The What Now

I am not Jihyo or maybe I am

In Jihyo's Deep Slumber


Jihyo opened her eyes and to her shock she is in like a blue velvet practice room with amenities and furnitures on both sides and when she look through the windows its all just fog but the most notable of all a theater stage in the center with all the lights, camera and sets attached to it and a single figure dancing on the stage just twirling like nothing matters.


"So you have arrived didn't expect it to be this soon but from what I've gathered 4 or 5 earth days it took you quite a while" the figure said cheerily on the stage dressed like a blue doll in an old english dress wearing her hair in braids and a blue top hat that accentuates her whole get up, but to her shock the figure share the same similarities as her but the only differece is the notable golden eyes


"Who are you?..no..no what are you? why do you look like me? is this another dream again?" Jihyo said in shock while trying to distinguish between fantasy and reality 


"I am you, more likely I am your shadow, why do you look like me.. well who do you want me to look like? a random girl or something of course I have to look like you that is the point, my advice stop being such a worrywort. Well if I like to be honest we have to wait for something maybe its someone... or not but something is churning inside me like its telling me this is going to be exciting" gold eyed Jihyo happily said while dancing excitedly


"huh what no..no..no what the heck is really happening first I was in a car then the hospital then somthing fell of the ceiling was it me or you i'm really confused or I'm just getting crazy why does this feel like a sick and twisted dream... no..no.." Jihyo kept muttering to herself like a broken record


"Stop muttering the word 'No' it feels like a song" gold eyed jihyo annoyingly said then smiled after she stopped dancing then jumped down the stage which shock the latter "oohh are you writing one but I have an idea how about Yes or Yes...hhmmm yes..yes.. thats it now that is sick and twisted, you follow me?" gold eyed Jihyo said excitedly while smiling creepily to herself "can you imagine that you can't bail out nor escape or say the word 'No', you Idols are very very naughty or the term should be bad.. nah what the heck am I saying its very contradicting like yes or no" gold eyed Jihyo now starts muttering to herself


"This just can't make sense, there has to be a reason here or a logical explanation, things just dont happen because they just happen and what the heck are you saying your creeping me out the same to what you are doing I just wish things return back to normal" Jihyo wished for something and seeking for a bit of normalcy


"Oh don't be a sad little girl 'pretty me' if your that down or weird out why don't you dance with me on this stage I will let you pick a song any genre you want but I prefer cute or y" gold eyed Jihyo seductively said while her lips


Jihyo stepped back very uncomfortable with the figure in front of her but was stopped when another figure came out of the door.


"Now..now stop playing with the guest Eternal...hhmm this new and interesting" the figure walk towards them with gleam and fascination to her eyes while looking at the surroundings


"Destiny!!!" the gold eyed Jihyo cheerfully said and this 'Destiny' figured just frowned at what she was called "wait your frowning it means I'm incorrect.. nah why bother to a silly name why dont you dance with me and lets give this 'pretty me' a show of a lifetime I promise I'll be gentle but if you prefer it rough I would not mind" the so called Eternal flirtatiously joking to Fate


"Even if its not my real name its Fate you if you have a bit of decency or memory loss that is not my problem and stop acting like you own the place you brat" Jihyo still winced at being called even if she is not the one being called at maybe the reason could be is that this Eternal figure looks like her, but one thing Jihyo kepts telling herself she believes she is in a one weird dream. This Fate figure turned and look at her and Jihyo noticed her features pale skinned blonde hair in a form of a top knot wearing an all blue longsleeves and long pants which has a velvet texture to it.


"Wow it seems like the dress code is blue are we waiting for others dress up in blue too? we should call this the Bleu Par Tee... now was that french or italian now that I think about it I don't know anything about european mumbo jumbo, do say 'pretty me' what do you think? Eternal asked as she moved behind Jihyo while twirling and skipping then suddenly hug Jihyo in the back her arms sling on her shoulders, face near her neck and Jihyo tensed and paled at this gesture "mhhmm not to be a or something but your warm and smells good how about a taste... eek...ahh" suddendly Eternal was pulled by the sideburns of her hair by Fate and Jihyo calms herself afer the ordeal 


"We are sorry for these mishaps and we assure you we are doing the best we can with this creature, but for us this is also a first to us among our expenditures and exploits" Fate said in a matter of factly "oh right where are my manners just like your little shadow here called me, the name Fate is not really my name more like a made up name to cover my identity but my masters, fellow colleagues and siblings call me Moxy" she said while still holding Eternal by the sideburns of her hair


"oohhh name, Moxy sounds like a stri... no more..no more...I'll be a good girl" Eternal said while rubbing both of her hands in a praying manner from her impending punishment
"Wow this is a really weird dream" Jihyo said exasperatedly 


"This is not a dream if you are still confuse we are your consciousness more like a part of yourself this is not made up this real, I understand if you still cannot accept it but in time you will understand" Moxy solemnly said


'I was in a car accident this could be heaven or impossibly hell or this could be a purgatory am I being judged? no what if this place is called the other side of the world? no impossible it couldn't be I should stop reading nonsense on the internet..' Jihyo is trying to understand things but still cannot comprehend due to all the recent events she have experience after the accident


"I understand, I will also be untrustworthy or non compliant of the incidents that has come to shock you but do not be discourage your little shadow here will do your bidding in your destined future" Moxy explained and released Eternal who is rubbing the hurting part of her skin


"My Shadow? that is my shadow isn't or aren't they you know? why does it look like me? why does it act like that?" Jihyo questions at the strange being


"Yes your shadow as in your inner self your deep conscience of true feelings and if you are wondering why it has a shape because it is a part of you, a part of your persona" Moxy said


"My inner self, it can't be I'm not that bogous or indecent, I'm particularly compose and I know myself very well" Jihyo denies in what she particularly heard, she cannot believe that she herself will act that way even if her family, friends and Twice members make her drunk or accidentaly drug her.


"tsk tsk tsk.. stop lyin' an' deniyin' you bad bad dirty gir...urkk" Eternal felt a shiver and tensed when Moxy release her silver magnum gun in her side and putting a bullet inside


"This is my Magnum Oppus here, execute shadows and gives you persona" Moxy smiled sheepishly and aim it at Eternal


Jihyo is not sure what is going on anymore first the accident now this, she feels like the world has turned sideways and thrown at her if she thinks about this its too absurd and complicated to understand.


"Do not worry, I also can see and sense the real you and will honestly tell you that this creature here is far from you because this little shadow here is enhanced." Moxy said
"Enhanced?" Jihyo asked


"Yes this is the first ever a shadow to have a soul to be created as your persona, you must be probably wondering why does my shadow act this way because your shadow is the first shadow to be merged with a conscious shadow" Moxy explained Jihyo is still confused when suddenly Eternal was pulled by metal clamps on her wrist and joints then pulled and stick to a giant shooting board with a neon sign of Here Lies Shadow above it and this struck horror and terrified Jihyo


"If you said is true you already killed me once now your going to just kill me again, this is messed up on many levels, wait did you just kill me to become her Persona? why take my life away like this? If you ask me this feels like a big plot twist in my life? I'm scared but excited this is truly truly fascinating" Eternal said grinning happily and tears started falling out of her eyes


Moxy sighed "First of all you were never alive to begin with" this shocked Jihyo and the gold eyed one smirks "even if you were alive you could be the first dead animal or man for all we know. Now even if you are human you don't really come from humans you are more likely just a lost culmination of negative emotions and feelings or as we prefer shadow mindlessly roaming this world and lastly you will be granted a judgement. Oh and I forgot to tell you shadow, every single thing was all a good set up the tv, electricity, rain, house, work, time, trucks, passerby, hospital, nurses, doctor, angels, the old lady even the weaver is just a prop lets just put the word souvenir on top of it so you won't feel so much bad about it.. Oh yeah the last one the news is real.." Moxy smirk at the end while the gold eyed Jihyo smiles to herself tears still fall down


"Wait so your saying my inner self or my persona itself will have its own living entity, that is like saying I have two souls, how can that be possible?" Jihyo gasped at this extraordinary revelation


"Lets just say we gave your Persona more freedom and flexibility from other Persona users" Moxy said clocking her reloaded magnum "So shadow any last words"


"PUNISH ME!!! PEG ME DOWN TO THE BOTTOM!!! MAKE ME DIE PRETTY!!!" gold eyed Jihyo expressed while happily crying


Moxy smirk and goes to corner where a crate lies, she opens it and gathers a rotating minigun and to both concerns and disarray Jihyo is in utter shock, disgust, horror and disbelief while the golden eyed Jihyo cries while laughing crazily "How dare you order me around you sadistic masochist shadow" she grins then pulled the trigger and fires at will, Jihyo covers her ears not used to heavy machine gun sounds while in the corner of her eyesight Moxy who appears to be enjoying ripping the creature to shredds until the shadow and the board are into broken pieces, Jihyo seeing herself being subjugated like that sends a distortion in her stomach, eyes trembling and knees weakening.


The pieces assemble and a shining light appear in form of tranparent figure until it materializes and forms a spitting image of young girl more fairer and hair longer than herself but the most prominent feature would be the odd mask covering her face half in white and black and the markings on it the face of half good and evil, dress in cream colored satin robe. Jihyo is wide eyed and aghast at this revelation


"This is your persona, this one is cal...."!!!GOD JIHYO!!!" the mask figured announced to Jihyo, Moxy was suddenly interrupted and appalled by the persona to talk back against her
"What the heck are you saying, you just don't say that out of the blue, don't tell me you are still that creature from earlier" Jihyo is annoyed for being called by such creature but she is also getting scared 


'Interesting it seems the persona is a combination of a shadow and persona itself it has a strong sense of ego, I will not name it for now for this creature could make its own name, I'll just let course take its action, for the moment the other initiations and card of fate are not called upon, Igor will be amused of these findings' Moxy thought while smiling to herself


"Well this Persona will be with you throughout your journey, you will encounter many shadows and persona alike in this path , you may stumbled upon questions and find answers along the way you take" Moxy said to Jihyo about how her journey will change however she take it


"What do you mean journey? I just want to make money, cheer our fans and perform on stage as an idol, I'm not even sure I want to take this so called path you are reffering to" Jihyo said in denial she just can't accept this, she knows being an idol is already a hard work, she believes she doesn't have the capacity nor to be responsible for it.


"It is alright you are not the first of many" Moxy complied which makes Jihyo more confused
"It is time for you to return, remember these words ' I am thou; thou I am 'Persona'..." Moxy said and Jihyo's head starts ringing the words which makes the girl hold herself then suddenly she sees white then everythings fade to darkness


“Ughhh...” I jolted while I look around my surroundings ‘aisshh why do I always wake up like I have been hit by a truck, I mumbled to myself annoyingly


“Jihyo!!” Nayeon and Jeongyeon yelped while Jihyo is startled


“Girls what happened?” Jihyo jolted and gasped the latter while surveying the surrounding


“Calm down Jihyo from the looks of it your fine and alright, we’re so happy you are safe the others have visited you already we just happen to be the ones you woke up to” Nayeon cheered


"We were worried about you we thought its gonna be a while for you to wake up after that satellite crash in your ceiling, we thought we lost you, we were wondering what should we do with without you, thank God the others will be delighted to see your alright" Jeongyeon said while getting teared up


"Stop saying such cheesy things you Ostritch" Nayeon playfully slapped Jeongyeon's shoulder
"Yah.. its not like cheesy at all you just lack empathy this is why the reason you never grow up" Jeongyeon fired back 


"So your saying I act like a child, why thank you Jeongyeon for being such a good adult" Nayoeon sarcastically said


"Nope more like a body of an ahjumma (old lady) and a brain of a toddler" Jeongyeon fired back


"At least my brain is bigger than yours bird-brain" Nayeon bantered


"Ughhh guys can you both shut up and stop flirting with one another for a second" Jihyo said irritatedly to the two


"We are not flirting!!!" Nayeon and Jeongyeon both said Jihyo rolled her eyes at the two
"Jihyo your real self is back is this truly you, do you remember us now after yesterday?" Jeongyeon said expectantly


"What do you mean remember I know you guys did I hit myself in the head then suddenly I forgot all of you?" Jihyo is worried and confused did something happen to her body while she is gone now that she think of it she widens her eyes when she remember something the so called shadow or gold eyed Jihyo said acting like an amnesiac girl.


"Did I do something yesterday?" Jihyo asked trying to analyzed the events and situation in her head after this so called shadow of her acting in her part ' it cant be a dream if the reality is in front of her what the heck is really happening' Jihyo is getting frustrated trying to understand the situation

What? dont tell me you dont remember the event yesterday are you like having double amnesia? Now your acting like you have a double personality" Nayeon asked worryly


"I believe the term is called dual personality but besides that I'm starting to worry about your condition too Jihyo no internal or external injuries, bruises not even a permanent scar from scratches I'm beyond happy that your well but this is so surreal" Jeongyeon informed


'Surreal indeed this is just not weird but eerily weird from what she remembers the car accident was pretty brutal she can still remember the searing pain from her left side of her body after protecting Tzuyu who is beside her and after the enormous pain she fainted, the moment she remembers that can't get out of her head was that there is no satellite just face to face with this another look alike in a hospital gown and Jihyo touches her head and she is sent to that weird dream sequence of her, now she wakes up and the only thing that aches in part of her body is her head why does she feel fine in her other parts of her body, she is very thankful for the miracle that she is in good condition but judging from the events she should not be just covered in bandages, she open and close her fist, rotate her wrist, stretch her arms and legs twist her ankles and curl her toes  but no there is no pain in her left side or even numbness in her right side ' Jihyo is trying to piece everything but having a hard time processing the events that led her


"You are right even for me its hard to comprehend and a satellite really?" Jihyo questions the most odd of all why would a satellite crash specifically for her


"We never really understand it too it feels like your life is like Final Destination Hardcorex10" Nayeon referenced the movie while adding some reasoning to it


"Really Nayeon a movie but something is bugging both us and Nayeon and we still never told this to the others but we wanted to tell you first that we overheard our manager Pinky having a converstion with men in full suits, a doctor and pastor but most odd of all they also have an exorcist in their little group" Jeongyeon said


"Really Jeongyeon an exorcist how can you be that sure the guy is an exorcist?" Nayeon is unsured of Jeongyeon's belief


"Because they do not wear such costumes like the monks the guy is in suits and the lack of cross hard to distinguish if he serves the faith but I was able to recognize the amount of accesories and charms this guy wears this persons aura does not say he is a shaman but he was seeking something besides I have seen their types in my old neighborhood in the province shamans and monks don't hardly dress like that" Jeongyeon said


"Wow Jeongyeon I didn't know your into that it seems not like you" Nayeon said suprisingly


"Hehe.. their not my cup of tea but they are intriguing and interesting" Jeongyeon smile a bit


"Yes Indeed but we also need to address the accident I mean before this we know you also get sick or get bruises when practicing heck you even had a knee surgery but a deadly car crash the van is crushed on your side and trust me we are all thankful that you are alright and but..." Nayeon also can't belive what the events has transpire into was it luck was it a miracle for they should know that is not how miracles work which means you are alive but deeply wounded not like after the accident. More likely the deadly accident has done nothing but hurt your toe or a kitten bit you..


While the two of her friends trying to comprehend, Jihyo was trying to remember the events that happen to her so called dream when she heard these words 'I am thou; thou I am' and her head starts ringing


"Per-so-na" Jihyo silently mumbled to herself


Then everything stops from the noise to even her friends that are like statues stuck on a limbo the motions linger that feels like there is no air then a new environment surges through Jihyo she feels like in a new world


"Wha...what this impossible no it can't be a.... dream I hope its not a delusion or am I getting crazy" Jihyo shakes while holding her head


"GOD!!! JIHYO!!!" Jihyo is released from her stupor, mouth agasped and wide eyed upon seeing the mask girl in cream robes then the figure slides its mask at the top of her head making it a hat seeing the face with gleaming golden eyes and cheshire smile


"Did you miss me 'Pretty Me'?" the she demon herself said
 

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