Lying on the bed with her eyes fixed over the ceiling she let the memories kick in one more time for she ve never been too desperate to feel the pain and pleasure of it both .Nothing felt right because the feeling was growing too foreign and she was too scared to admit it for she ve  alys dwelled on those feelings for such a long time ... Her train of thoughts were interrupted by the crack sound of the door which was now being opened with much caution ..." There's a gift awaiting for you downstair love " Mrs Choi softly mumbled as she walked towards The bed ...rather then responding to her mom Hugging her knees against her chest she quietly balled herself ...this was the first time Mrs. Choi ever witnessed her daughter being so vulnerable ..." I am not crying anymore mom for I have come to the realization that crying over things that we can never change is worthless " blurting out those words her lips stretched into a thin line ...settling herself at the edge of Sana's bed Mrs. Choi started off " I think u r finally coming back to life so welcome back love ,we missed the old you , cheerful and lively ..." ...releasing a soft laugh Sana murmured " have I known how shortly everything's going to come to an end I wouldn't have rly started at it mom because all this time I ve only made a fool of myself " .....a few moments later both of them laid next to each other and shared a moment of silence ...as the darkness greeted the sun set they talked for hours  about everything but nothing about how certain things ve been bothering her ...Mrs Choi left the room with a smile painted on her face and a ray of hope deep within ...The next day Mrs Choi poured all her mind and soul into preparing the dishes for her lil Sana so the moment she completed her task in the kitchen she quickly climbed the stairs reaching out to her baby girl ... As usual the room was filled with darkness for the curtains were yet to be opened but as she stepped inside the smell of fresh blood greeted her ... It was sth unusual until the nightmare hit her ....." No that's not happening please no " with those words she reached out for the curtains and the scene just frozed her ....with a tears rolling down her cheeks and shaking hands she reached out for the body which was lying dead cold and pale on the floor ...it was too late for anything ...neither can she reach out for help nor the situation can be helped ...and at the corner of the bed she saw a white paper being laid open by the winds ....with all her might she dragged the paper right towards herself and there the reality engulfed her ..." Rem I love you mom 
I ve been nothing but a burden to you yet you were alys cheering on me ...I know you ve so many expectations from me and I failed you time and again ... It's such a shame that despite everything you are still so supportive and I feel so blessed to ve grown under ur guidance for you are such a great mother anyone cud ever have ... Mom although you have been living thru the hard times almost all of the time yet you are so feirce and determined that I end up wishing to be like you but things are not as easy as they may look from outside ...as much as I want to live the idea of lying lifeless leaves me fearless too... Idk but I just can't stop myself from feeling so deeply  ... This has nothing to do with anyone but myself for I am way too tired ... Mom I cannot rly feel a thing ... I ve grown too distant ...while there are too many good reasons to stay there are equally too many good reasons to walk away ... Life's not cruel but karma rly is mom no one knows it better then you ... Living is so tiresome ... As much as I wud love to share you every lil detail I m sorry I wouldn't be able to cuz the one who understand myself is me ...you were the best part of being alive and living ... I m thankful and yet so sorry for everything ...you need to live well on my behalf so please store me as a beautiful memory which will burn ur heart with happiness every time you think about me here after ... I know you will grant this wish of mine plz do ....with much love ur lil sweet heart ❤️ " 

Folding the letter and watching her lil one lying lifeless on her very arms she finally bid good bye with a kiss on her forehead ..." I wish we could do much better in next life for you are the most beautiful creature I ve ever laid my heart on " ....