was i not good enough?

“lets break up.” yujin suddenly couldn’t breathe.

“what do you mean? what’s wrong?” the taller girl said, desperately reaching for minju’s hands and trying to meet her eyes. minju refused to look back.

“i’m sorry yujin.” minju slipped her hands out of yujin’s and placed one last delicate kiss onto her forehead. yujin closed her eyes, drinking in the moment before minju left.

that you just get tired and run out of love

yujin couldn’t sleep that night. her tears have ran dry but the after effects were still present. her head hurt but her heart hurt worse. she buried her head deep into her pillow and inhaled, minju's scent still lingering from the countless nights she slept over. reflecting, yujin ran through everything she could have done wrong to cause this but nothing came up. maybe minju was just tired...maybe she just didn’t love her anymore

and what did you expect?
when you treat me like that and move onto the next

she thought back to their first date, and how minju treated her like a princess. she held yujin like she would break her. the times they spent and laughed together now ingrained deep into her memory. yujin's friends tried to keep it a secret but she was bound to find out eventually. minju had a new girlfriend. 

was i not?
“was i not good enough?” yujin couldn’t help herself but to think this way.

and now your hands
are holding hers

a month after their breakup was the first time she saw them together. she was getting lunch with eunbi when she noticed a familiar face. time slowed down as she watched minju reach across and hold the other girl’s hand. it’s chaewon. they have literature together. her eyes moved from their hands to minju’s face, a smile graced upon it and the room was just a little bit brighter. just as beautiful as yujin remembered. her heart twisted and she excused herself and left to go to the bathroom.

is love still worth it
safe inside, yujin placed her hand over her heart. thump thump. yujin scoffed. of course she’s still in love with minju.

 

even when it hurts

she felt tears prick at her eyes. turning the faucet on, she cupped her hands under the water and splashed her face a few times. her hand reached for the place where her heart is. she feels it beating but why does it hurt so much.

and i thought you were different

“i won’t hurt you, yujin”

but you're just the same

“i’m sorry yujin”

 

still hanging her head over the faucet, the bathroom door opened.

“hi yujin” she didn’t need to raise her head to see who it was. she instantly recognized the voice.

and my heart still breaks when i hear your name

“hi minju”

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hhhhhhhhh writing this opened some old wounds,,first heartbreak is the worst tbh and idk if you've ever experienced dating someone, they suddenly break up, and then begin dating someone else hurts

 

enough being sad tho,,happy valentines day!! instead of spending it being sad if you’re single, spend it with those who love you/ with those you love like family, friends, pets, hell even iz*one!! valentine's day is a happy day <3

 

twt @lovehiichan

curiouscat @chaetomi