It's been a few months ever since Irene and Wendy broke up. It's been a few months that they've finally made sure that they will only stay as friends and both members promised to stay even stronger for their group. Both promised to not have any feelings attached again. It has been months, yet Irene isn't quite sure if she could keep her promise, or if she ever tried to.

It was only between them and no one else knew. They spent late nights talking to each other by the balcony, or binge watching or just cuddling by the couch once all the others are asleep. Irene loved the warmth Wendy would emit whenever she wraps her arms around Irene's waist, pulling her ever so closely. Wendy's lullabies that never failed to bring her to sleep was one of her favorites, along with the sweet kisses she would sneak. Those were only a few things only Wendy could ever do to melt Irene into a puddle.

Irene loved the frequent visits Wendy does everytime she has an individual schedule. She missed their weekend night outs and the nights where they spent their time walking along the beach, just enjoying the view of the tranquil sea.

Oh how Irene wishes for her heart to calm like the night sea.

"I'm tired Hyun, please, not today." Irene hears Wendy pleading at the back of her head, the scene replaying like a movie. 

"Bold of you to say you're tired." With a scoff Irene pushes Wendy towards her shared room with Seulgi. The said bear seems to be outside with the youngsters. "I wouldn't even be doing this if you kept your promise!"

"It's an interview, Hyun! What am I supposed to do?! Avoid her? Is that what you want me to do?" The worn out vocalist retorts after her own schedule. She has been out for almost the entire day shooting for her new collab with none other than Park Rosè, BLACKPINK's main vocalist, (one can only dream alright?) and went on with an interview. It's almost midnight that she finally came back and she's dead tired that she yells at her lover unexpectedly.

Irene, albeit taken aback, clenches her jaw tightly. The interview was live just recently and Irene watched the entire show for her lover, but only got her blood boiling as she listens to every unecessary questions and watches a clingy co-artist clinging onto her girlfriend. Definitely not a sight to see.

"You must've been an idiot being so oblivious to the advances she's been hinting on you! You're absolutely enjoying how she clung onto you!"

Wendy took a deep breath, chest heaving as she supressed her growing anger. All she wanted to do was to cuddle and sleep with Irene but she guesses she won't be getting any tonight. "Listen Hyun, It's-- I'm just trying to be respectful. I can't just push her away live."

"That's not just it Wendy!" The younger flinched upon hearing her English name being spat by her lover who usually calls her 'Wan-ah'. "You broadcasted that you were willing to marry Rosè in a heartbeat, heck, you even said you'd date her! What will our fans think, huh?"

"Is it the fans you're worried about or is it just yourself? Us?" Wendy retorts. "There's nothing you should be worrying about. The fans will support us no matter what. The problem is that you have trust issues. You don't and will never trust me, Hyun. That's your goddamn problem!" 

Irene's heart shattered into tiny pieces, letting Wendy's words pierce into her fragile heart. "Because no matter how many times I tried to tell you, you had doubts swirling in your head, not knowing whether to believe in your own girlfriend."

Wendy grits her teeth, afraid of the tears welling at the corner of her eyes. "Yes, we haven't announced we're official yet and I know you're sometimes insecure but you don't know how I feel. How I feel when you're out there, modelling with famous, handsome idols as they fantasize about you. You don't know how it feels for me to see how people preferred you with others because I am never that attractive enough to catch the audiences' eyes." She looks intently at the crying lady in front of her. "But I try, Hyun. I try so ing hard to hide the pain and welcome you with open arms because I know you love me and that's enough."

She lets a lone tear fall, lips curled into a deep frown as she fights back the urge to engulf Irene in a hug depite their situation. "I love you Irene, but this is too much." Wendy stood up, grabbing her car keys and coat as she leaves a sobbing Irene behind. 

Irene sighed upon remembering her stupidity. I didn't even try to run after her.