SY's POV

I'm Choi Soo Young I met the most beautiful girl through internet we've been talking for awhile now and she confessed to me that she like me and I as a person that doesn't know what love is that time does not know what to respond but I enjoy talking to her in fact I am looking forward to talk to her after class till midnight I get so excited just talking to her but my old self didn't respond to what she said instead I changed the topic and after almost a month when she confessed to me I stalk her account and there she is in a relationship with another man and I don't know why my heart clench when I saw their pictures together and I didn't realize that my tears are already falling and I imediately texted her saying that I like her so much more than I realize and that I would get her back no matter what it takes. The next day she saw my text and responded that she likes me still and willing to break up with the guy to work things out between us I am genuinely happy that time and seriously I am the luckiest guy on earth.

ONE YEAR LATER

SY's POV

After a year of being together and surviving the LDR we text constantly but that's the time that we are starting to have a problem...I caught her talking to the other being all sweet and I guess you can tell that it's my first heart ache it hurts like my heart just shattered slowly but it's killing me surely I confronted her saying why she did that and she respond that she just wanted to feel that someone is near her I smiled bitterly and respond to her that I wanted you to be near to.me either but I wouldn't cheat on her because  I love her that much that I wouldn't dare to do anything to ruin what we have. She said sorry and that she wouldn't do it again and saying that she love me still. I forgive her because I trust her that she wouldn't do it and because I love her and I wouldn't give up easily and would bare the pain that I feel and set aside the doubt that she would do it again. At the middle of the year I ed up because I was torn to tell her the truth or do the white lies but instead I chose the white lies saying I would visit her and I ed up because I wamt her to be happy because I'm coming what a ty lie right? I said sorry she forgive me and we let it slide and I did everything to make it up to her and to gain her trust.

Another Year Later

SY's POV 

This is the most crucial year of our relationship this is the year where I caught her again and this time its another guy I confronted her and she said the same reason I let it slide because I made a mistake and she forgave me either so I forgave her and didnt gave up on her because I lover her still just how much I lover her on the very first day and a middle of the year I checked her another social media account that's where she and her other guy are flirting and I stalked the guy's(he is the same guy where she cheated on me for the 2nd time) account and there she is her selfie and them going out together I cursed to myself saying I thought she would not do this again and that's where my doubt risen asking myself that does she treasure what we have? Does she really love me? Why would she do this? I confronted her again and again and this time I let out what I feel saying that I understand her that she wants someone to be there for her physically and saying how sorry I am not to give it to her and that she is not just the one that want that. Does she really think I don't mind that we can only do video calls and chats does she really think that I don't want her physically LIKE DAMN I WANT EVERY INCH OF HER does she really think that this is easy for me? It's been weeks since we argued to that I let it slide because I don't want to give her up but somehow I am starting to think that I should just give up.due to.multiple.times of cheating and an on and off relationship. As we are almost there to our 3 years she broke up with me saying she doesn't know herself anymore and that she wants to find herself I agreed because I don't want to soffucate her but she still wants us to communicate still because she love me still so I agree either because I love her and I want to help her we stayed unlabel but loves each other and that's what I thought...

Another Year Later

I am constantly communicating to her even though she barely reply to me and saying that she's busy with school because we are on our senior year in hs already... but as day gets by she is starting to get cold to me I am putting a lot of effort to understand her and her behavior until she confessed that she's talking to the other guy and they kissed and that's her first kiss amd after that I was devastated I bit my hands I punched the wall just to let out my anger and that's the time I knew that I have to give up now I cut off our communication saying goodbye for good for the both of us since it's getting toxic. I chatted her bestfriend saying to take care of her and watch her carefully and her bestfriend responded that she's been talking to other guys when me and her broke up. I chuckled my tears just keep falling while typing my respond after I ended everything between us I don't know what's wrong with me but I love her still I love herway more than I hate her like I'm just willing to forget it that it happened but her respond made me just ignore my thoughts that even if I ask her to stop talking to the guy but she wouldn't do that I just smiled becaise despite of everything I love her still so much and after a year I ended everything between us she's in a relationship now I texted her saying that I forgive her despite of everything and saying sorry for what I have done...

                                             You will always hold a                                                       special place in my                                                            heart...Jessica Jung                                                        goodbye now my love