Here I am... alone, hands inside the wet dirt, squeezing it with my cold fingers.

"You promised me.." as I cried tears started rolling yet again.

"Dear, I suggest you go home." I heard a voice and turned around to see an old man.

"You've been here all day, go home and rest.." he watched me, I saw the pity behind his dark irises. 

"I cant.." my voice cracked when I tried talking. 

"Cmon get up" he tried reaching me but I stepped back.

"No, I won't go anywhere.."

"I'll take him, sir." I heard the familiar voice behind the old man, who nodded and left us.

"Jimin..." my voice cracked again, I didn't move.

"Cmon Taehyung...it's cold." he said as he came closer.

"But..."

"Please listen to me.." his eyes teared up. 

"I'm begging you.." I turned my head towards the gravestone and swallowed heavily.

"O-okay.." I slowly got up still watching the beautifully made letters.

'Jeon Jungkook

1997.09.01-2017.18.01.'

"let's go" he put his jacket on my shoulders and we got into the car which was parked near us.

...........

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15..

I counted every second I stayed in this room.

I remember your words.

"Give me a reason to stay alive..".

I didn't answer.

Why didn't i ....why, why, why?

There is a reason Jungkook.

and not only one.

I got up from the bed and opened the little cabinet taking out a diary and pencil.

I sat on my desk and turned the little lamp on it.

I opened the diary.

there are many reasons.

I took the pencil and named the first page 

'Reason 1'

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special tnx to my bestie for helping me with the translate. I luv u ma xD

i hope you like it ~