"He was like the sunrise in the start of another daily routine were I grew out to tardiness in doing so, and yet I kept looking forward to the sunset because I know at the end of the day, he's with me until the moment I open my eyes. Since then, I knew I love him... forever and always..."

 

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Baekhyun was seating by the table at a small restaurant near their apartment. He's been there for more than two hours now and it's getting late. He takes a deep breathe out, "He's supposed to be here. Where is he?"

 

He looks at his phone for a message but nothing shows up.

 

"He should've called me by now. What is he doing?"

 

Baekhyun decided to change what was running in his mind, thinking about this and that.

 

Just wait for a little bit, Baekhyun. He will be here.

 

But then, another hour passed by, there's no one in the driveway of the food place. No one said they have seen him. Even a single message was not appearing in his phone. It's bothering him. He dials Chanyeol's number but only to be directed to his voicemail.

 

Why does it feels like there's something wrong?

 

He looks back out the window to see if he would see his giant's figure. But there was none. Suddenly his phone rings. He picks it up not caring who the caller was.

 

"Something happened..." He could hear the background noises. That's the sound of an ambulance. Baekhyun eyes widens in pure shock. "You should come here... right now..."

 

Baekhyun suddenly froze; his mind is going crazy with so many things. He goes back to that day when he's giant asked him to marry him. When he bends down on his knees first... then he says..

 

I want you forever.

Through the good and the bad and the ugly.

We'll grow old together.

Forever and always.

 

Baekhyun quickly gets out of the restaurant and hails a cab. He says to the driver to go to this hospital showing his phone, as fast as he can. His mind is going crazy. Why is this happening? Baekhyun doesn't know what to do anymore. He pays the driver not even wanting to get his change.

 

, he doesn't care about that anymore. His mind is just full of lovely memories with his love, his giant. How could he be that childish again? He got out and walks straight to the front desk.

 

"Is there a patient here named Park Chanyeol?" He somehow had the strength to ask the nurse, which told him the room.

 

It feels like a maze for Baekhyun. A never-ending one, on how he's being lead to the room. Every door he's seeing feels like multiplying to him. He feels like his giant is getting further and further away from him. His breathe is getting deeper, causing him to breathe harder. This is definitely making things harder for him.

 

The nurse talks about what happened to Chanyeol but Baekhyun could barely hear anything she says. He's trying to keep a straight face. He's trying to be strong. For him. For the both of them. And when he opens the door and walks inside the room, he sees him. His giant.

 

All weak and in pain but the giant is still smiling, trying to show his love that everything is fine. Baekhyun sits by the bedside. Holding Chanyeol's hand too tight.

 

"Hey."

 

Chanyeol only smiles at Baekhyun so sweet. He's body is so weak and Baekhyun could feel his pain through that smile.

 

"I thought you said we'll have our own kids... And oh, right, the house on the hillside, you said we would stay there forever... Through the good and the bad and the ugly...” He lifts his hand together with Chanyeol's as he tries to fight the urge to cry.

 

"You said, we'll grow old there together... remember when you said, whether rich or for poor or for better. We'll still love each other, right? Forever and always..." Baekhyun pauses for a moment.

 

This is not supposed to happen.

Why is this happening?

 

He starting to let out sobs and the beeping noise coming from the monitor connected to Chanyeol is not helping him. It's more like telling him that his love doesn't have any time left.

 

"You said we will build it together. What happened to that?" Baekhyun smiles even though deep inside, this is killing him.

 

Then he gets an idea. He got out of the room and looks for a nurse. He said to look for a pastor to say some verse. Then, he borrows some rings from the couple next door.

 

Everybody is laughing.

 

Baekhyun is being run by his childish actions again. But he knows, he knows what he really wants at that moment. And that is to marry the man he loves. The man who made him happy despite all the hardship that is happening in their lives.

 

The man who protects him, who loves him with all of he have. And that is Chanyeol.

 

He returns inside the room and looks at Chanyeol again. He can't take this anymore. Everyone was asking him what's going on and why is the pastor here, inside the room. He just smiles as the tears falls on the floor.

 

Baekhyun once again, sits beside the giant. He looks into Chanyeol's eyes as he says, "I want you, forever. Forever and always. Through the good and the bad and the ugly. We'll grow old together. And always remember, whether happy or sad or whatever. We'll still love each other. Forever and always."

 

He keeps on crying. Everything feels to blurry for him. His eyes are flooding with tears. This is too much. Why now? Baekhyun finishes his vows. Hoping that things would be okay now. He looks at Chanyeol again.

 

Don't smile like that. Please, don't leave me yet.

 

But the beeps are getting too. His voice is almost too low. Baekhyun became frantic. He doesn't know what to do anymore.

 

This is not happening. You can't leave me yet, Yeol.

 

His tears are nowhere to be stop now.

 

Chanyeol reaches out to his cheeks. His hand is trembling, but he chose to wipe the tears that keep falling from his love. As weak as his body was, Chanyeol force his voices out.

 

"Y-you know that... I l-love you, r-right?"

 

Baekhyun only nobs his head in agreement as tears continues to flow.

 

"I-I'm sorry." He gently smiles to Baekhyun. While the latter tries to stay calm and continues to hold Chanyeol's hand.

 

"Don't say that. Please. We still have so much things to do. You just have to fight. For us?"

 

Chanyeol only had the strength to let out a simple chuckle. He's caressing Baekhyun's face. His love. His one and only.

 

"I love you, Baekhyun. Please, just remember. Even if I'm not there, I will always love you, forever and always."

 

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It's been a week since Chanyeol had passed away and everything in Baekhyun still aches. He still stays at the same apartment where they started to plan their future together. The same living room, the same surrounding and still he could not do it.

 

There's the bed on the center where they used to cuddle and make love but now, it seems like it became a place he wants to replace. He couldn't do it anymore. He can't be happy anymore knowing that Chanyeol is not there by his side.

 

He gets up from the couch with a lazy stretch but still, his energy drains down with the water on the sewer line. It hurts. All seems so too early that Baekhyun could not see his life without his giant, his lover, his best friend. He closes his eyes once more as tears starts to form around his eyes. Chanyeol....

 

There, he sees a man as tall as his love. Tears starts to fall down from his pale face. He reaches out and Chanyeol is there. Smiling like nothing happened, as if he is still beside Baekhyun and that made the small more emotional.

 

The giant offers his hand and Baekhyun immediately took the invitation and held that hand tightly, feeling the warmth from the man he could not live without.

 

"May I have a dance with my beautiful husband?" Tears rushes down on his cheeks and Baekhyun gladly took the invitation and one by one, their body synchronised in a slow waltz.

 

"I miss you, Chanyeol... I miss you... I love you... I really do. I still love you... I... love... you..." Baekhyun repeated these words as he embraces Chanyeol tightly.

He doesn't want to open his eyes anymore. He doesn't want to wake up knowing Chanyeol would be gone from his arms.

 

Still, Chanyeol gently ruffles his hair and that made Baekhyun looks up and sees him eye to eye. "I know... I know you really love me, Baek. I'm sorry for leaving you too early." His hand travels down to his pale cheeks as he wipes those sad tears...

 

"I'm sorry for breaking all my promises..." With another sad smile, Baekhyun reaches for Chanyeol's face and plants a sweet kiss on those lips he wishes he could kiss every single day. "It's not your fault, Yeol... It never was..."

 

And when Baekhyun opens his eyes once again, the cold and dark room welcomes him. There's no more light in his life, no more happiness, no more love radiating from this house. He needs to forget but by doing that, he needs to start now.

 

He gets up from the couch as he wipes those sad tears away. He took an empty box and one by one, he picks up the things that remind him of Chanyeol.

 

He picks up the last shirt the giant wore before the accident happened and flashes of images came straight back to his mind.

 

He woke up too early knowing that Chanyeol always wakes up first. Their bodies entangled with each other sharing the same bed, the same blanket and the same warmth. He raises his head up only to see Chanyeol's face clearly. A smile creeps from his lips and an idea comes.

He reaches up and connects their lips as sweet as a cotton candy only to squeezes himself down on Chanyeol's arm because of embarrassment. It made the giant half awake and let out a tender laugh.

"You're stealing now, huh?" There's the tone from his voice with amusement and it made Baekhyun more embarrassed and hid it between the man's arms.

"You're so adorable, Baek." Chanyeol planted a small kiss on the top of Baekhyun's head and squeezed him more within his arms.

"Let's get married." Mindlessly, Baekhyun answered a quick yes not realising what words were those. After a few seconds, he sat up straight and the bed became a mess.

With heart racing faster now, Baekhyun wanted to be sure, of what he heard. On that note, Chanyeol followed him and sat up straight. His hand reached for Baekhyun's hand and made a small kiss on his wedding finger.

"Let me spend the rest of my life with you by my side. I want to share every sunrise and sunset with you beside me. I want you forever. Forever and always. Through the good and the bad and the ugly. We'll grow old together. Will you take that leap and stay by my side forever and always?"

As the last words were dictated, Baekhyun could not contain his emotions anymore and tears fell down as he said a proud yes. "You don't have to ask. I already want to see the sunrise and sunset with you."

 

Yet, after remembering that day, his tears are starting to fall once again. They were too young, acting like they were 26 after deciding to be married to each other.

 

For almost 1 year of being together up until this day, maybe that immature thinking made them more mature. It has been 6 years since that proposal and yet, everything seems too vibrant and clear like it only happened yesterday. Now, he regrets coming back home.

 

All the things inside their apartment remind him of Chanyeol. He couldn't bare the agony of losing someone as precious as Chanyeol was. Baekhyun could not move an inch and he just drowned on his own tears.

 

He did not regret loving him too early. He did not regret living together with him. He did not regret waking up within his warm arms. He did not regret being so close that it almost broke him now. Baekhyun could not regret Chanyeol.

 

The rest will be painful but Baekhyun doesn't mind. In time, he will be okay. He will be over the pain and Chanyeol will be in his heart forevermore. He knew he will never forget how Chanyeol loved him, how he treasured their time together and how he see the future with Baekhyun by his side.

 

And if one day, the sunrise and sunset will be less painful, he could pick himself up because he had completely accepted that he had healed the pain of losing someone. Baekhyun would be ready to face the sunrise and sunset with a smile on his face.

 

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I'M SORRY FOR MAKING A SAD FIC. I LOVE YOU GUYS...