Joon has been a trainee for three years before becoming an idol: a successful composer as much as a singer know worldwide.

Nothing could tarnish his success if it was for a mental illness, depression.

Creating an infernal spiral, nothing could light up his heart.

Except for this voice singing one of his songs in the middle of the night.

It was enough for hope and desire to keep living, to find it, his special light.

This fanfiction with treat heavy subjects such as depression, suicidal thoughts, self-violence, anguish, anxiety and panic, denial and the pressure of entertainment industries.

If any of those subjects affected you deeply or/and are triggering to you, please don't read it. I do not mean any harm to anyone.

This story means a lot to me, and since I don't wish to hurt anyone, I will say this right away. The name Joon has been taken from one of the most beautiful human being  Kim Namjoon and this story has been inspired by my own experience and by another beautiful human being and artist, Kim Jonghyun that may rest in peace.

This fanfiction is my first one and also, it's a work in progress that is built by me and by you too with everything that you will have to say about it.

For those wondering, there will be romance (of course but it can't be that easy). You will certainly recognize some members of BTS and other groups but their name won't be written, it will be changed to others one, not as disrespect but more like a profound respect that I have for them. I do not wish to brings anyone down.

Also, English isn't my mother language so I hope you will excuse my grammar and tense mistakes, I will do my best in working on that so it will be as fluent as possible for you.

Finally, because I am nothing without your criticism and good remarks, I hope you will leave a comment to share it with me.

I hope you will enjoy this story even though it could be a difficult subject.