Jennie was beyond joyous. The smile that painted her small face, gums were usually showed when she reveal her twinkle in her eyes and her lips that curls up widely. She was so glad that all her efforts, all her hard work, all the burdens the agency gave her, all mistakes, all sleepless nights, and tiring nights she experience became worth it.

 

"Again! Can you do any little better? And please stop tripping down yourself!" The strict trainor said, with authorative in her tone, restraining the tears that wanted to escape her eyes by that time, she let the sweats to run down her face, and with deep hurtful breath that leaves , she continued. Because no matter how many times you stumble, you should always rise up, that's what Jennie would says in her head repeatedly, like a song in unending loop

 

"Urgh! Give me more power!" Jennie look at the mirror as she saw her reflection, her taughts was waging war, being wreckless again, different taunting words were screaming in her mind, dugging a deep whole once again in her little angel lying beneath

 

"Stop messing around! Don't be lazy!" She smile at her mistake, somehow it's far from the usual where her eyes would lit up in delight, it's far away from it, a fake smile. She just continue her job and think of blinks, members and her family, the night took over the day but the invisible scars remain in her skin "is something wrong unnie?" Chaeyoung approached her, the two of them was left inside the dorm, Jisoo was busy MCing, Lisa is on trip since the maknae had been wishing to travel again, after the non stop scolding from her training to debut as solo. She knows stepping into this journey would be more burdensome, more dedication needed, more strength, more and more until you don't have anything left for yourself, feeling all exhausted. That's what she would tell herself, give your best, because if you don't, you will end up being scolded, in other words, you failed. What's more harder about being popular is you'll be pressed everywhere, no mistake should made as it may lead to million of people, discriminating as if you are the most inhuman being to be born, you need to learn how to handle criticization from others, you need to endure the tug that pierce your heart, you need to take courage no matter what, and if you stumble, just continue to walk nor to crawl if you cannot stand up anymore "im fine, are you hungry?" even though Chaeyoung wasn't deceive from the small smile the older showed, she ignored her question that only means she must be lying

 

"yea i have eaten, are you sure?" the younger won't budge, making Jennie to leave a sharp heavy breath, as she tries her best to act

 

"im fine, i just need rest, go to sleep now, it's already late" she obey the older, afraid that it would make them to fight. Yes, as a group, they also experience to have small fights, but that didn't stop them, in fact, it made their bond even more stronger

 

 

After that night, She was in good mood when the video got released, her nervousness that took over her, drifted faraway. It was a big success, with upright mood, she decided to make a macaroon for the girls, Chaeyoung was the happiest when she woke up with a mouth drooling food that was serve right in front of her eyes.

 

"Omo!" Her meme face was showned that Jennie giggled at, she never did care for her looks. (it's rose guys) "Look at chaeyoungie!" Lisa teases, laughing. chocolate was laying on the left side of Rosè lips, Chae who doesn't care, the side of her lips, the two began to tease each other "Hey.." Jisoo sneekingly snake her hands around Jennie, the warmth she felt not just physically but in her heart, the smile that spread upon is what she had almost lose if it wasn't for the person who made her feel like everything that will happen is ok

 

 

"Im so proud of you" the simple compliment, made her heart run wild, the word she had been seeking was now heard by her ears, waters in eyes, she tried not to let them flow, so that their time wouldn't be ruined, luckily, Jisoo didn't notice her, as the unnie began to stop the banters of the younger ones

 

 

the smiles and the laughters they shared in the living room is what she treasured the most, seeing her members to be this carefree, with faces that beams ever so bright, Jennie was more than happy that even the word happy would be ashamed

 

"What's the problem?" Jennie saw the maknae whose somehow lost, hair dishevelled, waters in eyes, the younger can only cling to her "U-unnie"

 

Her broken voice alarmed the older, as she tried to calm Lisa by rubbing her back and tender eyes staring at her, waiting for her to tell what did happened

 

"Leo.. He's gone. I-I cant f-find him" stuttering, Lisa was scared like the cat she lost, the last time she remember, she told Leo to stay where he is while she will buy ramen near the street but when she cameback with big smile on face, she was down fallen when she didn't see Leo in sight, fear starts to engulfs until Jennie came up with worried look on her face

 

"shh..We'll find Leo, but i think we don't need to find him, that cat knows where do we live" this happens rarely and Lisa cannot help herself from being terrified if one day she will know that her pet cat will die

 

"B-but unnie what if Leo will--" before she could finish her words, she was cutted off by the older "I'll look for her, go to bed now Lisa, it's 3PM and you're still awake"

 

Her eyes widen, as she took glance at the clock ticks, she hurriedly hug Jennie saying "Thank you so much unnie!" as she left the tired woman with a pleasant smile o