– Sungjong POV –

“Junsoo get your things ready the school bus is about to come”

Junsoo- okay daddy

“Myungie! Your coffee’s ready”

Myungsoo- I'm coming, just trying to find the bag for my lenses

“It’s in the drawer in your office”

Myungsoo- oh … ah found it

I couldn’t help but shake my head as I hear him shout all the way from his office and later on I feel warm and big hands wrap around my waist and I then feel Myungsoo kissing my cheeks. I turn around and kiss him in the lips and he then smiled at me, a smile where you can see his perfect set of dimples in his cheeks. After that I told him to go take his seat and he did as followed and Junsoo then come out of his room ready for school.

Myungsoo- ready for school junsoo-ah?

Junsoo- yes appa

Myungsoo- that’s good study well okay? And make lots of friends be careful

Junsoo- yes appa

“I’ll pick you up later when your class ends”

Junsoo- okay daddy

“Okay then come on the school bus must be downstairs already”

We then head to the door going to the elevator and head downstairs where the school bus would be waiting and once we got down I saw his school bus arriving so we head towards the bus and I kiss Junsoo’s cheeks as he then get inside the bus and I wave goodbye to him and he does the same and I wait for the bus to go before going back to the house, once the bus leaves I then head back to our house and head to the dining room where my husband is waiting for me.

Myungsoo- Junsoo’s school bus already left?

“Mhm”

Myungsoo- he’s growing too fast jjongie I swear, it was like yesterday when we adopt him!

“Kekeke that’s true he’s already 7 years old, could you believe that it’s already been four years since we adopted him? He was just 3 years old the first time we met him and brought him home.”

Myungsoo- yeah, damn that’s so nostalgic. It was on our 3rd anniversary when we went to the orphanage and then you saw Junsoo and it was like I saw you fallen in love and I knew instantly that he is the perfect son for us.

“Kekeke if I knew you got jealous first before you thought that he is the perfect son for us”

Myungsoo- psh don’t even…

“Oh god I remember that time you were sulking because I'm giving Junsoo more attention and not you, you were grumbling like a child that time, oh god my stomach kekeke”

Myungsoo- aisht whatever jjongie you can’t blame me that time it was really like I didn’t exist and like I'm not your husband! I was to having you all for myself for a long time okay so give me a slack

“Kekeke such a big baby but don’t worry you will be my no. 1 no matter what myungie you know that”

Myungsoo- psh you better because I'm the best

“Aigoo come here I want a hug myungie”

Myungsoo- now who’s a big baby

“You don’t want to?”

Myungsoo- I didn’t say I don’t! Tsk you’re lucky I love you

“Kekeke I love you too”

I said as I wrap my arms around him and I then buried my face in the crook of his neck and let his firm arms envelop me. Despite being married for 6 years our love still the same and our life is just perfect I really can’t ask for anything more. Just having Myungsoo and Junsoo is enough for me our little family is complete and perfect in its own way. I'm content in life and I know I'm blessed more than enough with having them in my life especially having Myungsoo who has been there for me for as long as I can remember and loving me like I'm his source of life.

But the happiness that was filling me burst like a bubble because one fateful day everything comes crushing through when I come home one day and I see Myungsoo’s unconscious body on the floor, I immediately called the ambulance as I rush to Myungsoo’s unconscious body and see that he was burning hot, minutes later the medical team then arrives and put Myungsoo in a stretcher and I called my parents so that they can pick Junsoo up and Moonsoo to know what happen to his brother.

Once we got to the ambulance I grab hold on Myungsoo’s hand as the nurses checks on Myungsoo and when we arrive at the hospital they immediately rushed him to the emergency and the nurse told me that I can’t enter and just wait out there and I was pacing back and forth as panic wreck through my whole body and worry overtook my whole mind. I keep on wriggling my hands and I then called Sungyeol and told him what happened and as I was talking to him I feel tears falling down my eyes

Time went by quickly and no matter how much I ask the nurse all they can’t tell me anything and would just tell me to wait for the doctor to approach me, and I was about to strangle the nurse when I feel a hand went to my shoulders and I look back and see Sungyeol behind me and another fresh tears fall down my eyes and hugged him, he just kept rubbing my back and soothing my trembling body. It was after two hours that a doctor finally approached us and I was dying to know what is going on to my husband.

Doctor- family of Kim Myungsoo?

“I am doctor, he’s my husband”

Doctor- I see, hello Mr. Kim I’m Doctor Park and I’m really sorry for making you wait a long time but we made a few test on the patient

“And? Doctor just please tell me he will be fine please”

Doctor- please calm down Mr. Kim. I need to know how long has he been having this kind of fevers

“Uh… He’s been feeling ill for almost a week now and his fevers would go down once he drinks a flu medicine”

Doctor- I see, has he been losing weight? And any swelling or bruising?

“Doctor can you just get straight to the point what is wrong with my husband?”

Doctor- well Mr. Kim the result of the test that we conducted showed that your husband might have leukemia

“WHAT! No. No. No that can’t be those are wrong he is fine it’s just a normal flu”

Doctor- I'm sorry Mr. Kim we tested him twice already and the result is still the same I would advise that the patient is to be confined and let us conduct a few more test and observe him

“Oh god… Yeol tell me this is just a dream this isn’t happening”

Sungyeol- Jjongie calm down, I'm sure this could be treated.

“There’s a treatment right? A treatment could help him right doctor? Please tell me I can’t lose my husband doctor”

Doctor- please calm down, there is a treatment for leukemia Mr. Kim. Once we found out what kind of leukemia he has we can give him a proper treatment.

“Oh god this isn’t happening”

Sungyeol- do what you have to do doctor

Doctor- you could see the patient in a few moment’s once your arrange the papers

Sungyeol- thank you doctor

When the doctor left I felt like my strength evaporate and now I'm now sitting on the floor as I look at nothingness, I then feel a hand on my shoulder and I then focus my eyes on Sungyeol who is crouching down and looking at me.

Sungyeol- Jjongie you have to be strong for Myungsoo, he needs you to be strong right now so be strong okay? This isn’t the time to be in daze this isn’t just Myungsoo’s battle but yours also. He couldn’t win this if he sees you like this

“O…okay yeol I’ll try”

Sungyeol- good, now why don’t you sit here for a few minutes and compose yourself and I’ll handle Myungsoo’s admission and once I'm done I’ll come back and we’ll go check on Myungsoo okay?

“Thank you yeol…”

Sungyeol- don’t thank me Jjongie instead be strong for Myungsoo.

I nod my head and he just pat my shoulder as he then stand up and help me also get up and I took a sit on the chairs and he then went to the nurse station to fix Myungsoo’s admission, as I was left by myself I couldn’t help but stare at the wall and think of what the doctor just said and what will happen in the future. But Sungyeol is right I can’t be discouraged right now I need to be strong for Myungsoo and myself for him to be able to fight this. Whatever happens I'm sure we can overcome this.

When Sungyeol then returns, he ushered me to where Myungsoo’s room is and when we got there Myungsoo was already in the room and I immediately walk over to where my husband is soundly sleeping, I kissed his forehead and the heart monitor is the only assurance that I have that he is alive and breathing. Hours later Myungsoo then started groaning and shifting and when he opens his eyes I couldn’t help but sigh in relieve and when he saw me he let his hand went to my cheeks and caress my cheeks and I lean in to his touch

Myungsoo- you cried, why?

His voice croaky but I didn’t point it out and just shook my head to answer him and he crease his eyebrows and was intending to get up but I stop him and he just look at me

Myungsoo- why did you cry Jjongie?

“Nothing Myungie, I just got worried when I saw you”

Myungsoo- huh? What happen? Where are we?

Sungyeol- psh stupid you collapse due to your fever so now you are in the hospital

Myungsoo- oh yeol, you’re here. Anyway I see, I'm sorry for making you worry Jjongie but I'm fine now so don’t worry okay? When can we go home?

“They have to do a few tests before you are discharge Myungie”

Myungsoo- … Did they told you?

“You knew?” I asked him as I then sat up properly and look at him and see him sighing and from that I knew the answer immediately, I don’t know how I should feel about this but one thing is for sure I felt betrayed

Myungsoo- yes, last month I felt a swollen lymph nodes in my armpit and I check online what it could mean and then after that I then went to a hospital and got myself check and the doctor told me I have leukemia.

“AND YOU DIDN’T TELL ME A SINGLE THING? WHY? DO YOU PLAN TO JUST HIDE IT FROM ME UNTIL THE VERY END AND WHAT? Or I am that insignificant for you to tell me?”

Myungsoo- no Jjongie, no. It’s not like that I was just looking for the right time to tell you and I really don’t know how to tell it to you, I know you’ll be worried and I don’t want you to. You know how important you are to me and same goes to Junsoo it’s just that I don’t want to worry you Jjongie believe me.

I can see sincerity in his eyes and I can also see pain and uncertainty. I then feel my tears building again and I guess he saw it as he then sat up and pulled me in his arms and kept on saying his sorry and I just cry in his embrace. He was rubbing my back and soothing me and asking me to stop crying and minutes later I did stop crying and he pulled away and look at me as he then wipes my tears away.

Myungsoo- I really hate seeing you cry baby so please don’t cry anymore I’ll get better don’t worry we can overcome this

“Promise me that you wouldn’t keep something away from me ever again”

Myungsoo- I promise Jjongie, I promise.

“I love you”

Myungsoo- I love you too baby don’t worry I will fight for you and Junsoo, I will fight for us

“Mhm, I know you will. I believe in you Myungie”

And with that our fight with his leukemia started, we found out that the type of leukemia he has is Chronic lymphocytic leukemia and with that his treatment then started, various of test everyday and then the first half of the therapy started and his body was listening to the medicines and the doctor’s would tell that Myungsoo’s condition was improving and was very happy of course we are also ecstatic with that. Hope is what we are holding on and our faith is what making us strong together with our love for one another.

The first treatment was Radiation therapy which help treat the lymph nodes in Myungsoo’s body and it did help him greatly his body listened to it though Myungsoo would be in bed for a few days after the radiation and during those few days he would sometimes vomit but nonetheless he continue to fought the side effects of it, he had to undergo radiation therapy for 8 sessions every 21 days so meaning he had to go through that 8 times every 21 days and despite that we got through it and finish it though you can see that he is slowly losing his weight.

The process of radiation therapy was hard and long but I'm just glad that Myungsoo made it through and even though he was in pain he willed himself to fight it and because of his determination I also continue to be strong for him every night when I lay down beside him I would just hug him and kiss him and then pray to god that he guide us and that to not take Myungsoo from us because I don’t think I can go on without him. I'm not ready for him to leave us yet I just can’t.

After he finished the radiation therapy he then undergo chemotherapy for another 8 sessions just like his radiation therapy and that was when everything come crashing down once again, the doctors did explain to us that he would lose all his hair and he possibly lose some more weight and wouldn’t have any appetite and the nausea would still be there especially after the chemotherapy but I didn’t expect for him to come out like that, every day his hair would fall down to the point that I can see him get depressed as I see him caress his now thinning hair.

On his second session there were complications and that he wouldn’t stop vomiting to the point that he was having a hard time breathing and he was immediately rushed in the emergency room and at that moment I just want to break down but I kept being strong for Myungsoo for our promise and for our future. I willed myself not to cry because Myungsoo wouldn’t want that and that he was being strong for us so I had to be strong also and welcome him with a smile.

It was tough but I did manage to smile at him when he woke up, I thought that was the most painful thing but during his 4th session that was when things were spiraling down and his body wouldn’t respond to the medicine anymore and it would just make his condition worsen. If before after the session we would be able to go home now we can’t, the hospital was now like our second home despite me not liking it I couldn’t do anything about it. Myungsoo was losing his weight he doesn’t look like the Myungsoo that I know and grew up with, his bone was like his second skin now.

When Junsoo’s birthday comes we celebrated it in the hospital and Myungsoo kept on saying his sorry to our son because of it but Junsoo would just shake his head and tell his appa what’s important is that he was celebrating his birthday with his appa. Junsoo would occasionally visit him and would always give him a gift every time our son visits, because now we decided that he would stay at my parent’s house while Myungsoo is undergoing his therapy. Every time that Junsoo come and visit I can see Myungsoo lightening up and getting cheerful but after that he would be in constant pain.

And all I could do is watch and cry in the bathroom at night when Myungsoo is soundly asleep, then the next morning act like nothing is wrong and smile just like how he wanted to see me. I don’t know how I did it but I did and it goes for a whole year but then one day we were in his hospital room just lying down in his bed his arms wrap around me and same goes with my arms hugging his once strong and big body.

Myungsoo- Jjongie you know I love you right?

“Mhm, and I love you too”

Myungsoo- don’t forget to smile okay, I want to see you to smile all the time even when I'm gone.

“Myung…”

Myungsoo- shh… We fought Jjongie, we fought with all our might and I can say I'm proud of what we did but I guess it’s time to accept things. Thank you for everything Jjongie, I love you always and forever. Tell Junsoo that I love him so much.

“Myung don’t… don’t do this to me. No please”

Myungsoo- shh baby I’ll always be by your side and in your heart. I'm really glad to meet you and have you in my life Jjongie. Tomorrow I want to see Junsoo okay? So pick him up for me?

“Ok… Myungie I will”

Myungsoo- thank you I love you Jjongie

“Me too, I love you so, so much Myung”

I gulp down and hold down the tears that were b in eyes, I felt his breathing then even out and I look at Myungsoo’s sleeping face and caress his sunken cheeks and kiss his now choppy lips. That night I didn’t sleep even a blink fearing that when I do he’ll slip away from me and I'm not ready for that. I don’t think I will ever be ready for that day. The whole night I watch Myungsoo’s sleeping face and I realize that he was still as handsome as ever and that I love him just so much.

When the morning sun comes I greeted Myungsoo a good morning and kiss his lips and he smiled weakly at me after we both finish eating our breakfast I then called my parents and ask them if they could bring Junsoo over and they said yes and it was around 8 am when they arrive Myungsoo instantly cheered up and gather our son in his embrace and hug Junsoo like it was the last time. I can see that he was whispering something in his ears but when I asked them about it Myungsoo would just shake his head and tell me it was a secret between the two of them.

And with that I let it go because I'm sure I wouldn’t find out about it no matter what, when they left it was only us that was left. We were hugging and he was kissing my head, he would then occasionally tighten his embrace and would whisper I love you in my ears and then we would joke about a lot of things and laugh at our silliness. It was a nice day and after months of sleepless night, that night I manage to get a good sleep, wrap in your warm embrace but when I woke up the next day my world was crashing down and my heart shuttered in thousands of pieces and shuttered in unfixable state.

– Myungsoo POV –

Do you remember? Do you remember the first time we met? I guess you don't but I do, I remember it like it was just yesterday, I was 5 years old while you were 4. Mom brought me over to your house; I remember how you were trying to hide behind auntie's petite legs. I actually thought you were cute because of that, I was also shy because it was the first time I saw and meet you and aunty but still I showed my sincerest smile and used my chirpiest voice to introduce and greet the two of you and I guess it worked since you peeked and try to take a glimpse of me.

Aunty guided us to your play pen and told us to play nicely as they went and take a sit on the couch just a few steps away from us. You immediately grab your teddy bear and hugged it and I seriously find it such a cute scene despite you not talking to me and having your back face me, I just stand there and watch you but a few minutes pass by and you finally turn around and look at me. I just gave you my dimpled smile and you turn around like you were scared at me
I actually felt sad when you did that but then you stand up and slowly walk closer to me. You then hold your teddy bears hand and extended it to me, I didn't know what to do so I just stared at it at first but then you suddenly speak up and started moving your teddy bears hand

"Hello my name is gyubear it's nice to meet you"

Hearing your soft and angelic voice brought a smile in my face, I finally then realize what you are trying to do, you are using your teddy bear to get to know me and talk to me, and somehow befriend me, so I then extended my hand also and grab hold on your teddy bears hand.

"Hello gyubear, I'm Myungsoo. It's nice to meet you too! How old are you? I'm 5!"

I said as I use my other arm and show with my hand how old I am, you were looking at me intently and it's like your eyes are sparkling during that time

Sungjong- uhm gyubear is still a baby but I'm 4 years old and my name is Sungjong

"Hello Sungjongie, can we be friends?"

I asked while tilting my head as I look at you intently and you nods your head really fast to the point that I thought your head would fall off. Kekeke anyway since that day we began to be inseparable to the point it would get umma or aunty mad because we don't want to be apart from one another, that day was really one of my treasured memories you know Sungjongie, it was the first time I meet you, you who also catches my eyes and become a huge and important aspect in my life.

Hmm how about the time where I started going to the same school as yours? Do you remember it also? Well I remember it! But every time I do remember it I couldn't help but feel embarrassed, you wanna know why? Well because I was older than you but I was so scared on going inside the school, I remember crying and begging umma not to leave me and telling her how I don't want to go inside and kept on hugging her legs.

I remember umma starting to get mad at me and telling how I shouldn't act like that since I am a big boy already yet I didn't listen to her and continue clinging on her like my life depended on it, but then you saw me! You then run towards to where we are.

Sungjong- hello aunty good morning! Myungie going to my school?

Umma- good morning Sungjong-ah, and yes starting today Myungsoo will attend this school, you will be school mates

Sungjong- ehh? Really aunty? Jjongie will always see Myungie then?

Umma- yes Jjongie, you will always see Myungsoo but for now he is being difficult sigh

Sungjong- def... Difficult? What's that aunty?

Umma- oh, uhm I mean he doesn't want to go to school because he is scared.

Sungjong- EHHH? Scared? Myungie you scared?

"hic...hic..."

Umma- yes he is scared

Sungjong- Myungie shouldn't be scared! There isn't ghost in our school! And if they are I'll be there and protect Myungie! Jjongie isn't afraid of ghost

"Really?"

Sungjong- mhm! And I have lots of friends! They could be your friends also! I'm sure they will be really happy if they become your friends also! I'm sure Myungie will have lots of friends

"But will you still be my friend Sungjongie?"

Sungjong- I will be Myungie's bestest friend! And you will be my bestest friend!

"Woah! Really?"

Sungjong- mhm! If you will be part of my class I will ask teacher if you could sit beside me even if I like sitting next to taemin, but if Myungie isn't gonna be on the same class we could still see and play with each other during recess!

"Promise?"

Sungjong- promise

"Okay"

Umma- you'll go inside now Myungsoo?

"Uhm can Sungjongie hold my hand while we walk inside?"

You then grab my hand and smiled at me, I remember how our small hands intertwined to one another and we then wave goodbye to our parents as we go inside the school, and true to your words despite us not being on the same class you would go find me in the play ground and we would eat and play together. You then introduce some of your own set of friends and they then become my friends. If it weren't for you I guess I wouldn't attended school and continue crying and clinging to umma that time.

It was such a silly memory right? Oh how about that one time during elementary school? Do you remember it? I was in my room coloring the new book appa gave me but then you suddenly come into my room, I was about to tell you about it and ask you if you wanted to color with me but then I see your sad look so I immediately pour all my attention to you.

"Jjongie what's wrong? Why are you sad?"

Sungjong- I... Myungie we are going to gwangju

You said with your saddest and troubled voice, I remember my heart beating wilding because I was scared that you'll leave me forever and we wouldn't see each other anymore, you also thought the same so both of us started crying and we hugged each other

Sungjong- I... I don't want to be separated from you Myungie. I don't want to go.

"I don't want to be away from you too Jjongie, I don't want to be separated from my best friend" both of us weep as we both hugged one another.

Sungjong- bu...but what can we do? I'm leaving tonight!

"Let’s run away! I saw it from the TV, the noona from the TV was also crying and telling the hyung that she is also leaving and the hyung said they should run away so that they wouldn't be apart! Let's do that Sungjongie I don't want to be away from you."

Sungjong- ok...okay as long as we could be beside each other I'm okay with it.

After we agreed I grab my pororo bag and put my favorite blanket and my new coloring book together with my crayons, then I also put a few snacks in my bag and I then grab your hand as we head to your house, you then pack your things also. Not forgetting to bring gyubear with you and once we are all set, we started running but then it started raining so we went under the jungle gym for cover.

It was a good thing I also brought a towel so I wipe your wet face and arms and after that I did the same. I brought out my favorite blanket and covered ourselves out so that we wouldn't be cold; you were hugging me really tight when there was a thunder resonating the darkening skies. You weren't afraid of ghost but you are afraid of thunders but I wasn't so I made sure to pull you closer to me so that you wouldn't be that scared anymore

"Don't worry Jjongie, I will protect you from the thunder I'm here so don't be scared."

Sungjong- mhm as long as we are together Myungie

"Yes as long as we are together"

But then as time passes by the rain started pouring even harder and it was getting even colder I can feel you shivering that time. But then suddenly there was a light and I heard uncle's voice calling our names I got really scared because if they found us I'm sure they will take us home and we will be apart. I pulled you closer to me and stayed very quiet but then moments later I saw uncle looking at us

Uncle- Sungjong-ah! Myungsoo-ah! Look at you two shivering and drench! Aisht what are you two doing here aigoo come on let's all go home!

"No! I don't want to go home!"

Uncle- Myungsoo what? This isn't the time to be hard headed Myungsoo! Your umma is really worried about you and it's really raining real badly! We have to go home"

"But I don't want to be away from Sungjong uncle! If we go home Jjongie and I will be separated forever!"

Sungjong- yeah appa! I don't want to be apart to Myungsoo! I don't want to move to gwangju!

Uncle- what are you two rascals talking about? Separating? Moving? Gwangju? Aigoo let's all go back first and we will explain it to you two.

After saying that uncle took you away from me and even though you and I were hugging each other real tightly uncle effortlessly gathered you into his hold. Then my appa who I didn't notice took me into his embrace also and despite us being carried by our own fathers you and I manage to hold each other’s hands as we head to our own home, when we got home both our umma rush to us and embrace us, and check if we weren't hurt after that they carried us to the living room of your house and wrap us up with a blanket.

Umma- what were you thinking going out without telling us? Huh Myungsoo? Sungjong?

Aunty- we were really worried! Don't you ever do that again understand? I thought I was gonna die when we couldn't find you two

Uncle- now you two better explain why you two pulled such a stunt?

"We didn't want to be separated uncle, Jjongie said you'll move to gwangju and I told him we should run away so that we wouldn't be separated!"

Sungjong- I don't want to move away appa, umma. I want to be where Myungsoo is.

Aunty- what are you two talking about? Moving away? Separated? Aigoo

Uncle- Myungsoo, Sungjong we aren't moving to gwangju! We are only going to gwangju because your grandfather is sick we should visit him and see if he is doing well already.

"You aren't moving to gwangju?"

Aunty- aigoo no Myungsoo, we will only be away for a week, and after that we will be back and you two will be together again!

Sungjong- re...really umma? Appa?

Aunty- yes Sungjongie, aigoo why did you two even thought we are moving aigoo these kids. You two will be together until the two of you grow up so don't worry. Aigoo

Umma- aigoo they are so cute, running away because they thought they'll be apart kekeke but listen you two never do something like this ever again okay?

The two of us nod our head and then aunty gave both of us a warm chocolate drink and after we finish drinking it we fall asleep while hugging each other. Kekeke how foolish we were right? But that’s the first time I realize that I couldn't live without you Sungjong, that's the first time I realize how essential you are in my life. I just couldn't live without you sigh.

The next memory that pops in my head is when we were in middle school; do you remember what happen that time? Kekeke I wouldn't have imagine you were the jealous type before that happen kekeke. You didn't know how sad I was when you started avoiding and stop talking to me, but when we clear it up I was really happy to the point that I feel like I was floating in the sky! Sigh I remember it like it was just this morning.

"Jjongie! Sungjongie! Hey Sungjong wait up!"

I kept calling you but you didn't stop walking ahead of me and you didn't bother looking at me also. Instead of slowing down your step you increase your pace. You haven't been talking to me since almost 4 days already, no matter how much I call you or go to your house you wouldn't pay attention to me and wouldn't talk to me. Actually it really hurts and I really don't know what I did to make you mad or make you start to avoid me. I wanted to say sorry but I don't know what I did wrong, but today I am set on to making you talk to me, and ask for your forgiveness to whatever wrong thing I did to you.

Because I really can't take it, you not talking to me, it really pains me and it's like I have an empty spot in me that no one and nothing can fill out. So I was really decided to talk to you and seek for your forgiveness but when I was about to catch you and grab your arm, my newest classmate sungyeol grab my arm I really wanted to brush his arm away and strangle that time but sigh I couldn't be mad at him because he is so nice to me and I guess I understand how he feels well somehow, he is a new student, so he doesn't have a friend and our teacher did told me to be extra nice to him and guide him so I really don't have much a choice.

"What is it sungyeol? I have something important to do so if it's not really important please let's talk about it later"

Sungyeol- no, no Myungsoo this is a life and death situation

"Sigh don't be such a drama queen, sigh what is this life threatening thing?"

Sungyeol- LET ME COPY YOUR GEOMETRY ASSIGNMENT PLEASE!!!!!

"What the... Seriously sungyeol that’s a life threatening matter?"

Sungyeol- yes for me that is, please Myung please! If I don't have an assignment teacher Jung would make me stand all through the class again please

"If you knew that teacher Jung would do that why didn't you do your assignment then?"

Sungyeol- well I was really gonna do it but when I look at the questions my head started spinning and when I tried solving one question I fallen asleep. So please Myung help me just this once, let me copy yours please

"Sigh, fine but only this one time tsk"

Sungyeol-thank you, thank you, thank you Myungsoo! You are a life saver and you are really the best friend a guy could ask for!

"Yeah, yeah whatever, let’s just go back to our classroom before class starts again sigh"

I ended up agreeing to sungyeol's request since you already slipped away and I was decided I'll use the second break meaning lunch break to chase after you once again. All through my class my mind was all full of thoughts of you, trying to think or remember what I had done to make you mad and start to avoid me but nothing comes into my mind. The only time I snapped out of my trance was when I heard the bell rung and signaled that lunch break is on. I immediately stand up and grab my bag and went to look after you.

I went to your classroom but you weren't there, I went to the cafeteria but there wasn't a single sign that you are and were there. I bumped with your classmates and friends and ask them where you are but they didn't know also and said you just suddenly disappear once the bell rings. But despite that I didn't gave up and look the whole school for you, I actually didn't had a chance to eat because I was too focus on finding you, I only gave up when the bell rings once again signaling that classes is about to start, and once again I didn't have a choice but to give up and put my search for you on hold. I'll just look for you once school is done for today.

And later that day, even before the bell rings I stand up and rushed out of my class room, I could hear my teacher calling me but I paid no heed, since all I can think about was you, really decided to see and talk to you, so I run towards your room and when I arrive outside your classroom door, I took a peek and I see you still inside your room putting your stuff back into your bag. I stayed outside and just wait for you to come out, and when you did walk out of your class room door I called your name, I see you gone stiff after hearing my voice but like earlier you ignored me

"Jjongie! Hey Sungjongie!" No matter how much I call you, you just won't stop and turn around and face me. I was really getting frustrated and desperate

"Jjongie please wait, talk to me"

I begged you but you didn't pay any heed, you just continue to head out of the school and the pain in my heart is really getting unbearable. It was near the school gate that I did catch up with you and finally manage to grab your arm and make you face me and look at me after me, I was somehow expecting to see you smile at me but instead you are glaring at me, a glare that could slice my heart into a thousand pieces.

Sungjong- what? What do you want Myungsoo?

"Jjongie..." I whimper to how harsh and cold your voice sounds like. It was the first time you used that kind of tone on me.

Sungjong- tsk stop following and looking for me, clearly because now you have someone else who you could call "best friend" I understand full well that you don't need me anymore

"What are you talking about Jjongie? I don't understand what you are saying"

Sungjong- just go hang out with your new best friend Myungsoo leave me alone

"New best friend? Who?"

Sungjong- don't feign ignorance you know who I'm talking about

"I don't know who you are talking about Jjongie please calm down"

Sungjong- the new guy!!! Tsk! Now go away! Go to that new guy and leave me alone you don't need me anymore!

"What are you talking about Jjongie?"

Sungjong- just leave me alone Myungsoo just be with that new guy clearly you enjoy being with him now.

"New guy? You mean sungyeol?" I asked you but you didn't answer but the moment I mentioned yeol's name I feel you stiffed. I guess I was right then

"Jjongie, yeol is just a friend the teacher asked me to guide him around since he is the new student so he isn't familiar with this school or with other students yet. You will forever be and my one and only best friend please Jjongie believe me"

I begged you and as I was talking you were looking straight in my eyes and after a few seconds I felt your hands on my cheeks and caressing my cheeks and wiping the fallen tears that I didn't know cascaded on my eyes. I was so desperate to explain it to you and fix our problem that I began crying without me noticing

Sungjong- promise?

"Yes Jjongie, always remember that no matter how many people or friends I got to know you will always hold and have a special spot in my heart and that spot is only for you. Please don't avoid me anymore and please don't be mad at me anymore I don't think I can handle one more day without you."

Sungjong- you are so silly, but okay. I won't avoid you anymore. I'm sorry for acting like that. I don't know what come into me; I just don't like it seeing you all friendly with that new guy. It was somehow like he was gonna steal you away from me.

"You are the silly one Jjongie; no one would and could ever steal me away from you. I will always be beside you"

Sungjong- yes I know that now. I'm sorry Myungie

"Don't say sorry anymore Jjongie, I'm just glad we made up already. Anyway come on"

Sungjong- huh? Where to?

"Let’s grab some crepe, let’s celebrate us making up. And I somehow feel that you are craving for some strawberry crepe"

Sungjong- kekeke you really know me well. Your treat right? Kekeke lets go

After that we both head to your favorite crepe store and just enjoyed our crepe as I listen to your stories and us just fooling around and catching up on the days we weren't together. At that time I feel something grow deeper for you as I watch you smile at me and as I feel you hold my hand and as I wipe a stray cream on your lips I feel warmth spread inside me.

The next memory that flashed into my mind was when we were in high school. Sigh I think that time were the darkest and heart breaking point in my life. It was when you told me some jerk face named siyoon was courting you and you were starting to fall for him. When I heard you say that I felt like my world just crumbled into pieces and my heart were shuttered into unfixable thousands of pieces. In the outside I was smiling with you and wishing luck for you but in the inside I was broken beyond repair, I was miserable, I was hopeless and it was like my soul has left my body.

You started hanging out less with me and hanging more with your suitor, sometimes you would ask me to come along and because I could never say no to you I would eventually come along and watch as my heart continuously breaks apart as you smile and laugh with him. But as my heart is falling apart I can see that yours are b with love and with that I thought that this pain is worth it as long as you are happy, since your happiness is what comes first. You will always and ever be my priority, you will always be on the top of my list and who would come first before everything else.

As weeks gone by you already started dating that siyoon what's his face is and I haven't seen you that happy before so I tried to cope up with the constant pain I went through whenever I see you two together. I was the ever supportive best friend that you needed and thought of, I only wish for your happiness and you are happy so I cope with all of it because every pain I feel is worth it whenever I see you smile and radiate with happiness.