Jungyeon pov

Is this the right time, should i say it now?? Yah yoo jungyeon, you not a coward and you have to say it straight forward, and it's now or never

"nayeon~aa"
"humm?"
"i know this in not the right moment but i need to say something"
"wae? what is that? you can just say it you know, don't need to be so formal like that, it's scaring me"
"ok, Im nayeon, would you like to be the stupid no jam girlfriend? " 

she cried, yeah she freak'in cried and I'm the one who make her cried

"sorry nayeon~aa, please don't cry, just forget what i said ok don't think about it"
"no....it's not that... Jungyeon you know right I'm haven't getting over with momo.... And no i won't forget it cause i know it must be so precious and hard for you, how can you just tell me to forget it"
"i know that, i know that already from the start but can you give me a chance, if it doesn't work out i will be the one who back off"
"we can't Jungyeon~a, i don't want hurt someone as good as you, you deserve better then a sinners like me"
"you know what? I don't care, i accept all of you, can you give me a chance? I will accept your weakness, your flaw, your mistake and everything of you"

This is scary, I'm scared, i know this will happen but i want to work it out, i know that my selfish desire yet i want it badly

"ok"

Mina pov

"sana-chan"
"wae, mina yaa?"
"i need to tell you something "
"what is that?"

"it's about me that killing momo nee-chan"

I can't hid it forever, i cant, i have to tell someone and i only have sana with me, my one and only person that stay with me all this time

"w..what??? What are you saying mina? Killing momo nee-chan? You must be kidding right?"
"I'm not"
"......"
"sorry sana but you have to know this, mianhae"

-flashback -

It's been a several month since me, momo nee-chan and nayeon unnie live together, it's so fun to live around them cause it's feels like you have two children that always lift up the mood everytime and it's feels like home

Yet it was annoying 

You know why??

Because i have to see those two making out every where and every time in the penthouse

I sick of that

You know why??

Because i freak'in fall for my own older twin sister girlfriend 

Yeah, i fall for that bunny, Im nayeon

I never tell anyone until this day i decide to tell it to momo nee-chan cause she deserve to know it

"nee-chan, can i have nayeon unnie instead? "
"huh? What are you saying mina of course you can she is my and yours big sis" she laugh awkwardly 

She know what i mean

"deep inside you know right what i mean, don't play stupid with me"

Her smile disappear, her eye feels empty and her expression so serious 

"i know it from the start, i thought it just me seeing it wrong, i tried to look like it's ok, I'm sorry mina but you can't nayeon is mine, i can't give her even to you, I'm sorry my lil sis but i need to be selfish this time"

She look calm and composed 

"i know you already realize it, and sorry too nee-chan, i won't give up, and i bet you didn't love her as much as you can give your live for her, right?"

I'm smirk cause i know this coward nee-chan of mine will never bet on her live and i can win this easily....... 

That's what i thought 

"sorry mina but i will give my live if i need to, if it's for nayeon unnie i give my everything, she my world mina~yaa, she my everything, why would i live if she not in my side, it's useless"

This is the first time i see nee-chan this serious, maybe i too much for saying that, should i say sorry

But i can't cause she already go out from house as soon as she got a text

It's must be from nayeon unnie

And i can just say sorry to her when she got home right.......

That's what i thought when i got a call from nayeon unnie using momo nee-chan phone, half sobbing that said momo nee-chan gone already 

She never give me a chance to say sorry

-end-

"mina~yaa neo michyeoss-eo " 
"yes I'm, I'm crazy for nayeon, I'm sorry sana, you can leave me now, i know you must be disguise on me, that's ok i accept it, it's all my fault"

Thank you for everything you give and go through for me all this time sana but you have to know this deepest and darkest part of me

You can go, i release you

She gone

And once again that's what i thought 

I thought she will go but no she didn't go instead she cry while hugging me

"I'm sorry mina~yaa, it's ok i won't leave you, you must be hurt so much mina~yaa, I'm sorry i didn't know it sooner, you must be suffer alot, I'm sorry" 

she said while crying and her face on my shoulder while I'm just standing here in the middle of living room dumfounded 

Why she said that, why she said sorry, I'm the one who should say sorry 

What the hell is she talking about 

"you don't have to denied it and hold yourself back mina~ya, it's ok, i will accept all of you, you don't have to act strong and mean anymore, it's ok to be weak, i will help you to stand up again if you fall, that's ok to be weak mina, it's ok, I'm here"

She said while caressing my hair

Deep inside i know this what i waiting for, i waiting for someone who accept everything of me, this what i need from the start

Sana pov

"I'm sorry sana~yaa, gomenasai nee-chan, I'm  sorry, I'm sorry, i wish i could say it sooner, i wish i didn't tell you my feeling and be selfish, I'm sorry nee-chan, it's my fault why you die, I'm sorry"

She throw all her guilty and upset, she crying in my arm, i never seen her like this, she must be felt so much pain and guilty all this time 

Cause she thought she killing her own sister 

"that's ok mina that's ok" i can feel momo present and that's what she said, it's give me a shock to see momo hug mina from behind. It's really heart breaking scene where mina crying measly in her knee and momo hugging her from back, momo was crying too, she must be hate seeing mina like this  

"that's ok mina, it's non of this is your fault, it's just my stupid decision, you don't have to felt guilty and it's not wrong to love someone, please take care nayeon for me"

That's what momo said, i hug her, i can felt momo nee-sama warm, and i bet mina can felt it too cause she look toward momo now

"nee-chan is that you? Am i dreaming? No i'm not, you must be come to punish me right??"

Momo didn't say anything instead she hug mina tightly, i know this is weird but this scene is so heartbreaking how strong those two bound that make they meet like this even in after live

"that's ok mina, you don't have to felt guilty, I'm ok and so you have to be ok too, I'm happy here, you're my best twin little sister, how i wish i could spent my time with you even just a little bit longer"

With that word tears fall and momo began to disappear and her last word was "mina open my secret box and see you again"

Her smile that never disappear 
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