Are you happy?

With her instead of me?

Is she everything you’ve ever wanted?

Is she everything I couldn’t have been?

I hope you’re happy

I hope she is

I hope you love her

So, I won’t be going through

This pain for nothing

But you love her

Your smile telling me

So, it’s okay

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I watch from the side lines

Because that’s all I could do

Watch

As you laugh

With her

As you talk

With her

As you smile

With her

As you are happy

With her

As you

Love her

It is hurt

But, it’s okay

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“She’s so beautiful.”

Yes

She is

No matter how her hair styled

Dark brown eyes you could drown in

Fair flawless skin

She is beautiful

“Her voice is so sweet.”

Yes, it is as sweet as honey

“Her personality is wonderful.”

Yes

It is

She’s so nice and kind

Smart and funny

I wanted to hate her

For having the person I loved

But I couldn’t

I could only keep myself saying

It’s okay

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“She’s so talented.”

Yes

She is

Her acting skills are amazing

As well as her dancing and drawing

She was great with kids

And adults and peers alike

“She’s so perfect. She’s my angel.”

Yes

She is

She’s everything I wished I was

She’s everything I couldn’t be

She has you

“I love her.”

I love you

It’s not okay

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I watched for another day

As you laughed and played

Happiness radiating off of you

And her

I watched as you whispered sweet nothing into her ear

I watched as you walked by the street

Hand in hand

My heart is breaking

More and more

As each second ticked by

Do you hate me so much

To torture me like this?

I watched as you looked at her

Both of you were laughing

At a joke that was told

You didn’t notice

What was coming for you

It’s not okay

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I watched as you froze

From the incoming truck

I too was froze

You were spun

To the solid ground

People screaming

Cars stopping