Days passed but I still feel like nothing have changed much. I drag my lifeless soul every damn day. I exist , but I don't ,really. At times I am absorbed with my thoughts, I am overwhelmed with my sadness and my incapabilities to move on.I have done many things and I have tried many techniques to move on , to heal my broken heart. But none works.

It is definitely a lie if I said I don't hate myself for feeling like this. But this time , I could not help my helplessness. It is a disease.

It has been two years since my break up with Dani, but our memories still linger . I dream of her day and night . I am called pathetic by my friends for not being able to move on .

"Real man move on quick , Tae"  is something that Jimin always tell me. Numerous times , I bet . 

I am walking home when I picked up a flyer that was scattered on the streets. Must be blown away by the wind , I think to myself.

SUFFERING FROM A HEART BREAK AND CAN'T SEEM TO MOVE ON?

HATE YOURSELF FOR BEING SUCH A LOSER?

COME AND EXPERIENCE 10 SESSIONS OF 10 STEPS HOW TO HEAL YOUR HEART!

The catchy phrase catches my eyes , I stoop my body and grab the flyer. Then I stuff  the flyer inside my bagpack. The road is full with people, wearing vibrant colours clothes ; pink, fuschia, yellow , green and red. I pretty much only have black and grey clothes in my wardrobe, Jin , my best friend sometimes jokes around saying that I am preparing for a funeral. Perhaps , a funeral for me. For me who had died the moment Dani said she wasn't in love with me anymore.

I continue walking after a few blocks , slowly , while listening to Agust D's mixtape that I downloaded yesterday. Life huh...I don't know that love could make me be like this. I am practically an adult and I run an online bussiness. I am financially okay, I should be happy. But I am not.

There , my beautiful 3 bedrooms apartment. I put in the passwords and come in. The lights are automatically switched on when the sensors sense the presence of human beings . It is quite a smart house , I'd say. I take off my stokings and quickly lie on the bed . Bliss .

Ahh.. the flyer.. the damn counseling therapy ..