Donghae is sitting on his bed and staring at the ceiling. It is late at night but he can't sleep.

Everything has been good in past few days. He made a solo debut and went to LA. He also talked to his fans on YouTube. But one thing was missing.

He hasn't seen Hyukjae in what seems like forever. When was the last time that he saw him? A few weeks ago?

He talked to him on the phone for a couple of times but after that Hyukjae wasn't picking up this phone. Donghae sends him texts but hardly ever receives a reply.

That is so upsetting. Donghae has other friends to talk with but it never feels like he has really talked until he talks to Hyukjae. With Hyukjae, it's just relaxing. He feels strangely satisfied when he is with Hyukjae.

Does Hyukjae feel the same? Probably no. They are good friends, the best friends. He feels like he can't live without Hyukjae. But Hyukjae can easily live without him.

That is even more upsetting.

He is one pathetic , to be honest. He should learn to be able to live without Hyukjae. In the military, he thought that he learnt it. He missed Hyukjae like hell but he learnt it. He found friends and spent time with them.

But no one was like Hyukjae.

After returning back from military after two years, he showed his friend that he missed him. But he also tried to keep himself in check.