It’s been months. Maybe even years. I don’t know. All I know is that I see Doyeon as more than just a friend. She can never know though, she’d never feel the same way. I mean we’re best friends and have been since third grade. So yeah. I’m just a normal girl with a hopeless crush on her best friend.

There have been times where I have tried to tell her or show her how I feel. I must admit. But she never seems to catch on. She’s so dense, but that’s okay. She’s still adorable.

My dense Doyeon.

Who will never feel the same.

~~~

I walked into the dining room. I wasn’t hungry, I just wanted to see Doyeon. I looked up and I see her standing up… Maybe, she’s finished? Then we can hang out in our dorm room.

Yes. We’re roommates and to make matters worse occasionally Doyeon comes into my bed and holds me or asks to be held. It’s times like that when I think that maybe, just maybe, she feels the same way.

It’s torture, really. Knowing that she doesn’t feel the same way and is just showing affection towards her best friend. But feeling her arms around me or my arms around her is truly an amazing feeling. In fact, it’s one of the best feelings that I’ve ever felt, if I’m being honest.

While I’m being honest, I’ll admit that I ask for cuddles quite a lot too. Almost every night, in fact. But Doyeon has never seemed to notice.

I went to call her, but before I could. I saw Sookyung engulf her into a bear hug. Doyeon seemed surprised but hugged back.

I’d usually smile at this sight. I was used to it. Sookyung was always all over Doyeon. Hugging her, laying on her, holding her hand.

But today… Today was different. I felt strange. It was like I was… jealous? I didn’t smile. Instead I  wanted to cry.

But I didn’t.

I watched as they broke out of the hug, smiling at each other.

Without thinking I ran to Doyeon and back hugged her tightly. Not wanting to let go or even loosen my grip.

“Yoojung, ah! You scared me,” Doyeon giggled pulling out of my embrace.

I held her hand though. I didn’t want the skin ship to end.

“Sorry,” I smile.

“What’s with all the affection today, Yoojung? You guys look like a couple… A cute couple,” Sookyung winked.

Doyeon smiled softly at me. “Yoojung’s the cute one.”

“I… No, you are!” I pouted.

“Ew! You went from cute to old married couple real quick.” Sookyung laughed, walking away.

Oh, how I wish Doyeon and I would marry someday…

~~~

I sat down. Breathless. We had just been practicing our choreography for our comeback for at least three consecutive hours. It was safe to say, we are all drained.

I notice that Doyeon’s water bottle is empty. She must have drank it all earlier. She must be so thirsty.

“Doyeon,” I tap her shoulder to get her attention.

“Hmm?” She looks at me.

“Would you like some of my water?” I offer her the bottle.

She takes it and takes a large gulp.

“That’s like an indirect kiss!” Sookyung pointed out, laughing.

I didn’t think of that. I only offered it to her because she looked thirsty.

At least I somehow got to kiss her. Even if it wasn’t a proper kiss.

“I’ve kissed Yoojung before though?” Doyeon said with a puzzled facial expression.

“On the lips?” Sookyung raised her eyebrow, smirking.

“Oh, no. I meant on the forehead,” Doyeon chuckled. “She’s my best friend.”

“She’s my best friend.” Her words swirl around my head.

I guess that’s all I’m ever going to be. Her best friend.

I put on my best fake smile and left the practice room.

I crashed on my bed and let out a heavy sigh. Thought’s were swirling around my head. All about the same person. Doyeon. My dense Doyeon.

~~~

“Yoojung,” she calls me.

I look at her and try to keep my jaw shut.

She’s so beautiful.

How does she do it?

Even when she’s dressed in just a baggy t shirt and sweat pants, she’s still breath taking.

“Hey, Yoojung! Are you paying attention?” She asks, pulling me out of my trance.

“Huh? Sorry!” I smile.

“It’s alright. I was just saying do you wanna go grab some food?”

“Yes! Of course!” I practically jump off this bench.

“Someone’s eager,” she laughs. “You must be hungry.”

“Yeah, hungry…” I mumble, following her out.

~~~

We eat our food, sitting opposite each other. Though, I must admit… I’m not really eating. I’m too busy staring at Doyeon happily munching on her burger.

Even when she eats she’s breathtaking.

Does she have any flaws?

“Yoojung, are you listening?” She brings me out of my daze.

“Huh? Sorry,” I apologized.

“You haven’t eaten, are you alright?”

“Oh, yes! I’m fine.” I smile, picking up a barbeque chicken wing and munching on it.

I’m lying though. I’m far from fine. This crush has escalated way too far.

~~~

We headed back to our dorm room. I kept stealing glances at Doyeon. I couldn’t resist.

Once inside Doyeon shut the door behind her and urged me to sit on her bed beside her.

“Yoojung, do I have sauce on my lip? I feel like I have,” she asks.

“Oh, you do! I didn’t notice,” I lie again.

“Maybe you could wipe it off for me?” She suggests.

That’s when I somehow stopped breathing.

She leans in close. I can feel her breath on my lips.

“Doyeon…” I whisper.

“I don’t have sauce on my lip, do I?”

Our foreheads press together.

Without thinking, I close the gap and kiss her. The kiss is slow and gentle. Eventually we pull back, our foreheads still pressed together.

“W-What was that?” I stutter out nervously.

“I know, Yoojung. I know.”

“You know what?” I ask, genuinely confused.

“I know how you feel about me and I feel the same way…” She looks down shyly.

“I… I really like you,” I admit.

“I really like you too, Yoojung.” She smiles at me.

“No, I liked you since third grade, Doyeon. I liked you when we were trainees, I liked you when joined our company, I liked you when we went on Produce 101, I liked you during IOI… And now, I-I love you…” I shyly admit.

“I know, I love you too, Choi Yoojung.”

“Shall we…”

“Be a cute old married couple, like Sookyung said we are?” She winks.

“I’d love to.”

And with that we share another kiss, and another and another.

Because I am now hopelessly in love with my best friend.

Who does feel the same.

~~~ Author’s Note~~~

Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed this. I’m actually really proud of it!

I’m sorry if it seems rushed or doesn’t make sense. I moved last week and I wanted to get this finished.

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