If you look up right now, you might see me, you might not.

I float freely now in the skies, and I have never felt as free as I am.

I have always mentioned how I wished to be turned into a cloud after I die, and you would joke that it was impossible as you are secular and an Atheist.

"Be careful of being charged with blasphemy." I would laugh and retaliate. But here I am now.

Don't worry, the skies are endless and it's never boring. There aren't games and Starcraft here so you might not like it here.

But. Without you, it's empty.

I watch as you go on with your everyday life. You live like a zombie and it pains me, although I shouldn't have any feelings left. You deserted your favourite computer and lived your life in your room.

You wouldn't budge even when Ahra and Ryeowook tried to pull you out of bed. I smile sadly seeing how you are surrounded by many turtle plushies, and you're hugging the one that i gifted you on our first anniversary, in which I named it Ddangkkoma.

However, the turtle did not served its purpose this time.

The green reptile plushie had a constant smile on its face, and I gave it to you so that I can see your smile eternally.

But it's just wishful thinking that I could see that smile again on your face.

It was only after a month that you decided to step foot off your bed and home.

You walked down the streets like a lifeless human, as if you are the only one that matters.

If you would only raise and tip your head a little upwards, you would see a little white fluffy cloud following your every step. You would see my frown if you look really really closely.

You entered the tiny cosy cafe called Mouse Rabbit near my house, and sat down at the back, near the window, where I can see you clearly. I thank myself for insisting in always choosing the seats near the window when we come on dates.

You would always lament and asked why, since there wasn't any privacy.

"I love to watch the clouds."

I would always answer and you called me silly with an equally silly smil