*LISA'S POV*

"Good afternoon, Miss Manoban. Take a seat please." The woman in front of me said at sumunod naman ako. I crossed my legs and made myself comfortable.

"How would you describe your mood today?" tanong niya naman sa akin. "I'm feeling okay, good. Neutral, to be  honest." sagot ko.

"Any recent developments since our last session?" she asked again. "Nothing much, still the same." I simply  replied.

"How are you sleeping these days, Lisa?" she followed up. "Same ed up sleeping pattern since law school." sabi ko naman and I covered my  mouth immediately after realizing I cursed outloud, napatawa naman ang therapist ko. "1a.m.-4a.m. pa din naman, depends on the workload saka sa mood, doc." 

"You going out with friends or family lately?" she asked again. "Not really, no?" sabi ko naman and she nodded. "Can you tell me why?"

"Things in the office has been really stressful lately and I-- I think it's okay to limit my interactions since... you know..?" sabi ko trying so hard to explain pero I can't seem to find the right words.

"How about Seulgi? Irene? Your other friends? You're saying in the past 6 months, you haven't.. interacted with them at all?" tanong niya ulit. "Of course doc I interact with them, they're my officemates."

"Outside the office though, Lisa.." sabi niya as she smiled. "No.. I'm still avoiding the "hanging out" part, doc. Alam mo naman hehe." sabi ko sabay kamot ng ulo.

"Why, Lisa?" she propped. "Because then they'd ask me about what happened.. And I'm not really one to hold my tears." reply ko naman with all honesty. "Why couldn't you?" she asked ulit. "Why I couldn't cry?" I reiterated the question and she  nodded.

"Because I don't want them to feel sorry for me."

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"Lisa, inom daw maya. Sama ka?" narinig kong tanong ni Seul. "I need to finish some papers tonight Seul. Baka next time." sagot ko naman agad.  "Wait lang, Lisa." sabi niya as she got a hold of my arm. 

"Ano yun, Seul?" tanong ko sakanya. "When will we ever talk about---" sabi niya as she stopped tas sabay kamot ulo na parang di niya alam kung itutuloy ba niya sasabihin niya. "You can say her name,  Seul." sagot ko. "Eh, tara na kasi. Miss ka na namin. 6 months na Lisa, di ka pa namin nakakasama ever since, wala akong ka switch ihatid sina Byul at Wheein pag lasing na sila." sabi pa niya sabay tawa. "Sige. Ano oras ba?" tanong ko at niyakap naman ako ni Seul nung malaman niya na sasama ako.

Umuwi muna ako to change into something more comfortable and then I drove to this bar called CL's kung saan madalas tumatambay ang barkada these days, hindi nga lang ako sumasama. I needed some time to clear up my mind and I've been seeing a therapist so there's that. I just figured na it's time to go out again, my friends have always been there for me and I kinda pushed them away somehow simula nung maghiwaly kami ni Jennie. 

I reached the bar and I texted Seulgi telling her that I just arrived. Sinalubong naman niya ako together with irene sa entrance. "Lisa! Sa wakas dumating ka na din! Kala ko mangdiditch ka nanaman!" sigaw niya sabay yakap nanaman sakin.  irene followed at hinug niya rin ako at sabi niya na namiss niya din daw ako. I followed them inside the bar at dinala ako sa table kung saan nakaupo yung iba pa naming  mga kaibigan, sina Wheein, Byul, Jennie, Jisoo, Bam and Rosé. Yes, si Rosé. Nakakatawa nalang din na after all this time, parang bumalik lang kami ng college sa mga nangyayari. My barkada seems to like Rosé's company anyway, so ayun. 

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