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…I really like you.

 

It’s sad I couldn’t let it all out, to confess my feelings towards you face to face.

 

I could only write it down…

 

Why?

 

Because we're both girls and the place where we live, “they” would be disgusted with me if they ever find out.

 

You are disgusted with same relationship too, right? I already knew it beforehand but it hurts a lot knowing you really spoke out about it from our previous conversation.

 

It made feel thankful for not telling you how I feel.

 

But…

 

It’s sad.

 

I’m sad, hurt and confused.

 

I've kept trying to convince myself to stop thinking about you, to stop stealing glances at you, to stop
feeling this way towards you, to literally–

 

Just–

 

Stop.

 

But it was goddamn harder than I could ever imagine.

 

In this world we lived in, hmm.

 

…..

 

I’m supposed to be still in love with… a boy.

 

…Right?

 

But why were you, you goddamn- YOU is in the picture instead…?

 

You make my heart beat faster than anyone could. .
You make me laugh harder than those guys in our class.
You make me feel the happiest when I’m around you…

 

Of course, this is what friends are for.

 

To be there to comfort one another through tough times, laugh at good times and literally just be there for each other in every time.

 

Sadly, I think of you as more than just a friend.

 

And that's just wrong.

 

I just…

 

…Really wanna get out of here.

 

Just somewhere…

 

Away from you.

 

Don't get me wrong. You're a keeper. It’s really hard to find a friend like you. No kidding.

 

But saying things like “let’s be friends for a long time”? I think not.