“Happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday Daddy!”

I blew the candles and put huge smile to the little boy who’s sitting in front of me. With matching black shirt and khaki pants along with the paper crown in the head, he exactly looked like mini me. Hajoon clapped in excitement when he saw the smoke off the candles, just like what his mom used to do.

“You have a wish?” he asked me.

I nodded while putting away the candle from the cheesecake. “I do. I have lots of wishes.”

“It will happen, Dad.” Hajoon said, folding some colored papers in the table.

“Oh really?” I raised an eyebrow. “How do you know?”

He smiled cutely. “Because I pray that your wishes will come true.”

I let out a small laugh. My cute little boy, my source of happiness, my summer baby Park Hajoon.

“Thank you for the prayer, Hajoon.”

“But Dad, do you really think our prayer will be granted by God?” he started to lean to the chair, looking at me with a hopeful stare. I stopped eating the cake and looked back at him.

“God will give us things He knows good for us.”

He seemed to think a bit before smiling again. “Then my prayer will be granted.”

“Good. Are you praying for us to get more money, so we can have holiday again?” I jokingly said to him. We once went to Hawaii along with my family, he loved it so much we added extra week to stay there.

Hajoon quickly shook his head. “I’m praying for a mommy.”

The last bite of the cheesecake felt like sand in my throat, so dry and hard to swallow. I nervously drank the water, twice.

“Mommy?”

The little boy nodded again. “I think I really want a mommy now, Daddy. And I think you need a mommy too… and because God gives us what we need, He will give us a mommy.”

Just seconds after saying that, Hajoon giggled and playing games in the tablet again, cute game sound was heard as he busily pressed the screen; leaving me with a heavy thought.

I never imagined that at the age of 32, I would be a single dad of a 7 years old boy.

And now, looking for a mother to my son.

Hello everyone, this is Hajoon