I do not know when things turned the way it does now, I became aware of my attraction to him months after our first meeting, but I do not remember for certain when I started feeling the way I do now. And worst, I feel like I’ve always liked him.

You see, Kyuhyun and I are occasional partner. He is my partner but I know he has multiple, but according to him, ‘I am his favorite’. That should have been the very first red signal for me. And it's not just some red flag, it's a BIG RED FLAG. But did I mind it? No. Did I go on? I certainly did.

He’s pulling me to him, and yes, at first it was just the great and nothing more. But as I said, I fell. And I shouldn’t. 

And now, years after, and so many regrets in life and one of them is falling for him, hard. Falling without anything or anyone to catch me, I promised myself; “one day, I’ll think and look at him without feeling anything, the way I did the first time I met him.” 

And god, please help me.