You have been a bestfriend that i have never had.

 

Since you're with him, i was left alone

 

It's like a scissor, you and him were in the two holes and I'm in the middle of the blades.

 

Once it get close.. it cuts me

 

We dont talk much like usual, eat together, play together, sleepovers, pretty much what we used to do..

 

You were with him now.. happy
Without me

 

Moving on wasnt easy for me.. stay myself away from you was my plan, but i always fail, I always miss your smile.

 

I woke up with a headache and decided not to go to school. I opened my phone, no notifications, no messages from you.

 

"Huh.. I guess I wasn't important as I used to.." 

As I remember you always texted me in the morning just to greet me, it annoys me but.. it put me on a good mood to start the day

PING!!

A message from jihyo

"Y/n where are you??"

"I'm not going to school today, headache"

"agh c'mon.. I know you're making that up so you dont have to see nayeon"

"Oh god not this again"
"if you dont believe me just come to my house and see for yourself" I continued 

I told jihyo everything after I know those two were love birds. Can't thank enough to her cause I almost hurt myself.. huh I know, so stupid.

"Fine then.. take good rest and drink water.. dont forget to eat"

"Ok mom" as I smiled while texting back

At least I still have her right.. 

I go downstairs as jihyo told me to eat and because I'm hungry. My head keeps aching every step I take. I reached downstairs and saw a note and a fried rice next to it

"Y/n, I'm going to the grocery store, I know you've got a flu or something so I didn't wake you up for school. I left you a fried rice, heat it up if it's cold, mom"

Oh great now I'm all alone at my house.
I sat down and watch MyTube while eating my food. It's Jacksepticeye, one of my favorite youtuber.. always happy and likes to make people laugh. I watch his playthrough of five nights at freddy's help wanted.

Finished eating and go back to my room. As I opened my room, those memories hit me again.

(FLASHBACK)

"God your so bad at playing games, haha" as I win another match of Mario cart.

"At least my grades are higher than yours" nayeon said in revenge

"Haha yea right"

"Are you two done playing games cause I'm sleepy" jihyo murmured

"1 more match" said nayeon

"You sure..??" Me knowing I'm gonna win

"I'm not gonna lose this time" Nayeon pouted

"Fine.. I'm letting you win this time, just this time" I said to her while starting the game

(FLASHBACK END)

I got teary eyes after remembering that, she rarely play games with me.. and now, never.

I sat on my bed, letting my tears fell out
I take my phone and turning on some music to match the mood,
Best friend By Rex Orange County

I lie on my bed and let my memories flood my mind

(FLASHBACK) 

I lie on a blanket beside my best friend under the tree after having a picnic together.

I stare at the skies and closed my eyes, listening to birds chirpping, wind blowing my hair.

It was quiet, not awkward but a nice one

I opened my eyes and look to my left, all I see was an angle sleeping beside me,
I chuckled

We just ate and your already sleeping

I poke her cheeks, and and she caught my hand

"You think I can let you touch my cheeks like that?" As she let go of my finger

"I thought you were asleep" I chuckle

"Hmm"

"You have something bothering you?"
I asked

"No.. I just wonder, when will he notice me" 

"You'll get him anytime soon"

"It just that.. you know, his a popular kid and I'm not"

"Well he did say hi to you the other day right?"

"Yes he did.. I wish he could do that more often"

As long as your happy, I'm gonna do anything for you

Another silence.. I dont know what to say.. so I just let the time pass, until she broke the silence

"Have you ever liked someone y/n? You never told me who you liked before, well last time was that jerk.. I dont want you to be with that person"

I smiled 

I lied that time cause all this time I like you nayeon, but I dont think you do the same.. so I kept it myself for a long time

"No.. I don't see anyone that fits my type"

"I hope you find that person"

I already found it, just waiting for the right time

(FLASHBACK ENDS)

I started sobbing

How could you be so blind.. I was there the whole time, why can't you just see.. all you see was him.

I hate you.. I hate you for making me like this

My head aches so much because of crying and I fell a sleep.