"just tell me you wanna go.drinks up lets lose control.I hate love because it hurts.because you say you don't want me."

he continued walking toward his home while hitting his feet on the wet ground of the street with the rhythm of the music.

his black sweatshirt was already wet because of the raindrops landing on it.

his blonde hair was also wet and he couldn't deny that it felt like he was like a wet mouse but the bad point was that his house was smaller than a mouse house.

he unlocked the door and entered the house and locked it behind him  and rested on the floor in front of the door.

he was exhausted.he was living alone since he had no parents but he was used to do it so.

he could dance all the day in different clubs without having anyone blame him.

he could go anywhere he wanted without getting permission.

he could wear anything he wanted..

but it hurt..

it still hurt him..

he breathed out and stood up and took his shoes off and stepped in the hall.

his house was a mess since he didn't like to be tidy:)

It wasn't cool to be tidy at all.but the real reason was because of him not having enough mood to clean up!

he had to pay rent for that small house as well and that wasn't fair to get beaten by some guys that were working for the owner of the house.

he couldn't fight with them once again.

he stood in front of the mirror staring at himself.

Somehow zooming in to see his face better.

his big black eyes and dark brown eyebrows could show his face more beautiful.his pink lips could even attract guys!his small nose..at least he didn't have such problems with taking selfies because of his nose~

And finally his blonde hair which was on his eyes making him more look like a woman.

he was beautiful and he was hearing that everytime while he was dancing on the stage.

he tried to smile at himself in the mirror.

his smile was the most beautiful part of his actions.

he had many problems but he was trying to laugh everytime he was seeing everyone were looking at him.

Showing that he was suffering wasn't what he liked!

He didn't like anyone to see that he was sad.

"everything will be all right,taeyang.believe in yourself!"he whispered with himself even if he knew it was all bull repeating with himself.

Nothing ever was all right with those words.

He turned around and searched for a noodle pocket in the cabinet.

he let the noodle to be done and closed his eyes a bit while resting his body on his bed.

he was off tomorrow and he didn't want to go to the club in his break day.

he thought about his plan for tomorrow and he underdsood after thinking for a long time.

"I'm gonna visit you tomorrow hyung!!waaaaa!!"he smiled excited even tho remembering that his hyung didn't like him that much but taeyang would get excited everytime thinking about him even if he wasn't his real older brother.

he stood up and checked the noodle.

he couldn't wait until tomorrow to see him.

But he knew.

his hyung wouldn't be happy to see him.

***

he openned his eyes when he felt thirst.

he rolled to release himself from the covered blanket around his body and rolling too much made him fall.

he groaned from pain and sat on the floor and massaged his back.

"everything's ."he groaned and stood up and went to the kitchen sleepy and drank a glass of water and felt better.

"The hell.I need to change-..wait.I'm off today!!"he suddenly remembered and jumped up from happiness.

Controlling his emotions wasn't necessary when he was alone.

"then..what am I suppose to do?"he asked himself and remembered his purpose that he decided last night.

"wait for me hyung!"

he wore his sport clothes to be handsome as always and put make up on and wore his earing in one of his ears and smiled at himself in the mirror.

he was going to kill many girl with his existence that day.

he left the house and after leaving the house the bright light of the sun landed on his face.

"ah !!what would happen if it were cloudy today??"he nagged and wore the hat of his sweatshirt that he was wearing on his tight attractive dress.

he waited for the bus and waiting more than 15 minutes ed up his day again.

he was going to get mad slowly but fortunately the bus arrived and he got on and others eyes were on him as always.

most of the people were complimenting from his fit body and the others complimenting from his milky and beautiful face.

he didn't like to gain attetion a lot but he hated inattention in the other hand.

he stared out to see the crowded streets.

Even seeing the sunny area didn't make him feel better but instead of that he felt worse.

he put his handsfree in his ears and turned the volume of the music as loud as he possible.

he hated people talking about him and he could hear them all!!

even guys were scanning him!

he didn't like this situation.

he stood up fast as he arrived to the bus stop which he wanted.

he pressed his bus electronic card to the screen beside the bus driver's seat and got off after paying the money of the ticket.

he wasn't rich.he wasn't even on a normal line of having enough money but..he had enough money to pay the bus ticket.

he walked to the enormous company in front of him.

he was praying no one don't stare at him while he was going to the upper level of the building with the elevator.

but they were!!

he got off the elevator when he arrived and entered the big room.

the outside of his office was huge..

even if he saw his hyung's office many times before but it was still suprising for him.

it was weird but his hyung's secretary was sleep with his head on his desk.

taeyang shook his head as he was feeling pity for her.

He didn't know how much she worked and didn't want to know!

he entered his hyung office quietly.

"didn't I tell you not to disturb me while I'm not working?"

there was his hyung!

Even tho taeyang tried his best not to make any noise but his hyung noticed him.

he was taller than the last time he saw him.

his hair was still the same color as the last time.but taeyang could confess he was handsome with his black hair.

his suit was fitting him well.he was facing the window of his office.

he was still handsome as he always was!

"secretary wang-"

taeyang hugged him before he complete his sentence and leant his forehead to his chest.

but the problem was he was still shorter than him.

he felt like a girl who can't reach his boyfriend and talk to him face to face.

"I missed you so much rowoon hyung."he smiled and looked up to see rowoon's big eyes were staring at him with his a bit openned mouth.

"what are you doing here taeyang?"rowoon asked and released himself from taeyang's embrace.

"uh.."taeyang stared at rowoon's empty place in front of him and then looked at rowoon who was sitting on his seat.

he breathed out exhausted but smiled.

"I'm here 'cause I missed you!"taeyang pulled one of the chairs in front of rowoon's table and sat on the chair.

"you know what tae?you're like a mosquito on my nervous."rowoon said biting his bottom lip.

"I love you too hyung."taeyang smiled at him brightly.

"by the way.are you still dancing?"rowoon asked.

"of course.you know how much I love dancing but you just quit dancing and became a CEO.well that's embarrassing for a dancer hut yeah.it suits you anyway~~"taeyang smiled.

"don't talk about the past."rowoon frowned.

"sure.but remember you started first.by the way how came you to be this handsome??I'm dying!!"taeyang laughed a bit.

"none of your business.I'm working.don't you wanna leave?"rowoon asked.

"is it my answer from missing you?how emotionless!!aish!"taeyang nodded and stood up but before he leaves he walked toward rowoon and sat on his lap and pressed his lips to rowoon's ear.

"if you ever missed me you know where you can find me.remember!"taeyang murmured and left a peck on rowoon's cheek and stood up.

"see ya!"taeyang smiled and waved before leaving the room.

his eyes became darker after stepping out the building.

rowoon hadn't changed the good smell of his perfume.

he liked it..

what would happen if rowoon liked taeyang as much as he did?