The continuation...

We were together happily with just little fights and arguements here and there because that's just natural for couples to do so.

After two years of us being a couple, unexpectedly a day came when Jungkook texted me that we had to meet at our usual hangout place which was the school garden after classes ended. I immediately went there after my class ended but he wasn't there yet. So, I waited for about five minutes when I saw him walking to me with a serious face on.

I greeted him with a smile but he asked me to sit again while he sitted beside me on a bench.

The silence was killing me. I was waiting for him to say something since he said he had something to say to me.

"This is hard for me Jihyo but I have to do this please understand. Let's break up." He said straightly without any hesitations right infront of me.

After hearing those words, I felt like the world has fallen on me. I had to confirm it again. "Wh-what di-did you say?" I asked him stuttering, tears were starting to escape out of my eyes.

"Jihyo, let's break up. I mean it seriously." He said calmly.

"But why?" I asked him crying my eyes out.

"I don't love you anymore. I have fallen out of love. That's it." He shortly said.

"No, you're lying. Aren't you? Jungkook please don't do this. Did I do something wrong? Just tell me and I will change for you." I begged him.

"No. I'm not lying Jihyo. I said what I said. I'm in a rush so I'll leave now. Bye Jihyo." He said. It felt like he didn't care at all. Just like that, he left me there crying without even glancing back at me for a second.

I didn't know what to feel that time. I felt mad, sad, broken, shattered, miserable, confused, shocked and painfully hurt all at the same time.

I had so many questions, the why's and how's to ask you but I couldn't had the chance because you left without any proper explanation of our break up. Just like that, it seemed like you became a different person from the Jungkook I used to love at first.

After that incident, I didn't go to school for a week because of how miserable I was. I was lucky that the final exams were done and that the school year was ending. I didn't want to see you again because if I do, I don't know what should I do. I was anxious. I was terrified if I see you smile while I am like this. I got traumatized of loving the people who loves me back because I was so done with all the hurt and pain I was feeling and you were the one who made me like this until now.

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After that incident, many situations happened which made me numb and afraid to trust people again. Fake friends. Broken family. Everything just name it. I have experienced them all. So you can't blame me if I have become like this right now. I didn't want anything of this. I didn't even ask for this. And I hate myself for being like this too. Having trust issues is just a part of me now.

Everytime someone would tell me they like me, I would just ignore them and tell them to just leave me alone. They were many attempts but sooner or later they will eventually give up. But