Jen’s diary

May 2017

I.. just.. saw him at the studio today. I hate it because I was so nervous out of nowhere and I didn’t know what to do. I used to smile and greet him when we’re both trainees. We didn’t meet often but we had some encounters in the past and it was pretty normal. He was so famous when he joined the company so the trainees know him, he’s popular and I used to bow at him. He’s older anyway. But these days, as we keep bumping into each other more often, I felt so awkward so I looked the other way. Can you imagine how weird that was for me? I don’t even know where this feeling comes from but it’s driving me crazy. He was chatting with s, strumming his guitar so I thought that wouldn’t be possible for me to say HI. Besides, he’s the leader of the group, must be hard to be him but it’s insane how he’s looking so great from afar, directing and stuff. His back is so dependable ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ Please tell me what I should do next time..

Seungyoon’s note

May 2017

What had just happened? WTF is this? Hahahahahaha. Do you think I’m hallucinating again or? So I passed by the elevator and I JUST SAW HER AGAIN. Ugh why do I have to see her again? ㅠㅜ I think she has just finished some recording for the group CB but I hate this feeling. I was so nervous? Like why? She was one of the many trainees I know from long time ago so I’m pretty sure it should be a normal encounter but when I tried to smile and greet her, she look