Taehyung

This is what happens. I leave. I leave everything behind without looking back. I leave the people I love and the sadness buried in the grave of my heart. I leave with my eyes open and my mouth full of lies. Everything’s going to be okay, is what I will think. And then I think and think and think. I think until my mind will run out of ideas and my lips tremble from the lies I spit out. I will ask myself why I ran away. Why I thought that going to another place would solve all my problems and make me happy. And the answer is because I was stuck and I didn’t know what to do and one day I woke up wanting to die. So I left. And all my memories will come rushing to that place and I will miss everything but I will not regret it. I will stare at the ceiling on a rainy day and remember all of the people I left behind. I will remember how it hurt and feel sorry for myself all day long. I will listen to songs that will remind me of them until my ears can’t hear and I will learn to convince myself that I don’t deserve forgiveness. There is going to be a lot of tears and it will hurt and hurt and hurt. I will never learn to let go. I don’t think I know how to love anything properly.

But I’m going to meet new people and see different things. And I will realize that this is where my life is.

So I watch the days go by and my memories begin to fade but my hands are still covered in blood.

Juhyang

I hid my heart on the back pocket of my jeans so I wouldn’t be able to feel a thing. All I have left is a twisted mind and a letter from a friend telling me to be happy. I have a feeling I’ll lose both soon enough.