. The cold breeze kept passing by making the atmosphere colder than usual. The rain droplets keep falling on her face as it was kind of windy. She walked past the park, reached the lake.

The view of the lake was one of the most beautiful evening views she enjoyed. She kept walking until she crossed the bridge across the lake. And that was her favorite spot. There was an old authentic bench facing the lake surrounded by a beautiful garden. If you sit on the bench it gives the perfect view of the Moon and the lake. She frequently visits this place just to see the moon and spend some time. The moon for her was that one special person whom she missed every time… She was reminded of his words whenever she looked at the moon “I resemble the moon? Yeah, that’s right since I always appear at night”. She visited her moon whenever she was sad, whenever she missed him... Whenever she felt like seeing him once again… She had no words to express how much she missed him... Just because she often visits the lake side garden to see her moon, her friends calling “The Moon Lover Girl”. But in fact yes it was true... She loved the Moon … Since it was not just a moon… But it was him… whom she missed so much … She sat on the bench holding the umbrella… Though it was drizzling, her Moon was still there reducing the darkness of the clouds with the Moonlight. This was her place to talk to him about all… Her worries, her happiness, her feelings... And all about her. Today she wanted to calm herself a bit and clear her mind due to which she decided to visit him. Selene looked up at him, the bright white Moon… and said ‘Jonghyun Oppa... How have you been? Is it cold up there as its raining? It’s cold down here too… Oppa I have been holding a lot nowadays…  At times it’s hard for me… I am not sure how I should react…’ A drop of tear started flowing down her cheeks as she kept talking to him. All the heaviness she kept hidden deep inside started flowing out one by one…  She continued to cry as she couldn’t hold all her tears back. ‘Oppa everyone says it’s too late … I am scared if I will be judged... Am scared if am making a wrong decision again... Eottoke oppa... I wish I could see you now and get a hug…’ She kept crying. She gently looked up at the moon. Tears kept flowing through her cheeks... Her eyes seem to be tired. She missed him a lot… He was one of her strong shoulder to lean on. She took her headset and plugged in to listen to his voice… That’s what she does when she miss him the most. She played the Blue night radio tracks… And then there it is … the voice she missed… She kept listening to him looking at the moon. Suddenly one of those sentences quoted by him struck her for a minute. He said “Aren’t dreams to be searched for your entire life? I don’t think it’s too late, and having attained your dream isn’t everything either. It’s the process that’s more important” She suddenly felt like she was called to this point by him just to tell her that it’s never too late… She continued listening .He kept talking "When your tears are falling just let them shed. I wish you’ll think of it as if that weight inside your heart is getting out of your body drop by drop, like that." Hearing those comforting words made her burst out. She cried till her heart felt calm and comfortable. She gently wiped her tears and looked up. She said ‘Oppa am happy that you and I, we are destined... Am happy that no matter what... you are beside me always whenever I need you…  Knowing you was the best part of my life … And am happy that I love you… am happy that I still keep loving you… I am happy to be known as a Moon Lover girl… because for me looking up at the sky it’s not just a Moon… It’s the brightest Moon in the sky … It’s you… Saranghaeyo Oppa…  Bhogoshipoyo… No matter how fast time flies… No matter how far away I am… I will be always your Moon Lover girl…’  With the love and comfort she received from her Moon she stood up and walked back through the drizzling rain. Before crossing the bridge she turned back for one last time to see her Moon. Her eyes sparkled with hope and determination; she smiled gently and said “Jonghyun Oppa Saranghaeyo”. She turned back and walked. The rain has started to get stronger as forecasted and it was late too. But still she kept walking through the pouring rain with a ray of hope and love she received from her Moon and the determination to chase her dream…

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