TIFFANY’S POV

“The one time you turned your back on her will haunt you forever.” That the lines Yoong had said to me before and yes it was true because it’s been about 2 years since she wasn’t mine but still she lingers in my heart and mind.

She’s my GF before and I turn my back on her when SM decides to kick Jessi out. Being an idol is my greatest dream and I can’t just give it up, when it happened Jessi ask my hand on marriage and told me we can just quit being an idol and live free on our home country.

I’m so confuse that time; I love to get married with her but not at the same time our career is at peak. We’re the most beloved girl group not just in Korea but also in Asia and I can’t just leave everything to be with her.

FLASHBACK

We just got back from the company where the president told us that they decide it was better to continue the group with just eight and without Jessi. This past few months Jessi became busy with her company and it affects the groups because the practice is always delayed or we just practice without her.

Also the company is always against on Jessi’s decision to build the Blanc but can’t help but agreed when she threatened the company by her involvement with the group. The SM is afraid to ruin their precious girl group so they agreed but since they can’t see any kind of use of the Blanc to them they now don’t care about Jessi anymore and just decided to continue the group without her.

“How are we going tell it on her?” Hyo ask

“I don’t know.” Taetae said, they may be not that close but I know she’s also hurt by this

“Fany ah, where is she now?”

“She texted me this morning that she’s on her flight going back here for our schedule tomorrow in Shenzhen.” I answer them lifelessly, maybe after an few hours more she’ll be here in the dorm already

 “She is going to be devastated because of this. Sica unnie will be shattered.” Yoong mumble, Jessi’s little rascal

“We can’t let this happened Tae, we can talk to the company again, and we have to talk to them again.” Sunny said and cry

All of us cry silently there, not knowing what to do. I don’t know how to be complete without her here in the group. She’s with us since the beginning how will this group go on without her.

“You know we can’t Sunny ah, we argued back earlier but they decided already, we don’t have anything to say it.” Taetae said

“Yes we can, we can threatened them like Sica did before. We can tell them to disband us than be incomplete.” Soo said

“And what Soo? They will sue us; we just sign a 3years contract. We can’t do anything because they own us, they own SNSD. We can’t fight them, you know that. Let’s be realistic here, we can’t fight SM. We will surely lose.”

“Are you telling us that we won’t do anything to protect her, she’s our sister?” Soo yelled at Taetae

“Unnie please calm down, we have to talk and think this carefully.”

“Calm down? Hyunnie we can’t calm down because SM will announce her leaving the group tomorrow.” Soo said, I can’t say anything. I don’t know what to do for Jessi.

I don’t know how long we sitting and crying on the living until the door open and reveal the girl that smiling but turn into frown when she see us.

“What happened here? Why are like this? Yoong? Hyo? Soo? Tiff baby? What happened here?” She approaches me and hugs me and comforted me and it makes me cry even more

“ *sob* *sob**sob**sob*”\

“Hey Baby what happen? You can tell me I will to do everything to make thing okay just tell me okay, you know it hurt me seeing you like this, all of you.”

“We need to do something; we can’t just our back on her like this.” Yul suddenly said

“Yes we can, she wants her company so she need to face the consequence.” Tae

“What are you saying? What’s happening? Hyunnie?”

“Sica unnie…” Seo stand up and hug Jessi

“What’s happen?” Jessi comforted Seo

“The SM wants *sob*you out Unnie, *sob*they decided that they *sob*wants you of the group.” Seo

“W-what?” She suddenly stumble and sit on the couch, I hug her.

“We need to do *sob*something Tae, we can’t let *sob*SM kick her out.”

“We can’t do anything about it anymore Sunny ah. We’re just an idol, what can we do.” Taetae says

“T-they can’t do that, right? Tiff it wasn’t true, right? You’re just pranking me, right?” Jessi said and chuckled but it was lifeless

“--------------“ All of us didn’t say anything

“Girls, please tell me it wasn’t true, GIRLS ANSWER ME!” She yelled and we can just look at her and her eyes you can see the pain in them. She suddenly runs towards the door and leave.

“JESSI…” I run to her and hug her from behind

“Tiff, *sob* I need to go, *sob* I will talk to *sob* President Kim, *sob* he can’t do this to *sob* me.” She gets out of my embrace and rides the elevator.

The night she didn’t comeback so all of us got worried and called her but her phone is off, we call Krystal and she said her sister is locking herself to her room. When we agreed to go to her house some of our bodyguards came and tell us we can’t go out until tomorrow for the Fan meeting.

After that Fan meeting we talk again to the CEO but he still didn’t take back her decision even after Sunny threatened him about disbanding the group. He just gave us a smirk and told us to do what we want and they won’t prevent us but we need to expect a law suit if we did something.

We can’t do anything after that and just accept the fact that we are now an eight member group. We didn’t