Seung-wan POV 
"YAH SON SEUNGWAN! Is it true?! You and Joohyun broke up?" 

My best friend Sooyoung came barging into my practice room. 

"Yes it's true" 

I said nonchalantly. 

"But why? You've been together for so long it's like your 8th anniversary this October. What happened? You know you can tell me."

She walked to me and hugged me. 

"Things change Sooyoung. That's all I can say. We fell out of love. But I'm okay, I'm busy right now I still have to sing later." 

I said sadly to her. I know I'm not fine but I have to. She hugged me one last time and left. 

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"Ladies and gentlemen let us all welcome Son Seung-wan to the stage." 

I smiled gracefully to my seat and scanned the crowd, to my surprise I saw her sitting near the back with her "fiance" or so. I was shocked for a second but I regained my composure. 

"Thank you, everyone, for coming here tonight. I hope you enjoy my performance. I wrote a song a few days ago and it's my first time singing it in public so I hope you like it."

The crowd applauded. I saw staring at me confused. Probably wondering why I'm here and not in my old work. After we broke up we never talked or saw each other again. 

So much time has passed 
I really want to know how you're doing 
To the people worrying about me 
I lie that I removed everything about you 
It's the day I hate myself so much

It's been a long time since we broke up. No matter how hard I deny it I really want to know how you are. I don't want people to be worried about me so I lied saying I'm fine and I don't care about you anymore. I looked at Joy and she looked at me sympathetically. I knew she must've seen Joohyun. 

There's no such beautiful breakup in the world 
But if I let you go comfortably 
You must be happy as you see someone else 
I really want to know 
How you look when you think of me

I closed my eye and felt the song, it brings too many memories. I remember some of our friends would tease you saying to stop thinking of me when I'm not with you. I blushed bashfully after hearing that. I do wonder if you are thinking of me now.

I liked the way your eyes look at me 
So I blushed and pretended to be indifferent 
Like the beautiful day 

I remember that wonderful day when I caught you staring at me. It was the day we got together. I was blushing so hard that time. I love your eyes it's like I see my future when you stare at me. The way you looked at me was full of love. 

I wish you're loved by a good person 
And smile again like our beautiful day

I hope that guy beside you will love you greatly. I can't go back to how it was before so I hope and pray that you'll be happy. I'm sorry if I'm not good enough, I'm sorry if I didn't fight for us Joohyun-ah. Forgive me. 

When my wallet was empty 
I was hovering around a restaurant
You said it was your payday and 
Entered the restaurant while holding my hands

I remember that time when I used all of my money on buying "unimportant" stuffs. We were strolling around the park and saw this newly opened restaurant. Since I don't have money I decided to just walk past it when you suddenly held my hand and walk straight to the restaurant. I asked you what are you doing. You answered with a wink.

"I wanna try that newly opened restaurant and don't worry it's my payday." 

I gave you a 10,000 couple ring 
You thanked me with tears 
I envy the person who will be loved by you

Remember when it was our 4th anniversary, I have no work yet and I want to give you something. We were going home and I stopped in front of the beach we're walking. You looked at me questioningly, no one was at the beach at that time since it was late. I cupped my hands at my mouth and shouted. 

"BAE JOOHYUN!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!"

You were startled but blushing that time, you're so cute haha. I looked at you and smiled shyly. 

"Before we go home I wanted to give you my gift. I know it's not much but I hope you like it."

I handed you a red velvet box it has a couple ring and I instantly thought of you. It was a very cheap ring I bought at Hongdae. I was nervously waiting for your reaction as you were looking at it. You looked up teary-eyed and hugged me.

"Thank you so much Seungwan-ah. I loooove it!"

You wore it and kissed me on the cheek. I breathed a sigh of relief when you liked it. You started walking again. We walked home happily I'll never forget that day. 

I may have not given you the world but you accepted every part of me. Now that we broke up I'm so envious of the guy you love now not only because you love him but he can also give you the world. 

Memories keep flashing to me with every note I sing, it keeps on coming. But I must face the reality that you are not in anymore, to breathe in a world without you by my side, without your laugh to make my rainy days better, without your smile that warms me up. That's the reality I have to face. 

If I hear news about you 
I hope I can cry by myself

Through this song, I'm conveying all of my emotions to you. I hope it reaches you, I hope you feel it. Slowly, I open my eyes. I saw a lot of people were moved by the song. I looked at you and I saw tears running on the Goddess-like face of yours. 

At the end I am selfish 
You're doing fine without me
That's what I wanted to hear
 
One drop, two drops and that when tears broke down on my eyes. Even though it hurts, even though I'm the one who broke up with you, it doesn't mean I'm not hurting. All I wanted is for your wellbeing to be okay. All I wanted to see is that smile of yours. The smile that makes me warm and giddy. How I've loved to see that smile of yours, even if it's not directed at me anymore. I looked away from your eyes cause if I don't I'll drown. I'll drown from your mesmerizing eyes again. Your eyes that sparkle brightly at me before that the stars would be ashamed of sparkling. Your eyes that used to hold my whole world now dim and dark. 

Meet a good person

I know he's gonna be a good husband to you. I know he can give you the world cause you deserve it. He can give you a family I cant give. He'll be the best husband you'll grow old with. I just hope he knows your favorites; How you love ironing clothes that it became your hobby, How you're so obsessed with fabric softener you don't need a perfume, How you don't like scary movies because of the jump scares. I hope he knows these little things. 

I'm sorry 
I can't go back to our beautiful day

I looked up and saw a lot of people with tears, too moved to speak. As the music ended I stood up. I smiled painfully at Joy whose looking at me worriedly. I looked at you one last time and saw him hugging you while trying to calm you down. I bowed one last time and went to the backstage straight to my dressing room. I hear some footsteps and I know it's Joy. I sat down at my chair and waited for Joy to talk. 

"Why break up with her when you're still clearly in love with each other?" 

I looked at her with the same painful expression I've been hiding to anyone, hoping no one would see it through the mask I'm wearing. The mask of pretending everything's fine. 

"She deserves the world Sooyoung-ah" 

I said softly.

"But at that moment, I realize the only thing I can give her... " 

"What do you mean unnie?"

"The only thing I can give her is my heart...
And that wouldn't be enough for the both of us" 

I broke down as soon as I said it. Joy sat next to me and hugged me tightly as I cry my aching heart hoping one day it will not hurt anymore.