February 11. It's the time of the year again where the most beautiful place in our campus is the campus grounds near the side of the statue of the founder of this University.

Our school is all ready for our Promenade. White and Gold is the motif color. there's a buffet at the side, the stage is so perfectly arrange and also the students, are beautifully dressed

Ladies are looking gorgeous with their cocktail dresses and high heeled shoes. while Men are looking handsome with their coats and tie

I look around the place with my eyes, and almost all students are on the dance floor already with their partners and making a slow dance movements with the song.

I'm in front of him. My hands are on his shoulders while his hands are on my waist. my heart was beating fast and I gulp many times but i still feel the nervousness

do you know the Perfect Moment? this is it. this is what i was waiting for all this time

He's been my bestfriend ever since first year high school and we're now on third year college, we're still together. seven years of friendship. we're like boyfriend-girlfriend in our long term friendship. and if we're friends for over seven years, then five years i'm friendzone to him.

is it hurt? sometimes. i don't really know what's my status to his life. i don't know if it's just really friends.

i really don't know. he's not even courting someone. he once told me, it's not in his vocabulary to be in love, and i just laughed at him. cause ugghh, if he's not into love, where can i place my feelings to him ? but it was many years ago. five years was long enough. i even reached the point where i can't handle to hide it to him. i'm scared to our friendship.

it's all or nothing. it's already heavy for me and i can't hide it anymore

i waited for the right moment to come to finally tell him. and i think this is it.

i deeply breathed and look at the man i'm dancing with.

"Yonghwa--"

"..Juhyun-"

we both said. he smiled at me

"you first"

"no, you frist" i said

"Ladies first"

"and when did you become a Gentleman?"

he laughed quietly

i heaved a sigh. my heart was still beating fast. i feel like i'm going to have a heart attack anytime. now i know why there's many guys who's scared to approach girls. cause it's not a joke to confess a feelings with someone especially if the guy was numb.

"Yonghwa, it's.."

it was cut when suddenly a rain drops continuously. i was taken aback that i had to separate with Yonghwa and i covered my head. i saw them running where there's a roof to be waited for the rain to stop.

"! it's raining. let's go!"

i was about to run at the shelter when Yonghwa suddenly grab me

" Wait. Juhyun!"

"Yonghwa, it's raining. we'll be soaked"

he smiled at me

"we're already wet. what's the use?"

he grab my hands and put it on his shoulders again

"Juhyun.."

"y-yes?"

he look at me straight to my eyes. if earlier he was smiling and laughing. now, i saw the sadness in his eyes

"hey, yonghwa, are you okay?'

he shook his head

" why?"

"Hyun. we're leaving"

i stopped and gulped.

"we'll be migrating in California. for good..."

i step forward and hugged Yonghwa. He hugged me back and we didn't stop dancing even the rain was falling heavy. i saw in front of me there's also some students on the dance floor, not wanting to ruin the night with the sudden rain

but for me, this is a blessing because they won't notice the tears falling from my eyes.

i gulped again

"Really? when?" i asked him while trying my best to not cracked my voice

he hugged me tight

"next week.."

"that fast?"

"i'm sorry. i've known it for half a year already. i just don't want to tell it because i don't want to tell you goodbye"

i stayed silent. i'm speechless. i just let him hugged me while dancing in the rain

i should be happy for him. i know that.

but i can't avoid to be sad

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i opened my eyes and woke up.

i look around and i'm here in my room. i heaved a sigh

of all the dreams, that moment i dreamed of. it's just funnny because it was so clear in my dreams. i feel like i traveled to that time, the past. february 11, where my bestfriend Yonghwa told me he's leaving.

the days where i really give up my feelings to him.

sometimes i was wandering, is it a wrong decision not to confess to him? i don't know. i was scared.

it can ruin our friendship in the last week of being together. but maybe he also have feelings for me. hmmmm

but either way, i still lost. he's  leaving out of the country. long distance relationship? i totally don't believe that.

my Dad even exchanged us to others while he's in Australia

i heaved a sigh and look at the picture in my side drawer. Our Picture, my picture with Yonghwa. we're both soaked. it was captured ater we dance in the middle of the rain during Promenade

and it was exactly 5 years today since it happened.

i look at the clock and i almost jumped when i saw it was 9;30am already

! I'm already late.

Yonghwa will be going home today and we have a deal to meet 10am at the cafe!

aiiisshhh! why did i even sleep late last night. in my excitement to see him, i can't even sleep.

i hurried getting my towel and run to the bathroom. but before i enter, the doorbell rang.

What the!!!

i walked and open the door

"Good Morning!" the man infront told me excitedly. "i knew it, yyou're not yet ready. you're always late to our deals. until now you're not changing"

i gawk at him

"Y-Yonghwa.."

he smiled widely

"Long time no see, Ju Hyun"

he pulled me and hugged me tight

i wanted to protest! i want to push him because i' just woke up and i'm not yet taking a bath. for sure, i smell so bad

but i just cried. the tears in my eyes can't stop falling while on the hug with yonghwa

i missed him so so much.

"You didn't saw me for 5 years, and you're making me eat here?!"

"aiisshh!" he answered me while smiling on the tteokboki he's eating "i missed