‘ Yahh….! You’re late again! ‘

Y/N shouted to Taehyung.

‘ I play overwatch till 4 ‘

He scrub his eyes, his mind still don’t wake up though.

 

 ‘ Aigo. When youll grow up? Onje? WE WILL BE LATE TO SCHOOL A.G.A.I.N ‘

Y/N get angry while smacking his head

‘ Its hurt Y/N! ‘

‘ Serve you right! ‘

Y/N already take your bike and start to cycling. Damn you gonna late again today because of him

‘ Yah! Kachigahh! ( lets go together )

He shouted back from a far

 

Y/N and Taehyung are neighbor and raised together from child. But you and Taehyung was born in different years, mean he is older than you. Just 12 months and 1 day. And he always brag about that.  That damn one day. If only he was born below 12 months, she already make him his slave. But rn your already making him though. Your mom and father are workaholic. Your father was a businessman, always outstation, your mom is lawyer. So you bet it yourself. You don’t have enough love from your parent. Thankfully, Taehyung mom raised you with love, she take care of you, replacing both of your parent, filled it with love. As she only housewife, she raised both of you witl utmost love so you cant filled it with emptiness. Both of you raised together and doing all thing together. Even you also sleep at Taehyung bedroom more than you sleep at your bed in your childhood.  Start from baby until high school, you always stuck with him. Hes like a glue to you. He doesn’t leave you alone. Theres a time you get annoyed but you already get used to it.

 

Taehyung already entering college and Y/N are preparing for your college entrance. Your are in your 3^rd year high school though. Not enough rest, red-eyes, that’s a typical high school student in Korea. 13 hours straight study.

 

‘ You gonna stay late again aren’t you Y/N? ‘

‘ Yup ‘

‘ Ill wait at our place, as usual ‘

‘ Don’t you have class? ‘

Taehyung silent then smiled.

‘ Nah. Ill escape my class. Im bored ‘

‘ Ahhh..chungmal. so you are lazy now since your already enter college though. Thug life taehyung-ah ‘

‘ Eihhh. Im clever than you.So if I miss class I still get a though. HAHA ‘

‘ Im regret talking this with you ‘

‘ Why? You will spend you lifetime with me though Y/N. Don’t ever regret. Hajima~ ‘

Taehyung act cutely

You heartbeat almost stopped when he talk about lifetime.

 ‘ Study well. Don’t think too much. Just study. Ill wait at café ‘

‘ Arasso ‘

 

They go to separate way.

Y/N heading to your school.

Taehyung heading to somewhere.

 

Actually, Y/N already in love with him for a long time but you didn’t confess to him. You know he think you as sister. Then Y/N remember back one memory. One damn memory that Y/N want to forget.

 

[ 14/02 – Year before ]

‘ Yah! ‘

Taehyung shock . Both of you then want to enter his house. You gather you brave to give him chocolate box. He look what you give him then he look Y/N back.

‘ What for? ‘

Taehyung confused

‘ Today.. m… ‘

‘Ahhhh! Valentine day! ‘

Okay now what im gonna talk to

‘ Gumawo! But why give me this? ‘

Taehyung testing her.

‘ No.. it just…….mm… our school made an event so I don’t who I want to give ‘

‘ You can just eat yourself though ‘

(Okay, that’s rude taehyung)

 

‘ Well fine then ‘

Y/N take back that box from him, you already sulking, want to cry but keep it first. Y/N want to confess but suddenly you don’t have gut to tell rn.

He fight back, take the box

‘ Yah! Why you taking it back if you already give me. That’s not nice Y/N ‘

‘ You the one said you don’t want! ‘

‘ I don’t say I don’t want though? ‘

You two start bickering again

He like when Y/N sulking, angry, he living for that moment

‘ Give me ‘

You reach that box but Taehyung held his hand up high, so high so you need to tip toe your feet to reach it.

‘ Give it to me! ‘

‘ Over my dead body Y/N ‘

Taehyung shaking that box

Y/N angry plus shy. Don’t know what to do. You already feel your cheek are hot

‘ Eiiihh! Why you get taller each day?! ‘

Angry while jumping. Hope that your hand reach that goddamn box

 

Ahhh!

Both of you fall to walkway. Worse than that, you fall at his body.You keep jumping until you feet tangle. Made your pose imbalance. In a flash you want to fall but Taehyung save Y/N and falling together.

‘ Auchh! ‘

Taehyung groaned

‘ Gwenchana? ‘

Y/N worried then quickly make him sit down. He hurt her hand. Stain blood detected.

‘ You hurt ‘

‘ It not big deal, gwenchana ‘

He respond and stand up, grab your arm so both of you not in that position again

‘ I already told you thoug. I want that back ‘

He smiled

‘ Once you give, don’t take it back ‘

He pat Y/N you head

You shock still not know what to do

‘ Ill eat it well though thank you ‘

Y/N still frozen

‘ Come lets go home, Im hungry, my mom already wait for us ‘

‘ Im gonna head back to home, my mom already there. She not working today. ‘

Y/N lied

‘ Really? Omma don’t tell me though this morning ‘

‘ She just texted me ‘

Then Y/N run, don’t want to look at him

‘ Yah Y/N ! Careful when running!

 

 

‘ Yahh Y/N ! why you not studying? ‘

Eun-Byul make me stop daydreaming. Ugh, Im still at school.

‘ Nah. Im..I just wanna go home ‘

‘ Chincha? You said you want to stay late ‘

‘ Im sorry, Ill be head home after this. ‘

‘ Okay then ‘

 

‘ Why you late, taehyung-ah? ‘

‘ Mm..I thought you still late. I take a walk though ‘

Something not right. Y/N sense something

‘ Yah. You crying? ‘

Y/N ask Taehyung. You touched his face. Worrying

‘ No. I just..I watch movie. Sad movie. ‘

‘ What movie, you should bring me…… ‘

‘ Yah! Youre having exam in 2 months, you think ill bring you. Never ‘

‘ Eihhhh. Jashik ‘

Both of you finish your meal and head back home.

 

Next two month is a hell month for Y/N. As you struggling for your entrance, you bother to something else. Taehyung. You don’t meet him anymore. Last time you saw him when he take your to One-day course. He bring to do all thing,activities you like. He also bring his bucket list. He never do that. But when Y/N ask,you envious with his friend because he do that with his girlfriend. So he want to do with Y/N as he don’t have anybody. You silently happy when he said that. Y/N are in the top list!

 

Y/N already search him at home but everytime Y/N ask him, his mother said that you outtown with your friend, travelling. Weird, even he don’t see me like 2 hours he will text me asking me where, when I go home. But now. No. Taehyung mom also not always at home these day. More importantly, Y/N mom also spending more time at home. When you reach home, she always there, cooking for you. But Y/N happy as this getting improve for Y/N family.

 

‘ Im home!! ‘

Y/N shouted. You think that your mom already home.

‘ Ah..she didn’t reach home yet. ‘

Y/N take off your shoes, arrange it at rack, head to your room for shower. You need to refresh your body. Y/N all ache as your finally finish your exam. Your friend want to take you to have fun, noraebang and stuff but you declined. Your body already reach maximum and you cant handle it anymore. As you want to get some sleep. Your stomach already make a concert.

 

With total laziness, Y/N drag yourself to kitchen, want to take some food. You hear your mom speaking at phone with someone as your arrived at last stair on your home.

‘Y/N not here. I guess she having fun with her friend after exam ‘

What? Who is that? Asking for me?

‘ Kokjongma.. shes not here. Shell never know ‘

Okay this is weird

‘ Is Taehyung like Cheese cake? I brought at their favourite café ‘

Taehyung?

‘ Alright, Ill be there soon, I just drop some food for Y/N though. Bye. ‘

Y/N mother end her phone call. Seems it from Taehyung mother.

Something wrong. Something they keep it from me. As far as you know, Taehyung travelling. Why your mother suddenly brought up cheese cake.

 

Y/N hiding behind the wall, watching your mother. She started to wear her coat, ready to go. After your mom close the door, you running to your room, grab your wallet and coat. Y/N will follow her.

 

You frozen what infront of you. Taehyung name clearly on that room. Hospital. Y/N leg shaking fearfully. Is he sick. But why they don’t tell Y/N?

 

Y/N slowly go to the door where your mom just coming in. You look at the door glass. Y/N can see that 3 people you know. Y/N mom, Taehyung mom and him. Taehyung. You suddenly tears as you realized something about him.

He so thin. Too much..

And..

No hair in his head.

 

Y/N disbelief. Y/N open the door.

 

Three of them shocked as Y/N open the door, walking to them with tears. Both of your mom frozen. Why Y/N can be here? Taehyung shocked because he taught you having fun with your friend, but here you are. Crying.

‘ You… ‘

Y/N stopped beside his bed and trying to touch his face. His head. How could this be happen?

‘ Ahh.. Eigo? (this?) ‘

Your start crying and punching him

‘ Yah! Appho ( its hurt) ‘ while defend himself, laugh, joke as usual

You crying histerically

Taehyung then grab you, hugged you.

‘ Ahhh.. Im missing you so much ‘

Y/N hugged him, him too, pat your head

 

Two years passed.

You still can feel his warmth within you.

Here you are in his collage, when you hoping that you can be together with him, going to class together.

All scattered to pieces.

He leaving Y/N.

Cancer stage 4.

 

‘ Hey..hear me .. ‘

‘ I don’t want to hear anything, you gonna be alright. I will hear all of it after you recover. Mmhm? ‘

‘ You too much talk. Talkative ‘

You laugh, while crying.

Actually Doctor already tell that he cant be cure anymore. Just wait for the miracle. And Y/N believe it. Both of your parent give time alone for both of you. Taehyung parent already preparing their mental for whatever incoming for their son. Only son.

‘ You gon—‘

‘ Hey, you know the fact right ‘

Y/N shaking your head, don’t want to believe

‘ Can you grant me a wish? ‘

‘ No… ‘

Y/N crying hard

‘ Please .. ‘

Taehyung start to tears. Y/N heart ache.

‘ Please, promise me. In the next life, find me ‘

Y/N cry again.

‘ Why I need to find you?you always give me a headache ‘

‘ In case, I forget your ugly face. HAHA ‘

Y/N smiled.

He laugh then cough. Y/N help him calm his breathe. He is having problem with his breathe. Taehyung rub his heart, groaned. You worry that he will hurt more, you want to call for doctor but he didn’t want, he grab Y/N hand, prevent Y/N from doing that

‘ If you calling them, we cant talk anymore. ‘

‘ Pabo! ‘

‘ Yeah. Im pabo. Im acknowledged that, until this time I still don’t say that I love you ‘

Y/N looked at him

‘ Im sorry Y/N. I thought we can be together, until you bored looking my face. Hehe ‘

You crying. He drying up your tears.

‘ Uljima.. ‘

Taehyung cough again. This time, blood also came out from his mouth.

You also surprised.

‘ Im gonna find you. You just stay where you are. Ill come running to you. Yaksuk kalkhe Taehyung-ah ‘

Y/N hugged him while he lying

‘ Gumapta.. Sanghae.. Miannae Y/N-ah ‘

‘ Me too. Don’t worry about me ‘

 

 

Announcement from the subway made you back to reality. Y/N wiped your tears again today. You wear back your back, take your bucketwheat flower in your hand.

‘ Im here Taehyung-ah ‘

You smiled infront of his grave.

Smiling.

 

Thank you….

I love you….

Im sorry…..