They say if you love someone, you'll eventually return back. 

Others say if you love someone, you would not ever let that someone go and that you'll hold on to that someone  tightly.

But what about those people who are in a situation where,
the relationship that binds them became unreal?
The relationship that binds them together got surely unsure if it's still on the path,
cause none of them know exactly where that'll lead them,
 until when?

Soojung...

Krystal...

What a wonderful name for an angel...

It's as if,
it really is made for you to own it.
The name that makes me go crazy everytime it rings my ears.
The name that stands out among all the jewels in the world.

it really suits you well.
So precious as you are.
Nothing can ever be compared to you.

I love you, you know that. 
Same goes to you too.
However even if so, 
the love that you said towards me never did I felt.
So many questions up in my head that until now still,
are unanswered.

Princess?

Did you even love me?

Have you ever gone to contentment of the word "US"?

Did you even appreciate the love that I have for you?If your answer is " YES" promise,
I'll book the whole Eiffell tower for you. 

Cause you know princess,
 I'm just afraid,
Afraid that someone might replace me there— NO!

I'm wrong...

So wrong...

Really wrong...

Cause I think right now, 
there's already someone,
who replaced my position to you.

How foolish of me to think that there'll be none.
Considering how wonderful of an angel you are,
it would be a surprise if there's none,
 now would it?

There are still questions left in my mind,
that up until now,
I still am finding answers to it.

Questions of what, who and why?

What?

What am I in your life?

What does he have that I don't? 

What did I do to you that made you cheat on me?

Who? 

Who really is among the two of us? 

Me?

or 

Him?

Who really is the one that you love the most?

Who really is the one that's there in your heart?

Why?

Why princess? 

Did I lack something?

Did I hurt you?

Did I upset you? 

Did I dissapoint you? 

Am I not enough? 

It's always like this. 
Everytime we fight, 
it has always been like this. 
Everytime you walk out of the door and I'm left with nothing but myself and the darkness,
it always returns to this.

Why my princess?

Why are you hurting me?
Punishing me up to the point that,
I can't even do anything to stop it from happening.

I'm just so tired already.

I'm so much tired of it.

I'm tired of being hurt.

I'm tired of tearing.

I'm tired of crying again and again,

and again, 

and again,

and again,

and again for the same reason and
for the same way.

Princess,

I love you. 

But that's enough!

I love you...

but it's already very painful.

I love you... 

but I'm already tired and
so enough!

Princess,

I really love you. 
I really do!
But I can't take it anymore.
I don't know how many time's I've let go and
I also don't know how many times I've returned to the one and only you.

I really look stupid now, am I?
Oh, I'm already stupid. 
A lot of times I did left you and 
a lot of times as well that I've returned.

I just still believed to what you've said to me;

"Don't close your heart just because you got hurt. Please let me in, I won't hurt you ever again."

And here's the stupid me, 
letting you again.

But why princess? 

I thought I'm already used to it. 
That I'm immune and moved on. 
Believe me when I say,
I surely want to forget you.
But why are you still up in my head?

I already did the many ways,
but why does my heart still screaming for your name? 
Do you know how much of a heartache you've caused me? 
So much that it'll took me forever to recover!

It's so hard.

Really hard. 

That feeling on where,

I still want it,

but I think dont.

That it's gone but perhaps there's still left.

That you're now with someone else and
here I am still with you.

And so Princess thoughts run through me,

Do I still can handle this? 

or not anymore?

That if I still love you or still love you no more?

That to hold on? or

to just let go... 

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Hello dear readers! 

Sorry for my other story, I got writers block on that one😭 but I will really get back on that. 

Hope you like the poem. 

Actually it's one of the piece of my spoken poetry that got left and forgotten on my journal until I decided cleaning my storage cabinet and found it. Once I'm done reading some poets, I passed to this one and then I was like " Wow this seems good" and so I decided to post it here. The original piece isn't this one, I just made some few adjustments here. 

Anyways did you enjoyed it? Sorry for the grammatical errors. English is not my mother language.

Please give me your thoughts on this. Comment anything that comes out of your mind in the comment section juseyoooo~ I would love to hear something from you guys!

Critics are accepted of course. It'll really help me to improve my poet skills and my writing as an author.

Also, do upvote of you like it😅 

Okay, I'm asking and ranting too much on you guys. 

Jalga~😉❤👋