jinyoung;

[5.15 am]

why was i born with a used soul and empty heart?

what happened to me?

why couldn't i be happy for once?

yet i know who could change that...

mark.

this is what my heart and soul have been fighting about,

i need him,

i can't have him,

i'm not good enough.

depressing.

i'm depressing, and there's nothing that could help these thoughts.

even the man that can make me smile, make me laugh, and make me happy...

can cause these depressing thoughts.

once someone has torn you, broken you... 

stole every piece of something special...

you can never really get it back.

no matter how hard you try to forget it, it'll always be there in your mind knowing that you went through it.

i look down at the lavender rose, with a beautiful ribbon tying the note to it.

i smile lightly, knowing someone knows...

someone understands.