Jihoon was thinking about Lai Guanlin again. That moment, a few days ago under the bright lights, when Guanlin refused to let him go until he got his kiss. Guanlin's eyes were dripping with adoration and happiness. He didnt care about the bright lights, the cameras flashing or the numerous people watching us two. For him, it was easy to just be himself but why am I dwelling on this?

Guanlin had been acting completely normal even though it was he who had wanted the kiss. On the other hand, i couldnt stop acting strange. I kept messing up words, like when we held that vlive and I pretty much admitted to everyone that I hold Guanlin's hands a lot, and I kept blurting things out that just made everything more weird. Plus I couldnt stop thinking about Guanlin.

Guanlin had wandered into my mind on so many occassions that it was strange to think there was a time I didnt think about him. Or that kiss. I really shouldn't have complied, who knew it was going to be such a big issue?

From the window, where I had been in deep thought, I saw something move out of the corner of my eye.
"HYUNG!" Guanlin excitedly said as he rushed towards me. "Hyung, what are you doing? Lets go play a game"

"Guanlin-ah, I was just thinking about before..."

"What about before?"

To open a discussion or not about what we are...
"Nothing"

Guanlin looked at Jihoon with the cutest, puzzled face and just said "Okay.. so do you want to play a game or no?

Guanlin really was adorable, his beautiful eyes that could make you get lost in them. How lovable he was, how comfortable he was just being himself, it was his charm. He was so sure of himself. Why couldn't I be like that? Why was I so unsure? And most importantly, why was it so hard to talk about that kiss? That stupid promise made everything harder. Everyone was looking out to see what was going to happen with them now. Fans, journalists, even the members and staff were curious about our relationship!

"Hyung?"

"Yeah, let's go."

I followed Guanlin out of the room we shared, into the living room space. Apparently, everyone was gone taking advantage of the rare free day. Normally, Id have gone to see my mom too but she was busy today. And if Guanlin wasnt going to visit Cube or Seonho, then he'd come with me to see my mom too. Honestly, my mom seems to be a huge fan of Guanlin, and I dont even know how that happened. Actually I dont even know how him coming home with me happened either. It just did, and that became the norm.

Guanlin had set up everything already, and as he told me what he wanted, his gummy smile came out. Dang, that smile can melt the coldest, I thought. Who could ever say no to such a face?